Saturday, December 31, 2011

Weekly Weigh In and Learning a Few Things Along The Way

Saturday means it's time for the weekly weigh in.

I did 2 classes at the gym yesterday. One was strength training, the other a massive cardio blast.
Then I had a really hard time last night with being too tight, and pretty much was unable to eat past lunch time. So I wasn't surprised when I got on the scale this morning and saw 159.6.

That brings me to a total loss to date of...


This is most likely the first time ever in my adult life that I haven't gained weight over the holidays. This year the holidays were all about being with family and having a good time, and not so much about the food. That feels good, and the way it should be.

Today we took the kiddos to Navy Pier for the annual Winter Wonder Fest. We go every year, but usually before Christmas. This was our best year yet. No crowds, no lines, no waiting!

 I learned a few things about myself today:

  • My fear of heights and tendency towards nausea only gets worse with age.
  • Just because I can fit on every ride does not mean I should go on every ride!  I thought I was going to lose my lunch even before I had lunch. So not cool.
  • The Tilt A Whirl is fun when you're a kid. Not so much when you're 40. Enough said.
  • I want one of these when I retire (and no longer have to cart 2 kids around town).
Beep Beep!
Perfect size for tooling around Chicago, wouldn't you say?

We came home from Navy Pier and had a sushi making party. I had the inner ingredients, no rice. The kids loved it and I think this is our new family tradition. 
Now we're in our jammies, camped out on the family room floor, watching the NYE party going on in NY.
We're right where we want to be. Healthy and safe, and thankful for a good year.

Happy New Year!

Thursday, December 29, 2011

My Word For 2012

I've been giving it a lot of thought, and reading other blogs, and I think I've finally come up with my word for the new year.
Here it is...


Here's the deal. I'm 9 pounds from my goal weight. I don't have a whole lot of weight loss left, so my word can't really be about that. 
However, we all know that this is not just about losing the weight. It's about committing to a new lifestyle, making permanent changes, and keeping the weight off.

In 2012 I commit to accepting all the hard work I've done, and continuing that work every day. You know my motto all along has been 'never going back' and I have to make a strong commitment to ensure that I don't gain that weight back.

Have you chosen your word?
Happy New Year!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

What's On My Mind

It's 7:00pm. and both kids are in bed. They actually asked me to go to bed early, hallelujah! The house is quiet and here's what's on my mind tonight.

  • My older daughter has a problem with confidence, in almost every facet of her life. Never lack of ability with her, just lack of confidence. For that reason I signed her up for an 'intensive' swim course this week while she's on winter break. We have to go EVERY freaking day for a week, which I hate, but I can tell you it's making a huge difference. I do believe we have a swimmer in our house!

  • I've been eating like crap this week and I hate it. Many people with the band have stated that they love GOOD food, and even though they can only have small portions of it, they still eat wonderful food. Me, not so much. I eat pudding, peanut butter, cookies, and God help me, Pirate's Booty. Real gourmet stuff there, huh?I think part of the problem is that hubby is out of town for most of the week so I don't feel like cooking. That's not an excuse, just a fact. Every day I say I'm going to do better and get back to tracking my food, and every day I fail. 
  • I have not gained any weight with my crappy eating habits (yet). Actually I"m down a little bit (probably because crap eating doesn't leave room for eating an actual dinner!) But that's not the point. My body needs and deserves lots of nice protein and nutrients. I'm depriving my body of what it deserves. This has got to stop!  Tomorrow I will do better. I promise.

  • I'm gearing up for my annual post-Christmas clearance shopping extravaganza. This is my favorite time of year. I snap up all those 75% off deals all around town and have lots and lots of gifts to put away for next year. I do my best Christmas shopping in January. I swear I start to have heart palpitations when I see those mark down signs!
  • We had a fantastic Christmas but I'm secretly glad it's over. I can't wait to take down the tree and decorations and start packing up. This is our last Christmas in this house and I have the sudden urge to start packing up everything that can be moved to the new house. You know, the new house that we HAVEN'T BOUGHT YET! Is this like nesting? Maybe I'm house nesting. I'm so ready.
Well, I think that's all that's on my mind for tonight. I'm going to have some tea and finish this really good book I've been reading because thank you Jesus the house is so quiet!

Have a great night.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Did You Remember Your Word?

I totally forgot that many of us bloggers chose a word for the year and wrote about it. I couldn't remember for the life of me what my word was, so I had to go back in the archives and find it.
Here was that post from almost a year ago...


1.  the fact or power of enduring or bearing pain, hardships, etc.
2. the ability or strength to continue or last, esp. despite fatigue, stress, or other adverse conditions; stamina:  " He has amazing physical endurance."
3.  lasting quality; duration: His friendships have little endurance.

#2 is my favorite part of the definition.  I don't like the part about pain and hardship.  Well, I guess there was some initial pain with the surgery itself, but at this point I'm not suffering a hardship.
I've said many times that this is a process.  I am in it for the long haul.  This word makes me think back to when I was in training for my first 5K.  I didn't care how fast I finished the race, I just wanted to finish it!  My goal was to be able to run the entire thing without stopping for a walk break.  In fact, I was endurance training.
So here I am with the  band, doing the work, and not paying much attention to how long it takes me.  This is my life, and I have the rest of it to live, and work on my goals.  There may be bumps in the road along the way, and it's going to take a while, but I will continue the journey because I'm training in endurance.


So, how'd I do? I think I did pretty well with the 'slow and steady' pace, accepting that this journey is for the long haul. I figure I'll spend the rest of my life 'in training', like I'm getting ready for a big race. However, life is the race, and it's forever.

What was your word? How did you do? I'd love to hear about it.

Thursday, December 22, 2011

Thinks to Make You Go Hmmmm?

A few little nuggets for you...

  • I took the kids to lunch today for a rare treat since they are both off from school (and driving me nuts!). There were 2 women at the next table, I have to assume friends out for a casual lunch together. They sat across from each other the ENTIRE time, tapping away at their smart phones, and not talking to each other. Seriously? What's the point of going to lunch with a friend if you aren't going to talk? Is that what our society has become? No thank you.

  • For the last year + I've been thinking I'm not doing too bad in the loose skin department. I've lost 70 pounds (give or take) and I work out a lot, so sure my arms are a little flabby, but on the whole, nothing too serious. That is until yesterday when I bent over in the shower to shave my legs. Oh Holy Mother of God! There was so much wrinkly skin, for a moment I was pretty sure a newborn baby elephant had joined me in the shower! Where the heck did that come from? And more importantly, I must make sure my husband NEVER lays eyes on that hot mess. Ewwwwww!

  • The in-laws are on their way to town. This is the first year they'll be spending Christmas here in our home. You'd think I would be nervous or freaking out over the preparations. However, I sit here blogging instead of vacuuming my carpets. I guess I'm pretty comfortable with them, and they aren't here to see my carpets anyway!

  • My 4 year old told me yesterday "Mom, I can see your white hairs again. It's time to go get another box of that stuff". Great. Gotta' love the honesty of kids. I'll be heading to the drug store later today, maybe after vacuuming.

  • I had another vivid dream about my Mom last night. She passed away 2 years ago but in my dreams she's always alive. Sick, but alive and talking to me. I wonder if she's coming to me in my dreams to let me know she's with me. Kinda' weird but I tend to believe in that kind of stuff.

  • I took the kids to the gym day care today so I could get in a quick core workout. It was pretty grueling but I know my moods are better when I exercise, and I have more patience with the kids. It was worth the $2 fee the facility charged me. I'm pretty sure I'm going to spin class in the morning too, in my futile attempt to fight off the Holiday Hungries.
I think that's about it for now. I've procrastinated enough, I must clean the house a little.
I hope you all have a wonderful, healthy and happy holiday.

Merry Christmas!

Monday, December 19, 2011

16 Months, Weigh In, and Pics

Saturday marked my 16 months since band surgery. I didn't forget about it this month, but was at work for most of the day. Then Sunday is 'family day' in our house, so I'm just getting around to doing my Bandiversary post today.

Yesterday was also supposed to be my weigh in day. So let me get right to that.
I'm holding at a solid 160. That's a slight increase from last week but I'm OK with that. I've fallen off the chocolate band wagon and this is proof that I need to cut it out!

So, that brings me to a total loss to date of...

70 pounds

When I first lost that 3 pounds last week, I thought "Oh good, I've got a little holiday buffer". 
What a dumb way to think! It's like I was giving myself permission to gain it back over the holidays. I've decided I don't want to ever see that 3 pounds again. So my goal over this holiday is to maintain my solid 70 pound loss and not gain an ounce. Let's see how that goes!

And in keeping with tradition, I have some before and during pics for you.

The one on the left was one day post-op. The one on the right, just before heading to the gym yesterday.

August 18, 2010
December 18, 2011

And the last one was after the gym, wearing my husband's favorite "butt pants". That man cracks me up!

We're having the in-laws in this week for Christmas. It'll be our first year staying home and having everyone here. We normally drive back East. The kids are super excited! 
We're having a traditional Italian Christmas Eve, with fish and pasta. Fish works great for me and the band, so I'm happy.
We'll be baking one batch of cut out cookies, mostly for the tradition of it, for the kiddos. I'm sure at least half of them will end up in the freezer. There will be no cakes or pies. One of the benefits of hosting the holiday at your own house!

Until next time, be well and have a wonderful Holiday!

Thursday, December 15, 2011

The New Love of My Life

I have a new found love. My hubby is OK with this new love. He's in love too. We all are.

Isn't he lovely?

At first glance, this might look like an ordinary blender. But believe me, it's anything but ordinary.
It's the Vita Mix 5000 and that baby can do anything from make soup to peanut butter!
Hubby has been eye balling this thing for years. They demonstrate it at Co$tco several times a year and the guy stands there and makes samples of all the different types of things it can do.

We've enjoyed numerous samples, and then the frugal wife says "No way in hell we are paying that kind of money for a blender!".

Well, Saturday the cute little guy was there yet again, making more amazing things in his magic machine. Hubby was mesmerized. Star struck. He stood there watching for a looooong time.
Then he turned to me with his sweet little face...the face of a man who never asks for anything because EVERYTHING we buy is for me or the kids, and says
"What if we get it and call it our Christmas gift to each other?".

OK, FINE. Sounds good to me. Not that we've EVER spent that much money on each other for Christmas since we've been together, but FINE. Throw the darn thing in the cart.

I think I've used it 4 times a day since Saturday. Yup, me, the El Cheapo skeptic who said NO for years and years, can't stop using this machine. I made my protein shake in it this morning. Wanna' see?

That frozen dream come true has an entire cup of unsweetened blueberries, and a handful of raw spinach. That's right, I had SPINACH for breakfast. Don't hate me.

I keep thinking 'why didn't I have this when I was banded and had to do liquids and pureed foods?'. Ugh!

As a bandster, I know I never get enough veggies in. It's just not physically possible to get enough protein AND  veggies in when I have a pouch the size of an egg! But now that I have my lovely new appliance, I can puree those veggies and drink them! Pretty cool, huh?

So far I've made:
Several different soups
Peanut butter
Cashew butter
Strawberry sorbet (yogurt and frozen strawberries)
Chocolate ice cream (milk, Instant Breakfast, and frozen bananas)
smoothies for the kids (with carrots!)
protein shakes for me

I have to say that I am not being paid by the Vita Mix company, although I wish I was because it could help me pay for their machine! I'm not being endorsed at all. I just wanted to share with you my latest obsession. It really is amazing.
I know this is the wrong time of year to be thinking about spending money, but if your wallet will allow, I think this thing is a great investment for people like us weight loss folks who need to get all their nutrients in, and have trouble doing so.
OR you could just come on over and I'd be happy to whiz up something delicious for you!
I love this thing!

Have a great day.

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

The Night From Hell

I don't think I have any men who read my blog, except my hubby, but if you happen to be of the male persuasion, please stop reading and go elsewhere...

Normally, every single month, the day or two before I get my T.O.M., I go through a need to devour everything with no nutritional value (junk) that may be in my path. Then T.O.M. arrives and I say "Oh yeah, that's why I wanted to eat six pounds of chocolate yesterday. That explains it.". And that's the end of it.
It's the one time that I can eat like that and NOT gain any weight, probably because the band gets so tight I can't eat anything else.

Then there's yesterday. I had a pretty normal day. Not much of an appetite. I started to have a dull headache pop up here and there throughout the day and even mentioned it to my hubby, saying "I really should take some Tylenol before this gets worse". I even said "this almost feels like a period headache, but it's a week too early for that".

We had a very busy afternoon and evening. I kept putting off taking anything. I finally took some Tylenol at 8pm. and was in bed by 9:00.

I woke up at 2am. to go to the bathroom and instantly felt like somebody hit me in the head with a baseball bat. Wham! Complete agony. My eye started to water profusely and I had to find my way to the medicine cabinet in the dark. I downed 3 more Tylenol and prayed they would just slide through the band. They did. I crawled back upstairs and back to bed. Hubby woke up and asked what was wrong. He said I was making a sound he has never heard from me before, like a squeaky wimper. He was scared.
I swear, this must be what having a stroke feels like! All I could think about was Draz and her migraines that get so bad she has to go to the hospital. I can now imagine what that feels like because if it got even a teensie bit worse, I would have been heading to the ER myself.

I managed to fall back to sleep for a little while. However, and here's the funny/gross part...

Hubby comes in at 4am. and wakes me saying "Honey, your period came".
Um, What?! 
My first thought was, 'I'm laying in bed, how the hell would you know if I have my period?'
But before I could ask, he reminded me that I went to the bathroom at 2am., and did NOT flush the toilet.
Oh good God. I'm so happy we've been married for a while and we don't embarrass easily! This man is part saint, I tell ya'.

So that was my night from hell. Today the headache is still there, but a much more manageable dull roar.
Now I'm wondering. Is this another change happening to my body? Am I no longer going to have the intense cravings each month? Can I expect this horrific pain in my head instead of the cravings?
I have to tell you, I'd rather be able to eat a bunch of chocolate and move on with my day. This totally sucks!

And just so you know, getting on the scale the first morning of your period...not a good idea. My scale tried to tell my I gained 5 pounds in 2 days. Whatever!

So, have any of you bandsters out there noticed a difference in these 'monthly' sort of things? I'd love to hear about it.

Saturday, December 10, 2011

Weigh In, another Milestone, and Trying Something New

A few days ago I weighed myself and saw a new all time low, but was pretty sure it was temporary. I mentioned that to my hubby and his response was "you always think it's temporary, and it never is!".
I guess I have a lot of self doubt.

So today is my actual 'official' weigh in day and guess what? The numbers were all the same!



Which brings me to a total weight loss of...


I remember clearly that I weighed 175 for my High School physical. Never as an adult have I been able to get below 180. I've been able to drop weight here and there through different programs, but NEVER this much.

Thank you very much Phil The Band. I love you!

And now on to the something new, and what I believe is the reason I was able to drop nearly 3 pounds in one week.
I watched the documentary "Food Matters" this week. The amount of information about food, nutrition, and toxins was absolutely overwhelming. I like to make positive changes but I'm a simple kind of gal, so I've decided to take it one step at a time...

One of the experts who was interviewed said that people should start their day by drinking at least a liter of water before they do anything else. We should all be cleansing our kidneys to get rid of toxins, and get things moving. Easy enough for me!

So every day this week I've been filling my 32oz. water bottle, adding a squirt of fresh lemon juice, and having that before any coffee or my protein shake.
Easy Peasy.

So just for this week, I challenge all of you, my dear friends, to do the same. Get that water in first thing in the morning, get those kidneys working, FLUSH FLUSH FLUSH, and see if the scale thanks you for it. You'll never know unless you try.

Have a fabulous weekend!

Friday, December 9, 2011

What Makes You Kick Butt?

This morning I threw some sneakers on to take my kiddo to the bus stop. It wasn't until I returned to the house that I realized that I was wearing my gym shoes, and since we got a little snow last night, they were wet.
I can't wear wet shoes to the gym unless I want to break my neck, so I went into the closet and grabbed my 'running shoes'. I've only ever worn these particular shoes on run days so they look brand spanking new.

I arrive at the gym, go to the locker room to get changed, and this fell out of my shoe...

Uh oh. That's the birthday badge I wore to run the Chicago Lung Run 5K. That was back in SEPTEMBER. It's been in my shoe since I packed up after the race that day. That means I haven't run outside since then.
That's sorta' sad.
I'm totally a fair weather runner. On top of that, I only run when I have a goal in mind, like training for a specific race.

I want to be a runner. I really do. I know I feel great after a good run. I know I feel a sense of accomplishment when I complete a race and see that I've beat my time from the previous race. I just can't get my head around running in the cold/ice/snow/wind. And once you've run in the great outdoors, the treadmill just seems boring.

Seeing that button made me feel like a slacker. That was my inspiration to go into kick boxing class and seriously work my butt off. I racked up over 7,000 steps on my pedometer in just one class. I was sweating like a pig in July.

I can't promise I'll start running again, at least until the weather is a little nicer. But seeing that button today made me promise myself I will work as hard as I can in all my other work outs along the way.

What's your inspiration?
Get out there and kick some butt today!

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Don't Be A Statistic

I have to send out a great big thank you to Lap Band Gal for her post today. It made me stop, do some math, and realize that I'm doing great with this band thing! It also made me realize I do NOT want to be a statistic. I'm kind of happy that I didn't know the research on what was 'expected' of me when I had my surgery. I might have stopped losing weight after I dropped the expected 50% of excess body weight, and not been motivated to go further.

If I followed the statistical bell curve for Lap Band patients, I would have lost 40 pounds (50% of my excess body weight). That would have left me at 190. Ouch!

My first goal when I set out to do this was to get down to my wedding day weight which was 183. I got there, stayed there for a while, then decided to move on. I'm so glad I did!

I went back in my archives to try to find a picture of me at about 40 pounds down. This one was taken a year ago and I was down about's as close as I could get.

So glad I didn't stop HERE!
And here I am at 60 pounds down, taken almost 2 months ago...

I'm down almost 10 more since that pic was taken, but I haven't taken a new one yet.

So my point in all this is...don't be a statistic! Just because the experts say you'll lose about 50% of your excess weight doesn't mean you can't lose more. Do what you know is right for you. Blow those numbers out of the water!

Thank you Lap Band Gal!

Saturday, December 3, 2011

Weekly Weigh In and My 2nd ever BYOC!

I weighed in this morning at the same weight as last week. Holding steady at 162. I've actually bounced back and forth between 162 and 162.8 all week.
I find that funny since I'm still not able to eat much at all. Yesterday I had a protein shake for breakfast, SF chocolate pudding mixed wtih protein powder and 1 T natural peanut butter for lunch (super yummy but no crunch factor!) and instant mashed potatoes for dinner. Phil is killing me...I want food!
I can say that I feel better and more normal today after my day of full liquid/mushies yesterday. Maybe there was some irritation going on and it's settling down now. Who knows.

I'm at work today and since I really have nothing great to write about, I thought I'd participate in Drazils' "BYOC" from yesterday. Here goes...


It’s Friday so it’s time for BYOC – Bring Your Own Crazy! We answer a few questions in order to get to know each other better and to give our blogging brains a break! Copy to your own blog if you wish and ENJOY!

Let’s do a little themed version of where you live and why!

1. Describe the structure you live in. (apartment, condo, house, mansion, cardboard box?)

We live in a 4 bedroom colonial house. It's pretty standard for the homes around our area. Nice, but not fancy. It suits us just fine.
2. Describe the city you live in. (population, main attractions)
I actually had to look this up on line because quite honestly, I had no clue. We've only lived here 5 years.
According to the last cencus records, the population here is about  23,000. It has tripled in 8 years. There's a lot of development going on. The area used to be ALL farm country but with families moving out of the city of Chicago to the suburbs, there are houses going up everywhere. The farmers have done very well for themselves by selling off their land to home developers.
Most people have never heard of our town, except if they've been to the outlet mall. That's our main attraction. There's also a HUGE retirement community at the edge of town which is so weird to me because from my perspective, it's all young families, just like ours.
I'm from a pretty big city so this is defintely 'small town USA' to me. We've lived here such a short time but I can't go anywhere in town without seeing at least 3 people I know.
I like that.

3. Why do you live in the town you live in? (job, to get away from a different town, family, schools?)

We moved here when my husband got a job working at the headquarters of a major retailer in a neighboring town. We chose not to live in the town where the job was because the school district here is way better, and we liked the area much more. I guess none of that matters any more since we'll be moving again over the summer.
This area has served us well, and we've enjoyed our time here. It's just time to move on.

4. What’s the view like from your backyard?

Corn fields for as far as the eye can see! Well, actually I can see the middle school WAY off in the distance, but mostly it's just corn fields. The area back there was supposed to be developed into yet another housing tract, but since the market tanked a couple years ago, that's all been put on hold. I sort of like not having neighbors out back, and we love watching the farmer harvest the corn every year. We do have to be a little careful though because there is a family of coyote who live in the field. They don't usually come in during the day, but we have heard them hunting rabbits at night, and it's a bit disturbing!
My kids are definitely growing up differently than I did.

5. Repeat question: How has your week been in blogland and in real life?

Well, in real life we found what we would consider our 'dream home', and tried to put in an offer, only to find out another offer had just been accepted. We were both disappointed, to say the least.
We're continuing to look but it's exhausting, especially when we thought we had already found "the one".

Blog land has been fun. I've been getting up before the kids and doing a lot of blog reading first thing in the morning. I love being caught up in all the lives of my blogger friends. I've found a wonderful community!
Have a fantastic weekend.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Some News You Can Use

I've written before about how I can't eat anything at all around my time of the month. I also mentioned this to my surgeon and he looked at me sort of puzzled. I wondered if I was crazy, or alone in this feeling.

Here's an article about this very thing, so it's real and I am NOT alone.
Check it out...

Monday, November 28, 2011

Childhood Obesity

I woke up this morning to this sad and distrubing article...

If you don't care to click on the link and read the (very short) article, here's the scoop. An 8 year old child was removed from his parents because he weighs more than 200 pounds, and the parents were allegedly not doing enough to try to control his weight.

How do you feel about that? I'm inclined to agree with the decision to remove the child. However, the article doesn't state what kind of intervention had been tried prior to the removal.
Were the parents given educational intervention? Nutrition counseling? An exercise program? We may  never know the whole story.

I'd say that 95% of people who read my blog are folks who also suffer from the disease of Obesity, most of whom have had surgical intervention. So, we know that obesity is a serious, life long issue. Therefore the story of the 200 pound child probably hits home to anyone reading this. You know what it's like to grow up fat. Do you want the same life for your kids?

I was not a 200 pound 8 year old, but I was a heavy kid who didn't exercise and watched way too much TV. I drank Kool Aid and ate mayonnaise sandwiches on white bread. I don't blame my parents. We were poor and they were doing the best they could with what they had.
However, I'm doing things differently with my own children.

Believe me, I'm no perfect Suzie Homemaker of a mother. I know my kids watch way more TV than they should. I feed my kids boxed macaroni and cheese for dinner about twice a month. During soccer season I make frozen pizza on game nights because it's fast and easy. I know I could do better.

BUT, I cook a real meal more often than not. We never (I mean NEVER) order take out. We rarely go to restaurants. The kids are both involved in a sport AND take swim lessons all year long. We spend a lot of time at the park, almost every day in spring and summer. We ride bikes, go for walks and occasionally play the Wii Fit or Wii Sports. . We have fruit and/or veggies with every meal.

And the three things that are most important to me as a mom trying to raise healthy kids:
We eat dinner at the kitchen table as a family. We call it 'no media time'.
My kids drink water or skim milk. Juice is an occasional treat.
My kids have NEVER tasted a fast food meal. Ever.

So after I read the above mentioned article, I read this blog entry over at Weighty Matters...

Dr. Freedhoff directs a medical weight management program, and offers some wonderful insight on the subject of childhood obesity. I'm not sure if he even saw the article about the 200 pound kid this morning, but I thought it was great timing that his article addressed the same issue.
It's such a simple message but makes so much sense.

I'll leave you with this.  As parents, it's up to US to lead our children down the right path. We are their first teachers. Let's lead by example.

Have a great and healthy day!

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Thanksgiving, Full Liquids, and A New Low

We had a very nice Thanksgiving here, even though the turkey wasn't done at the same time as the rest of the food. We just drank more wine and laughed about it while we ate in stages.

I've been SUPER tight again and have no idea why. So I was able to eat some mashed potatoes and a teeny tiny piece of turkey (when it was finally done cooking!). Later I had some no sugar added ice cream for dessert. That's it. The funny thing is I really didn't care that I wasn't gorging myself on stuffing and rolls. I was happy to just be sitting around the table with my family, laughing and having a good time.

The day after Thanksgiving I started to have severe heartburn, like I've never had before. In fact, we all went out for pizza and I ordered soup. After dinner I came home and chewed a handful of Tums, and drank water for the rest of the night. Yesterday morning I still didn't feel back to normal, and although the heartburn had calmed down, I decided to spend the day doing full liquids.

Here's what I had yesterday...
8am.: Protein shake
12pm.: Oatmeal
7:30pm: no sugar added ice cream with a shot of Kahlua over the top

What? Ice cream and Kahlua are both liquid at room temperature, so they fit into the liquid diet, right?
OK, not the best choice, I know. I was so sick of not being able to eat food that I just needed something that tasted good to me, and it had been 7 1/2 hours since I'd eaten anything. Don't judge!

So here I am Sunday morning, writing this blog and sipping water. I still feel way too tight and I'm thinking this is going to be another day of liquids. I long for those days right after my last un-fill when I was able to eat chicken! I'm hoping nothing is wrong and this is just a fluke of some kind.

I forgot to do my weekly weigh in yesterday so I stepped on the scale today to a new all time low I'm at 162 today which brings me to a grand total loss of...

68 pounds

I have to say that I was stuck at 65 for so long that I thought that was where I would stay. I think I had forgotten what it felt like to lose weight, and I like it. I have a new found commitment and I can see 160. I can do it!

I hope you all had a fantastic Thanksgiving. Have a great day!

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

I Don't Qualify!

You've all heard the commercials for some weight loss drug or obesity research project where the pitch man says something along the lines of... "If you're at least 21 years old and 30 pounds over weight, call 1-888-IMOBESE". 
OK, I made up the phone number part, but you get the idea, right?

Well, the other day in the car I was listening to one of those commercials. For the first time EVER, and I do mean EVER, in my whole life, I didn't qualify.

How can that be?

15 months ago I was 80 pounds overweight.
Last week I was 16 pounds overweight.
Today I am 13 pounds overweight.

I no longer qualify for any weight loss drug or obesity study.

Today that is my victory. That's what this journey is all about.

Have a great day!

Sunday, November 20, 2011

House Hunting, bandiversary and a Weigh In

I did my weekly weigh in yesterday, but didn't have time to document it. So here I am, a day late.

OK, before I tell you about my loss, I have to preface this with letting you know that I am having my T.O.M. and when I have that, I really can't eat much of anything. I swear, my insides are inflamed during this time every month and I spend 3 days being uncomfortable, living on liquids.

That being said, I lost 2 first loss in about a month (I'd have to go back and check the records to be sure). That brings me to 163 pounds and a total loss of...

67 pounds

I know most women gain at least a little water weight during their monthly, but for me it's the opposite. I literally can't eat ANYTHING without pain and discomfort, which causes a loss on the scale. I'm holding out hope that I won't put it back on once things go back to 'normal'.

We went up to Wisconsin yesterday to check out some houses (more on that later) and ended up getting take out. We got Chinese food, a rare treat for us. I had 2 bites of an egg roll. Yup, just 2, and then I was DONE. Couldn't eat another bite of anything for the rest of the night.
This morning at breakfast I had one of those little 'especially for hotels' size yogurts and really had to struggle to get most of it down. I was stuffed and there was still some left in the container.
Funny how I can survive on such small amounts of food, but any other time of the month I want food all the time and feel like I just might die if I'm unable to eat!

In other news, when I wrote my last post on the 17th, I was for some reason unaware that it was actually my Bandiversary (15 months), otherwise I would have written about it and had the hubs take a picture! I'll have to get to that another time because right now I'm in my pajamas and exhausted.

So, about the house hunting. We're really not in a huge hurry to find a house right now because we won't be moving until the end of the school year. However, we did find some on line that we felt we really wanted to see now, one that hubby had already looked at last week and knew I'd love. So we set up some appointments with the Realtor to see four houses today. We were able to easily narrow it down to 2. The problem is that between those 2, we just can't come to a conclusive decision. They both have great things to offer, and what one house doesn't have the other does. It's so frustrating! 
We're going to talk to the Realtor again this week and try to make a decision but I'll tell you, it's nerve wracking! They're both great houses. We really can't go wrong with either.

Well, both kiddos went to bed super early tonight, and I'm not far behind them. It's been a crazy hectic weekend and we're all beat.

Have a great night all!

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Bullet Bonanza

I have a ton of stuff on my mind, but none of it worthy of an entire post, so here it is in bullet form...
  • Since coloring my hair a few weeks ago (for the first time ever), I've been disappointed with the texture It's been dry and unmanageable. It wasn't until this morning that I realized I forgot to do 'step #3', the conditioning treatment! Yeah, I'm smart like that.
  • I'm down a pound today only because I was so tight and uncomfortable all afternoon yesterday that I couldn't even attempt to eat dinner. I hate that the only time I lose a pound is when I skip a meal or am too sick to eat. Frustrating.
  • Hubby comes home today!
  • Thanksgiving is a week away and I'm hosting. We're having a non-traditional holiday this year, doing sight seeing in our favorite city all morning/afternoon, then headed back here for a late dinner, complete with instant mashed potatoes (gasp!). My mother, I'm sure, is shaking her head in shame.
  • We'll be looking at some houses this weekend. I'm excited and nervous all at the same time. We've decided that 'this is it' and this next house is the one we will live in for 20 years. Talk about pressure!
  • This is the first year that I've had to walk my kiddo to the bus stop, down the street, and I'm pretty sure I'm going to hate that all winter long. Do you know about Chicago winters? I do, and I'm telling ya', they're no joke!
  • My surgeons office is having their annual $1 clothing sale on Saturday and I'm hoping for some good finds. I sure could use some new stuff, since I've gotten rid of about 6 garbage bags of old clothes!
  • I've been doing a new Core exercise class at the gym for a few weeks now. It's super intense and hard, focusing solely on the core (who doesn't need help there?!) and I can say that my pants are all loose in the waist. Love it!
That's it for today. Have a great day and stay warm people!

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Lifestyle Change?

This morning hubby and I were lying in bed talking about a friend of ours who recently lost a ton of weight. Hubby asked "Well, do you think she's embraced the whole lifestyle change, or is she still just riding high on the weight loss part of it all?".

First, let me say how proud I am that he actually 'gets' it and knows it's not just about a diet.

This is how the conversation went:

Me: "I don't know if she has. You know for me the lifestyle change comes in the form of exercise, and not always the food part. It's hard".
Him: "Yeah, you do eat alot of crap sometimes"

Knowing FULL WELL he was absolutely right, I just had to ask...

Me: "Really? Like what?".
Him: "Like candy, and cookies!"
Me: "Yeah, I had my Halloween candy fix, and now I'm done with that. And, I do like a good cookie once in a while. That's why I can't even keep cookies in the house any more for the kids, because I can't be trusted".

We both laughed then I went on to say...

Me: "You know, if I deprived myself of those things all the time, I'd feel cheated and that's no way to live. I'd probably turn into a closet eater!".
Him: "Would you actually go sit in the closet to eat?".

Smart Ass

But this conversation made me stop and think about the whole idea of 'lifestyle change' and what it means to me. There are some things that I can say without a doubt I've changed for the rest of my life, and others that I'm not so sure about.

Here's what I know I've changed forever:

I gave up caffeine at least a year before surgery and will never go back. I don't miss it at all. Once I ordered a cup of decaf coffee and I'm pretty sure they brought me regular because I felt like my heart was going to pound out of my chest. My body doesn't need that anymore. Done.

I used to be a Diet Pepsi fanatic. Then when I gave up caffeine, I switched to Diet Sierra Mist. Then I decided to give it up completely about 6 months prior to surgery. Really, who needs all those chemicals in their body? Not me. And now that I know the carbonation could expand my pouch, I'm off pop forever.

Even before surgery, I was pretty hooked on exercise. Now if I can't make it, I crave it. Who would have thought that was possible! I never try to come up with excuses not to go. I love the release I get from the gym, and I know it is the #1 key to my success. I can't ever go back to being a couch potato. Ever!

Fast Food:
I can honestly say, band or no band, there's not a thing on any fast food menu that appeals to me at all any more. I think once since surgery I've gone to McD's and that was for their new oatmeal. It wasn't bad, but nothing I can't do better at home, with less fillers and junk in it. My kids have never eaten fast food, and that's the way I like it. It's just not a part of our lives at all.

So there you have my lifestyle changes so far. Maybe one day I'll be able to say "I can totally live without chocolate", but I doubt it. And really, who would want to live without chocolate!?

What has changed in your life?

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Weighing, uh, I mean Measuring In!

Today is my weigh in day and I haven't weighed in yet. Hubby is asleep and I don't want to turn on the light and bother him, so that'll have to wait. I'm not too anxious though since I'm pretty sure it's going to be the exact same thing as last week, and the week before. I've been stuck at this weight for what seems like an eternity.

However, I know I've been kicking some major butt at the gym so I decided to finally break down and do something I haven't found the 'time' to do in 6 months. Take measurements! I had to go on a search of my house (and numerous junk drawers) to find the notebook where I keep such data. See how diligent I've been?

Well my little stubborn plateau...I have some news for you. I not only have lost TWO INCHES from my hips, but another TWO INCHES off my waist. Take that sucker!
In other, less dramatic news, I've also lost 1/2 inch from my thighs, calves and chest.

This my friends, is validation that exercise is key in this weight loss journey. AND when you're frustrated with the scale, get out your tape measure. I bet you'll be surprised at what you see.

And now, since I've been cleaning out all the closets and am headed to Good Will today, I thought I'd share this with you...

Inches Matter
Have a great weekend everybody!

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Ramblings of an Insomniac

Up at 5am., Why?

I have no idea so it must be that I need to catch up on some blog reading. Now that I've done that, I guess I'll share with you what's on my mind at this ungodly hour.

Ever since this weight loss surgery thing, I'm a little obsessed with the rule of "protein first", especially with my kids. We all know kids hardly ever get enough protein in their diets, so I'm trying to be creative in the kitchen.
My little one is still home with me most days and she LOVES to bake, which gives me plenty of opportunities to experiment.

I had this scone mix in my pantry for what seems like forever.

All natural (and on sale!)

I hadn't wanted to make it because the instructions call for a cup of heavy cream. No way! Since kiddo wanted to bake, I decided to try making it with a cup of  plain Greek yogurt. I warned her that it might not turn out OK, and that we would just try, and see what happens.

And here's what happened...

They turned out perfect. I wish I had a picture of the kiddo stuffing her face and asking for more! They were moist and yummy, I even got to have almost a whole piece without much protest from the band.

I find it amusing that I ate almost 1 piece, and both my kids at 2 and wanted a 3rd (I said no)! They are 4 and 6 years old and their stomachs are bigger than mine. Pretty cool, huh?

On a separate topic (because I'm awake, you have to care)...Water.

I've never really paid much attention to how much water I drink in a day because quite honestly, I'm always drinking. I get enough liquids in, it's never been an issue. However I recently started thinking about how much of what I drink is just pure water.

I have 8oz of milk with my shake in the am. I have about 16oz. of decaf coffee. I have one 20oz. Life Water each day. But how much plain water do I really drink?

I found this in the back of my cupboard the other day...

I have no idea where it came from, but it's mine now. It's conveniently labeled so I know how many ounces I'm having. I have committed to drinking one full 32oz. bottle of just plain, old fashioned water every day. I fill it up at the beginning of the day, and regardless of what else I'm drinking throughout the day, this thing has to be empty by bed time.

There's just one problem. Well, actually there's two. First, it's new and different so my kids are currently obsessed with it and try to take sips from it all day which is no help to me!
The second issue is that there's nothing preventing me from spilling it. Like say, on my lap top. I must be a toddler because I need a sippy top. I cannot be trusted! I'm waiting for some sign that there's permanent water damage on this thing. So far, so good.

At least my computer and end table are all nice and clean now, right?

OK, I better go make that protein shake before the kids are up begging for more scones.
Have a great day people!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Do You Whey?

OK, obviously nobody wants my clothes and I'll just assume it's because so many of the women who read my blog are already at or below my size. No hard feelings.

Moving on...

For over a year now I've been starting my day with a soy based protein shake. I started with Genisoy but have also tried Bob's Red Mill. They've both been fine for me so far.

Recently I decided to take the leap to Whey protein. I hear the trainers at the gym talk about how it's so good at building and repairing lean muscle mass. I could use some of that.

However, they say you should have the shake after a big work out. Hmmm. I have a problem with that because I have my shake first thing in the morning as my breakfast. 'Meal replacement' if you will. Actually, once a week when I work out at 5am. I do have the shake after the gym, but all the other days I have it before.

I've been using this for a few days now...

27g protein and only 1g of sugar!

I have to say it is pretty tasty. It's a bit too sweet but the one I had been using is unflavored, so I expected to feel that way at least in the beginning. So far I've noticed it does hold me longer. The protein content is very high, and I mix it with milk and a banana, so it's thick. I have it at 7am. and I can make it until about 11am. before I need to eat something. The soy only stayed with me until about 9:30. Bonus!

I was a little crampy during spin class yesterday but I don't know if it was from the protein, or because I was working super hard and sweating profusely.

So, what do you use? Do you whey? What do you think? I'd love to hear your thoughts on protein.

Monday, November 7, 2011

Sisterhood Alert

Before I haul all my old clothes over to the local good will, I thought I'd pick out a few of the nicer things and see if any of my Banded Sisters would be interested.

Just leave me a comment letting me know what you'd like, and it's yours. I'll take care of the postage (unless you live out of the country!).

First is my favorite dressy top. You can't really tell from the picture but it's a black tank with a sheer overlay. The overlay has really sweet embroidery.
Dress Barn Woman 14/16

Next is a long formal black skirt. It too has a sheer overlay (I've worn it with above mentioned top).
I'm 5' 5" and it comes to my ankles with heels.
Dress Barn Woman 16W

And lastly is an eggplant colored skirt. Falls just below my knees. Flowy, slightly ruffly bottom.
JC Penney Worthington Collection 18W

If this goes well, I'll post more tomorrow.
Have a great day!

Sunday, November 6, 2011

A New Favorite Thing

So it turns out I'm not so great at this 'posting every day' thing, huh? When the hubby is home on weekends, I don't want to be tied to my computer while I could be spending quality time with him.
Right now, he's actually catching up on work so I have a few moments.

I've been finding that I'm a little hungry/have the munchies at night lately. I know it's because of that un-fill I had but I'm not willing to go back in for a fill because I so clearly remember the pain and heart burn I was experiencing, so I'm good for now.
Anyway, I discovered something that helps me on those nights that I can't deal with the munchies. Here it is...

My hubby eats a big bag of popcorn all to himself almost every night. I obviously can't do that, and I don't even really like popcorn all that much. Then I found these teeny-tiny bags and I was sold! The added bonus is that it's Kettle corn, so there's just a hint of sweetness to it. I can eat the whole bag with no problem, and it's just enough to take the edge off.
The bag has no sugar, and 3 grams of protein, so it's a winner in my book.

Tonight we're going to measure how much it makes once popped because the box says 5 cups and I seriously doubt that (I'm telling you, it's SMALL!). I'll let you know tomorrow.

Surprised that I can tolerate popcorn? Don't be. I've talked to many Bandsters who say they eat it all the time and it goes down with no problemo.

Happy Snacking people!

Friday, November 4, 2011

A Long Overdue Weigh In, and Reflecting

I haven't posted a weigh in for several weeks.  It's not that I've had anything to hide, it's just that things have been remaining pretty much the same. Right after the un-fill and the Disney trip I had gone up about a pound and it stayed there for a long time. Now that pound is gone and I'm holding steady at 165 again.

I went from hitting the gym 6 days a week to now struggling to get there 4 days. It's tough with hubby out of town and the girls going to 2 different schools, so I'm going as often as I possibly can. Maybe that's why I'm sitting at this current weight, or maybe my body is just happy here for now. It is what it is, I guess.

Speaking of weight, I remember back when I met the hubby and started caring more about my appearance. I started at WW again, and hit the gym. Then we were planning our wedding so I had even more reason to focus my efforts.  Nobody wants to be a fat bride, right? Well, I dropped more than 60 pounds and got down to 183 (on our wedding day). The thing is, I was so happy with that. I was totally fine with my appearance and felt successful. I was back at my high school weight, which had been my goal. I don't remember for one minute thinking I needed to lose more or do more. Now I'm wondering why.
Did I think that was the best I could do?

The other thing I've been wondering is why now that I've lost even more than I did then, am I not really satisfied? I wonder when I'll stop being so critical of my body. I hate my thighs, butt, belly, etc. Will losing 15 more pounds remedy that? I'm not so sure. It's not that I don't see my success, because I do. I know I've done well. It's just that I always want more. I want to weigh 150. I want to be in a smaller size. Why? I don't know.
I'm constantly questioning if I can be happy staying here at 165 for the rest of my life. My doc seems to think I'm fine right where I am. He's happy. Am I?

I certainly don't know the answer yet and I'm not really expecting any of you readers to find it for me. I'm just wondering if you're going through something similar. I'd love to hear your story.

Happy Friday everyone!

Wednesday, November 2, 2011

The Wrath of Phil

Yesterday Phil (the band) decided it was time for his revenge.  I imagine if Phil was a real person and could talk, it would go something like this...

"Bwahaaaa, you had your fun with that Halloween candy didn't you? You thought you were so cool stuffing chocolate into your pie hole and loving it. Well, the fun is over girlfriend and now it's time for ME to bitch slap you back into reality! Food?  You like food?  Too bad! You will no longer be able to eat real food because I'm gonna' slam shut on you.  How do you like that? You like oatmeal? Get used to it sweetheart because that's what you'll be eating for dinner for a couple of days, you stupid stupid girl?

Thanks Phil. I got the memo. I'm not exactly sure why I'm so darn tight now but I feel like this is Phil's revenge on me for being naughty.

The good news is that I very reluctantly stepped on the scale today (after my protein shake and a work out, dumb I know) and I wasn't up!  What the heck is that?! I was actually praying "Please don't say 170, PLEASE don't say 170!", and for some reason the scale God heard my prayer. In fact, remember that pound I had gained after the Disney trip that was sticking around? It's gone. Hmmmm.

Maybe I totally shocked my system and it let go of some weight.
Maybe I hadn't been eating enough calories before (doubtful).
Maybe I just need to eat more chocolate (Not!).

I don't know what happened but I'll take it and run with it. Moving on, nothing to see here.

In other news, Read over at My Trek Downward says it's National Blog Posting Month and we're supposed to try to post every day for the month of November. Now, I really don't think my life is interesting enough to have something to say every day, but I'm always up for a challenge, so I'll try.

Have a great day people!

Monday, October 31, 2011

The Evil Spoils of Halloween

My nemesis...

Chocolate and peanut butter is my kryptonite.  It makes me powerless and defeats me. I'm thankful this day only comes once a year!

I have put all the extra candy in a bucket on my front porch and I'm hoping the Halloween Gods will send a bunch of teenagers to clean up.

I'll be setting my alarm for 5:30am. and hitting the treadmill and/or elliptical until my kids get up. I must pay for my sins!

I've also decided that this is the last year I'll be giving away candy on Halloween. My kids got a lot of cute things tonight that were not edible. Here's a sample...

Play dough, stickers and even anti-bacterial hand stuff!  That's way cool. Oh, and one neighbor gave away Beanie Babies. Really! Every kid got a full size Beanie Baby. How amazing (and expensive) is that?
Believe me, they got enough candy to last more than a year, but I was so happy to see there was something else out there too. I'll be following suit next year.

And the BEST treat they got this year, from my very sweet neighbor who put together goody bags just for them...

The coolest tooth brush ever. How appropriate after all the sugar they consumed today.

I hope you all had a wonderful Halloween.
Tomorrow is a new day!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Could you Work Harder...Do More?

I'd have to say that 99% of the time, the answer to that question would be a resounding yes. 

I remember a couple years ago reading an article about Jillian Michaels where she said she hires a personal trainer.  What?!  She IS a personal trainer. The poster child for fitness. What the heck does she need wth a trainer?  Her answer?  "I know he will work me harder than I'd ever work myself.  I need to be pushed".

I know exactly what she means. That's the same reason why I do classes at the gym, instead of going up to the fitness floor and doing my own thing.  I wouldn't push myself, and I know it. I'd probably walk for 30 minutes on the treadmill and call it a day. I need to be pushed.

On Friday I hit the gym twice, for two classes.  The early am. was my typical strength training/weight lifting class. After I got the kiddos off to school, I went back for an hour of kick boxing.  I can honestly say that at the end of the second class, I was totally spent.  I could actually feel that my body had used up everything it had in it. I was running on fumes. Have you ever felt like that? It was weird, and satisfying all at the same time. I knew I worked my ass off (hopefully literally!). Good work out, no trainer needed.

Then on Saturday I went to a spin class.  The thing with spinning is that the ride is what you make of it.  You have control over the tension on the bike, as well as how hard you push. The instructor gives recommendations like "your gear should be between 10 and 15.." but ultimately it's your ride.
I thought I had a great work out.  I was sweating and I felt my heart rate getting up there. I felt good.  THEN, on the way out I saw another girl who was literally dripping from head to toe in sweat. I swear, she looked like she had been caught in a rain storm, or took a shower with her clothes on!  What the heck?  I thought I worked really hard, I felt good...until I saw her!
Now, it could be that she's just a generally sweaty person, but I'm pretty sure it's proof that I can almost always work harder than I do.

I do work out a lot.  More so than the average person, I think.  However, my body is used to the exercise I do. I have to constantly kick it up a notch and change things around if I want to continue to see results. Frustrating? Yes, to say the least. But it is what it is, and it certainly keeps me in check.

So I guess what I'm trying to say in all this babbling mess is that the next time you're exercising, ask yourself if you could do faster, lift more, push harder.  I bet you can!  Give it a shot.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Temptation Everywhere

Have you ever noticed that temptations are EVERY WHERE, EVERY DAY?  I realized just this week that I am having at least a small treat just about every freaking day.

Here are some examples of what's coming up in my life...

Once a week I pick up a friends daughter and take her to a play group for an hour.  The grandmother is there when I drop the kiddo off.  Every week Grandma asks me in and every week I politely decline.  You see, she's a sweet old Indian lady and I figure that's pretty much going to be the same as the sweet old Italian lady.  She's going to want me to eat.
Well, last week I really had no excuse not to go in so I accepted the invitation.
Here's how it went:

Her: "You want to eat something?"
Me: "Oh, no thank you, I've already had lunch"
Her: "Oh good, we'll have cake then!"

What the heck?  I was blindsided by this sweet old lady!  She put a hunk of cake in front of me and there are cultural expectations that I'll eat it.  Damn you sweet grandmother!

I usually have my younger kid with me when I go grocery shopping.  She knows the lady at the cookie counter very well. She goes over there, flashes her award winning smile, and gets a free cookie.
Here's what happened today:

Lady: "Hi Sweetie, go ahead and pick which one you want"
Kid: "Mom, would you like a bite of my cookie"
Me: "Sure, I'll take a little bite. thank you for sharing"
Lady: "Oh honey, go pick one out for Mommy too"

Like I need a freaking cookie, lady! Seriously, who in their right mind would turn down a M&M cookie?  Not me, I am powerless over the M&M. Frick!

I get the kids into bed, make my evening tea and sit down to read some blogs.  The doorbell rings.  On my porch is a bag FULL of Halloween candy and a note that says "You've been boo-ed".  It's a thing the folks in my neighborhood do to be fun and neighborly.
Now, I already had that cookie today so I was not about to indulge in candy too, but I did peek in the bag.  Thank God and everything holy, there was not a single piece of chocolate in the bag! It was all stuff I don't like anyway.  Bullet dodged. I'll be re-"booing" that bag of candy tomorrow night. We don't need it in the house.

No wonder it's so hard to lose weight and keep it off. The temptations NEVER end.  How do you say no all the time?
Just think, Christmas is right around the corner.  I wonder how many cookie exchanges I'll be invited to this year, all of which I'll be declining.

How do you avoid the daily temptations?  Do you always say no?  I'd love to hear your opinions and feedback.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Why I Can Never Go Back

I've said before that my new motto is "I'm never going back".  It's mostly because I don't want to be a weight loss surgery failure.  I've seen that happen way too many times, and it's sad.  It's also because I want to do my best to be here for my kids for as long as possible. I wasn't going to be able to do that at 230 pounds and counting.

While I'm in spin class, feeling like I'm going to die and want to quit, I repeat the words over and over in my head "I'm never going back, I'm never going back...". It's my mantra, to remind myself of the reasons why I have to stick it out.

And then there's this...

This is the new summer dress I picked up last week and put away for next summer.  You see, if next summer comes and I can't fit into this dress, I'm going to be pissed like nobody's business!  O.K., let me clarify.  If this dress doesn't fit next year because I've lost more weight and it's actually too big, then I'm totally fine with that.  It was marked WAY down to $5 so it's no big loss.  I'm sure somebody in the 'sisterhood' would love to have it and I'll be happy to pass it along.  But if I gain weight and can't wear it, THEN I'm going to be pissed.

The dress will be my guide (besides the scale).  It JUST barely fits, so if I gain a pound it will be obvious. And now that I've posted it for the whole world to see, I can't go back!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011


Sometimes, no matter if it's on sale AND you have a great coupon, some things should just be left on the shelf, never to be looked at again.

Like these...

You know how most crack addicts say they were addicted after just their first try of the drug?  Yeah, if you want to share in that experience with the crack addicts of the world, go ahead and buy this product.

Daughter #2 and I were shopping today, around lunch time.  BIG mistake.  We opened the bag in the car on the way home and COULD NOT STOP EATING!
The bag should say "C'mon I dare you, just try to eat one little serving and walk away...I bet you can't!".  It's like that old potato chip commercial "I betcha' can't eat just one".  In fact I popped some more in my mouth after I took the picture of the damn bag!

I just had to portion them out in little snack bags for Daughter #1 to take to school with her this week so that I would stop snacking.

I don't recommend making this item your entire lunch and afternoon snack.  However, after my little 'experimentation' with the new drug today, I had absolutely no room (or calories) left in my pouch for anything else.  I'm sure Phil (the band) is cursing me right now.

Consider this your public service announcement.  DO NOT BUY THIS PRODUCT if you value your waist line, and your blood sugar levels, and your sanity.

Enough said.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Catching up on Comparison Shots

I just realized that I haven't done any side by side comparison pictures since my one year bandiversary.  I'm not sure why but after that year mark, it just didn't seem very important to me any more.

However, I now have a bunch of new followers and they just might want to see where I started, without having to go way back in my post archives.

For that reason, and because I have nothing else to write about, here are the comparison shots!

8/18/10 (day one)

9/17/11 (13 months)

10/16/11 (14 months)
And...those are the new jeans I bought with some of my birthday money.  I had found 'Earl' jeans over the summer while visiting our family in NY and didn't buy them.  I'm glad I didn't because they were a whole lot cheaper here.  I love Earl!

The whole concept of tucking in my shirt has been foreign to me.  I can't believe I can actually do it and get away with it, and NOT look like a big slob.  No muffin top?  Get outta' here!  And the best part?  The hubby told me he likes the way my coolie (butt) looks in them.  Score!
Yeah, I'm short, and a bit thick, but I got a man and that's the way he likes me, so I'm OK with that. I'm not going for perfect.

About the weigh ins.  I haven't posted one since my big '65' pound announcement.  It's been a month and I haven't lost any more.  In fact I keep bouncing back and forth between 165 and 167 since my un-fill.  Sure, I could go back in for a fill but I don't think that's the answer. I have restriction.  Honestly, I like being able to eat real food now (which was impossible before the un-fill).  I just need to be more careful about my food choices and remember to write them down every day.  I know what works, and more importantly, what doesn't.

I'd like to lose 10 more pounds but honestly, if I can stay at 165 for the rest of my life, I wouldn't hate that either.
So there you have it.  I'm all caught up and hopefully staying on the right path.  My motto is still "I'm never going back".  All I have to do is look at these pictures to know why.

Have a great day everyone!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Secret Santa Info.

I decided to join in on the Secret Santa fun started by the lovely Shannon...

I never get involved in this kind of stuff but for some reason I got excited about this one!

She wants lots of participation, and that's what makes it fun, right?  So go on over and sign up.  Who doesn't love getting presents!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Note To Self

Just a friendly reminder to myself...

This is NOT a game where you try to see how much crap you can eat in a day without gaining weight.  Furthermore, when you've eaten crap and don't see a gain on the scale in the morning, that is NOT a green light to go ahead and eat more crap!

Just in case you forgot.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Wisconsin Weekend

We're back, again.  All this traveling is wearing on me, for real.  I've spent more time in hotel rooms in the past 3 weeks than I've spent in an entire year, and I'm ready to just be home.

The weekend in Wisconsin with the hubby was good.  The girls and I were anxious to see where he works, and the hotel he hangs out in during the week.  Everybody at the office just LOVED the girls.  It was sweet.

We spent a day at the awesome Milwaukee Zoo.  It was the perfect day for it and the kids had a great time.  We even bought an annual pass so we'll definitely be back.
Here's what the hubby thought would be cool to do with my precious little babies...

Yeah, that's a ski lift.  God only knows how high that thing is but it's WAY too high for my liking.  You notice I'm not with them.  Nope. I told the kiddos "Mommy doesn't have enough dollars for all of us to go, so you just go with Daddy, OK?".  Yup, I'm a big liar and that's OK with me because I really didn't want to have the zoo staff call the paramedics for the woman who had a heart attack on the sky ride.  Holy Mother, it scares me just to look at this picture, and of course I'm thinking about how my babies could have fallen out!

The best part was when my 4 year old yelled "This is SO COOL Mom, but you wouldn't like it!".  I guess I wasn't fooling her any, huh?
When they got off I said "You know, when we come back here, I think we should go on the choo choo train".  Much more my speed, thank you very much.

One night hubby tells me he needs bottled water.  Well, say no more, I never need an excuse for an impromptu shopping trip to Wally World!  I ran right out (because I'm a nice wife after all) to get my man some water.  While I'm shopping I notice two guys walking through the aisles, looking clueless.  One is carrying beer, the other is carrying chips.  Of course they have no cart, because it's in the man rule book, you do not shop with a cart. It's not masculine.  I hear the one say to the other, and I quote "Do you wanna' get an apple or somethin'?  You know, for tomorrow?".  I REALLY wanted to say "Yeah, after a night of drinking beer and eating chips, you should start tomorrow off with an apple.  You know, to split between the two of you".  If you ever need a good laugh, go to W@lmart at night.  It'll be worth the trip.
By the way, I was almost to the check out before I noticed I had plenty of things in my cart, but no water.  That would have been funny!

No weekly weigh in this week because I wasn't home to do it.  Sorry to disappoint but I'm not going to weigh until Saturday (my regular day) because Mama needs to work off that Chinese food I got over the weekend.  And, there might have been some alcohol in that shopping cart too, I'm just sayin', hypothetically.

Have a great week everyone!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

A Quick Update For the Weekend

I neglected to mention in yesterdays post that the hubby is not coming home this weekend, because we're going there to see him.  The girls and I are heading out in the morning.  It's only a 90 mile drive.  Hubby knows how directionally challenged I am so he wrote out the directions turn by turn for me (and I have a GPS) so I should be just fine.

We'll get to see the new office, and meet the bosses.  I have a nice outfit picked out and even gave myself a pedi today.  Of course I have 2 brand new zits to show off as well. Lovely.

The company is treating us to this 'house hunting' trip so hotel and meals is on them.  That means we're going out to dinner and Mama's craving Chinese food!  I'll probably be able to eat 3 bites and be done, but I don't care, I have a taste for it.  Can you tell we don't go out much?

In other news, the bathroom exhaust fan worked today.  I'm sure it's a temporary thing but at least it keeps me off the ladder for a few more days.

The downstairs toilet has decided to flush today, although it still gurgles like it's choking on a chicken bone, it flushes.  That's all that matter as far as I'm concerned.

The temperature here in the Chicago area is going to be nearly 80 all weekend.  So sorry to all you "BOOBS" ladies who had to endure the cold last week.  Nobody could have predicted this!

My girls each do a sport as well as swim lessons  That and the nightly homework has me running ragged.  We decided that we're doing the next session of swim lessons on Saturdays, when hubby is in town.  That should relieve a bit of the stress on me of constantly running them to one event or another.  Phew!

I want to eat cookies.  And peanut butter.  Ya' think T.O.M. is on the way or what?!

That's all for tonight.  I hope everyone has a fantastic long weekend.
See ya' next week!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Exhausted, and Missing My Husband

Hot dog, I'm tired.  This single parenting stuff during the week is for the birds and I give all you single moms out there HUGE credit for doing what you do every day.  I'm here to tell you, it's no picnic. (Dawnya, I know you're going through this too, can I get an Amen!?)

I was so proud of myself last night that I got the kids in bed and doors closed in record time.  I was all business, no doddling.  Well, about an hour later I realized they never brushed their teeth.  Doh!  These are the things we never forget when we're working as a team.  When I told the 6 year old about it this morning she got a very concerned look on her face and said "OH NO!  Do I have any cavities?".  Gotta' love kids.

Today my downstairs toilet (which has given us problems since the day we moved in) is plugged and seems beyond being able to be fixed with a plunger.  Dammit, where is that husband when you need him most!?

Also just today the exhaust fan in the master bath decided to seize up and refuse to run. Looks like I have to get out the ladder and take that sucker apart and act like I just might know what I'm doing up there.  Aaaaghh!

My 4 year old has decided that this week she will be even bossier, and more 'Type A' personality than usual.  Now she's not just bossing her sister around, but has decided it's OK to yell at me and tell me what to do.  Oh no, that's not gonna' fly in my house kiddo!  If Daddy was here, he'd nip that right in the bud for sure.

The 6 year old is having anxiety.  More than usual.  Every night is turning into a tear fest where she begs me to sleep in her room with her.  She's a nervous wreck about everything, especially school.  Missing a week of school work for our trip to Disney has just about put her over the edge (we're talking Kindergarten here people!)  It breaks my heart.

Sorry to be a downer, but I'm just sharing what's going through my head tonight, now that the house is actually quiet for 5 minutes and I can think straight.

Well, it's 8:30pm. and I'm so tired my head just might fall off my neck if I don't go to bed now. I have to rest up for tomorrow.  We have grocery shopping and swim lessons.  Lord help me!