Saturday, October 30, 2010

Ounce by Ounce, Inch by Inch

I keep saying this is a process, and it sure as heck is...a slow one!  I'm having patience so far because the weight is coming off, even though it's S-L-O-W.  Today is weigh in day, so here it is.  My total loss to date is...

I really wanted to hit that number, and that's just what I got, not an ounce more.  I'll take it.  Ho Hum.

A couple years ago a friend of mine, who is also a personal trainer, convinced me to start taking body measurements.  I was working out a lot and not losing much, and she bet me I was likely losing inches.  She was so right.  Thankfully I kept the measurements saved on my computer.  I decided to measure myself today and do a comparison.  Unfortunately my last measurements were from January 2009, I  must have gotten discouraged along the way and gave up.  Anyhow, from then until now, I've lost a half inch here and there (arms, thighs, etc.) but the big eye opener was my hips.  I've lost 2 1/2 inches from my hips!  Holy cow that's a lot.  Anyone who knows me personally knows I definitely have some child bearing hips, and that area, including the BUTT, has always been a problem area for me.  So today I am thankful for shrinking hips and loose jeans.  Even when the scale is being stubborn, I can be happy knowing I am being successful.  Those power cycling classes must be doing something!

Remember I wrote about that support group meeting I went to?  Well, one of the topics was positive thinking and self talk.  I do know from personal experience that being positive will lead to positive outcomes.  Going to that support group just sort of reminded me of the idea.  That's why I try my best to remain positive about this process, and be patient.  
As far as the positive self talk, I'm not so sure about that.  My friends and neighbors might think I'm losing more than just weight!  Maybe I should have a daily talk with my band instead of a talk with myself.  Oh yeah, that's more sane, right?  I could say "Hey band, we're in this together.  It's me and you buddy.  Let's do this!".  Let's see how that works.  I must think of a name for my band.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Headed in the Right Direction

It's weigh in day, and it looks like the second fill is working.  So, my total as of this morning is...


I really wanted that darn .2 to make it an even 25.  However, right after I weighed myself, I did a one hour Power Cycling class and burned 500 calories, so I'm pretty sure I got it!
Since the second fill, I can definitely feel a big difference.  Today I had 3 small 'meals' and 2 snacks, and I was stuffed.  Since I'm only able to eat small amounts, I have to be really careful to make sure what I do eat is really healthy and full of protein.  

Here's what today looked like:

Breakfast-Protein shake
AM Snack-cheese stick
Lunch-Hummus and corn chips (baked, all natural)
PM Snack-Banana
Dinner-one veggie burger and a few bites of a Mahi Mahi patty

Notice no sides, no mindless snacking, and sadly no veggies (except in the veggie burger).  There's just no room for anything else.  Before this fill I was using sugar free pudding or posicles to get me through the day, but not any more.  Pre-band I always had a salad and a starchy side with dinner.  No room for that now.

Unfortunately, I have experienced food getting "stuck" twice now.  The first time was with a bite of a muffin.  The kids and I made really super healthy muffins from the "Deceptively Delicious" cook book.  We're talking whole wheat flour, cauliflower puree, natural peanut butter, no oil...HEALTHY.  I really wanted one.  I broke one in half and took one teeny tiny bite.  Suddenly my band said "HEY, what the hell do you think you're doing to me?!".  Stuck, stuck, stuck!  Ugh, the pain, the slimy mouth, the hiccups.  I won't be doing that again.
The second episode was last night with a bite of the crust of a grilled cheese sandwich.  I hadn't eaten dinner, but the kids had grilled cheese and there was some left.  Of course, I made it with whole grain bread and 2% cheese, no butter.  I took a bite of the crust, and lets just say my band repeated the muffin performance.  

I have come to accept the fact that, like most bandsters, I  just can't have bread.  I have to tell you, I really like bread.  A lot.  I do know I can live without it, but am not delusional enough to believe I can live without carbs.  So, tonight I went to Trader Joe's and searched the aisles for some sort of substitute.  You see, when I have tuna or hummus, I need something to go with it.  I just can't eat a bowl of hummus with nothing to put it on.  Here's what I found...

I haven't tried these yet but I do like that they're all natural.  I try as much as possible to stay away from artificial crap in my food.  These have 3 grams of protein per serving too, so that's a nice plus.

After Power Cycling, I went to my first support group meeting.  This is the first one I've been able to make it to but I know I'll be back.  It was great.  Today the speaker was a therapist who talked about the physiology behind addiction, and what happens in our brains when we eat our trigger foods.  All good stuff.
I guess that's all the news worth reporting.  See ya' next time!

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Just Top it Off Please!

I went in for my second fill appointment yesterday.  Funny how at my first appointment I had to meet with several different people and felt like I was there forever.  This time, it was just me and the doctor and I was out in less than 10 minutes.
He saw that I hadn't lost much since last time and we agreed that it was time for a fill.  He confirmed everything that I had read on the forums about people not feeling much of a difference after just one fill.  He says most people feel it after the second and third fills and really start losing.  I sure hope that's the case for me because I'd like to start seeing the numbers go down!
I told him about the little stitch that my body rejected.  He agreed that it was most definitely a stitch.  He says that they're supposed to dissolve but sometime the body just grabs onto one, and spits it out.  Funny, but that's exactly what happened.  The human body is a most fascinating machine.
So, last night I had oatmeal for dinner of course.  The day of the fill I'm supposed to stick to soft foods.  Today I can go back to 'normal' eating, but so far I'm afraid.  I had a protein shake this am. for breakfast, and really took my time drinking it, taking little sips.  I'm really afraid of that "stuck" feeling that so many of us talk about.  I'd rather avoid that.  The first thing I noticed this morning is that I didn't wake up starving, like I had been for the past few days.  That's a good sign.  I guess at this point it will be a day or two before I really know if I have restriction.  Lunch time should be interesting.
That's all for now.  More in a few days!

Sunday, October 17, 2010

Two Month "Bandiversary"

Today marks month 2 since surgery.  I'm feeling good, and comfortable in my own skin.  I'm working out more and have tons more energy.  However, I haven't lost anything since last week.  I go to the doc on Wednesday and he was very clear when he said "If you aren't losing a pound a week, I need to see you".  So, it looks like a fill is in order.  I've been reading a lot about fills and understand that it's the second fill that is the humdinger!  I'm sure hoping this is the case because I'm sick of hanging out at 23 pounds.  I'm grateful for my loss so far, and all the benefits I've felt, but it's time to move on already!
So, as promised, here are the before and after pics.  Actually, it's before and 'during', because this is a process that I'm going through, so I'm not at 'after' yet!
Last time I said there wasn't much of a noticeable difference.  Dena called me right up and said she could tell in my butt!  That's certainly good news because that's exactly where I'd like to start losing the weight.  Thanks Dena!


Thanks for all your support ladies, it really helps!  I'll be back on Wednesday to tell you about my appointment.

Thursday, October 14, 2010

What Doesn't Kill Me...Will Make Me Stronger!

Well. I've met my personal trainer.  She's about 20 years old and competes in hot body bikini contests.  Yup, apparently she came in first place last year.  So no matter how good I think I look, or how loose my jeans are, when I stand in the mirror next to this chick, I look FLABolicious!  I'm certainly not trying to compare myself to this teeny tiny person who has never birthed a baby, but it sure is hard to feel good about yourself when you're standing in a full length mirror next to a bikini model!  Sheesh.  She has been very sweet though and said I am a lot stronger than most of her clients.  She informed me after the first day that she sees no reason to go easy on me.  Great.  Our sessions are only 30 minutes long, and even though the work out was hard, I didn't think I'd be sore the next day.  WRONG!  The backs of my arms and my inner thighs were on fire.  Thank you very much bikini girl!

On a side note...after my first training session, my primary incision site was really tender.  That lasted almost 2 days.  I thought I pulled or strained something.  Then, all of a sudden I saw something poking out of the corner of the incision.  I gave it a gentle squeeze and something black came out!  I believe it was a subcutaneous stitch that never dissolved.  How weird is that!?  After it came out, the hole closed up and no more tenderness.  The body is an amazing thing.  (I know my cute little nurse friend Dena is loving this).

Since Sunday is the 17th, which marks the 2 month anniversary of my surgery, I'll be posting my weigh in, and current pictures on that day.  I'm working all day on Saturday anyway so I won't have much time for posting.  So, until then be well my friends!

Sunday, October 10, 2010

A Day Late....A Pound Short?

Once again I'm late with my weekly weigh in.  We took the kids out for most of the day yesterday due to the gorgeous weather here.  I just didn't find the time to post.  So, here's the weekly report.  As of today, my total weight loss is....


Still coming off slow, but hey, it's coming off!  I'm a little torn about my opportunity for a second fill next week.  I sure would like to be losing the weight a little faster, and do wish I got full like I used to.  However, I read blogs of other people with the band and I'm terrified of what could happen.  Some people have trouble even getting water down, and often feel like they're choking or the food is 'stuck'!  I certainly DON'T want that.  I like the fact that I can sit down to dinner with my family and eat what they're eating (in smaller amounts).  I don't want to hate eating, or be afraid to eat.  I guess I could go ahead and get the fill and if I feel it's too much, I could ask for an un-fill.  The doctor is only one mile from my house so it's pretty convenient.  Decisions, decisions.

I'm getting into a good gym schedule now and loving it.  Spinning is kicking my butt, but that's exactly what I need.  I'm supposed to be getting a trainer to work with me for 8 sessions but haven't heard from anyone yet.  I'll be calling them next week if I don't hear from them.  I'm anxious to get started.

Well folks, that's all I have to report now.  I'll be in touch!

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Huh? C'mon!

I never had a chance to post my weekly weigh in on Saturday.  We've sure been busy around here!  So, here I am one week post-fill and I'm down 1/2 a pound.  I feel like yelling at the scale "C'mon, are you kidding me?!".
Part of me says, OK I'll take it, it's not a gain.  But the other part of me says What the hell did I go through all this for, a lousy half a pound?!.
I can tell I've had a fill, I do have restriction.  Occasionally if I take a larger bite of something than I should, I can feel it struggling to go down.  I do get full pretty quickly.  So, why is the weight coming off so slowly?  It's so darn frustrating.  It reminds me of my Weight Watchers days when I'd do real well in the beginning, and then I'd be stuck for months.  I sure hope that isn't what's happening here.  I have an appt. to go back to the surgeon in 2 weeks.  He said if I wasn't losing a pound a week, he wanted to see me.  Maybe I'm prematurely paranoid, but a second fill might be in order for me.

On a more positive note, I'm back at the gym.  It felt good to get back into weight lifting.  I hate my flabby arms and not being able to lift anything for 6 weeks didn't help that at all.  I've done a weight lifting class twice this week, and one spinning class.  I do notice my clothes fitting much differently.  So, I guess that's a non scale victory!  I must say that getting back into a regular exercise routine is not easy though.  One day at a time I guess.

Kim wanted to know what I eat these days.  So, here's what I had for dinner last night...

One home made turkey burger (93% lean)
3 Tbsp. mixed veggies (no butter or oil)
2 mini pierogi (no butter or sour cream).
I was full full full!
Then an hour before bed I had a sugar free popsicle.
So, there you have it.  Not very exciting, I know.

Well, I don't have anything else to report so I'll end here.  Until I have more exciting news, be well!