Wednesday, March 30, 2011

I Have Failed!

For those of you who know me personally and know my kids, you'll look at this picture and chuckle.  However, it makes me feel like a big FAT failure.  Pardon the pun.  You see, I try not to be obsessed with my weight, and even when I am, I try my very best to not obsess in front of my children.  I don't want them to grow up with body image issues.  I don't weight myself in front of them, I don't talk about size and weight with them.  I want them to be strong, confident people.

So, after the hubby took my 7 month picture, and I left for work, this is what happened. 

My sweet, precious daughter took her Daddy's hand and said "Daddy, come here and take my picture, then you can tell me how skinny I look!".  OH. MY. GOD!  What have I done?  I never even thought about it every month when I have him take the picture.  They were present and paying attention.  Crap!

From now on we will be more on guard.  We will not be taking monthly comparison shots in front of the kids.  We will continue to talk about making healthy choices and what's good for our bodies, but we won't use the word skinny, just as we never use the word fat.  I promise to try my best not to ruin my daughters.

Sunday, March 27, 2011

A nice treat, when you really want a cookie!

I don't know about you guys but I spend a lot of my energy trying to fight my sweet tooth.  It's awful.  So, instead of giving in to the cravings and feeling like a failure, and subsequently beating ouselves up about it, why not find good substitutes?
I have a dear friend who is a vegan, and is amazing in the kitchen.  She's always playing around with new recipes to try to include protein in her diet.  She sent me a recipe for some oatmeal cookies that is pretty darn healthy as far as cookies go.  I decided to make them for the hubby's birthday since he doesn't eat cake or ice cream.  I know, he's not human.  He doesn't care much for sweets at all.  I'm not sure what planet he's from.

I did make a few changes to make them even more weight loss friendly.  So, here's the recipe as I made them, and in parentheses is the original recipe.
They turned out YUMMY.  I hope you enjoy them.

Oatmeal Cookies

1 Cup Whole Wheat Flour
1 Cup White Flour                   (2 Cups White Flour)
1 1/2 tsp. baking soda
1/2 tsp. salt
1/2 tsp. cinnamon
2 Cups oatmeal
1/2 Cup Splenda Brown Sugar Blend (3/4C white sugar)
1/4 Cup Vegetable Oil
1/2 Cup Natural no sugar added apple sauce  (3/4 C veg. oil)
1/2 Cup Pure Maple Syrup       (3/4 C. pure maple syrup!)
1/3 Cup Light Soy Milk            (1/3 C. rice milk)
1/4 Cup Siken Tofu
1tsp. Vanilla extract

Mix all dry ingredients in large bowl.
Blend all wet ingredients in blender or food processor until smooth.
Combine wet and dry ingredients, mix well.
Drop by rounded teaspoon on cookie sheet.
Bake for 15 minutes at 350 degrees.

You could certainly increase the maple syrup but they were a big hit with the hubby because they weren't too sweet.  Have you ever heard of wanting a cookie that wasn't sweet?!

This recipe makes a TON of cookies, so God help you if you're single or live alone.  Make friends with the neighbor kids or store half of them in the WAY back of your freezer.  Hey, they're healthy, but not if you eat all of them in the course of one day!

Saturday, March 26, 2011

Weekly Weigh In and Measurements

I actually remembered to weigh myself this morning before eating or exercising.  What a break through, huh?  Well, I did in fact break the 3 week plateau I've been on.  Although my hubby says I was just leading up to a crescendo!  I'll have to look that word up and see if he was really using it properly.  Anyway, my total loss to date is:


Yay me!  I can't wait to hit the big 50 and get really excited.  So close.

I took my measurements this week.  The last time I did them was in December, then my kids broke the tape measure.  I finally got around to buying a new one and I'm glad I did.  Those of you who say it's a good idea to take measurements, especially when you're not losing pounds, you're absolutely right!  So, from December until now, here's what has changed...

Bust: -1in.
Waist: -.5in.
Hips: -2in. (down a total of 7 here overall!)
Upper thigh: -.5in.
Above knee: -1in.

Always a good idea to take measurements people!  The numbers don't lie.
Have a great weekend everyone!

Sunday, March 20, 2011

What Was in Your Snack Today?

Imagine taking a bit of this...

Care for a little rubber gasket with your cheese?  Me neither.  Imagine my horror, as well as my relief that it wasn't one of my kids biting into it!  I've had so many dental problems in the past few years that when I bit into something hard, I thought for sure it was one of my crowns.  Thank God it wasn't.  Hubby called the manufacturer. 

They apologized profusely and will be sending us a check for twice the amount we paid for the package.

They asked numerous times if we'd still be willing to buy their product.  We said yes.  I haven't had another cheese stick since that day though.  I'm sure I will, I just have to get over my mini freak out!


I hope you enjoyed your snack today.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

7 Month Bandiversary, Catching Up, and Boobs!

Today marks 7 months since surgery, and I'm too tired to really care.  I do care enough to mention that I lost that 2 pounds I gained last week.  I'm pretty sure it was water weight because it came off almost as quickly as it went on.  Now, I'm holding steady, no gain, no loss.  That's just fine with me for now.

I had the hubs take my monthly picture and I'm not very happy with it.  These pants make my legs look like sausages!  You should know that after having them on for half an hour, they stretch out and no longer look like this.  Oh well, here's day one compared to today...

Month 7

Day 1

I've been working my butt off this week.  I wish I meant that literally, but sadly I've only made it to the gym once this week.  I picked up a ton of hours at my part time job as soon as I heard the news about hubby's job.  He has fully embraced the "Mr. Mom" role as I trek off to work every day.  That's team work!  I think the commute is almost as hard as the job...2 hours round trip.  However, I must say that I am so happy I have a job where I can pick up hours when I want/need them, and I like feeling like I'm doing something helpful in a time of crisis.

I have to look professional at my job (I'm on camera all day) so I've had to ditch my 'mom uniform' of jeans and a baggy fleece.  The other day I came downstairs wearing a fitted sweater and hubby said "Whoa, where did those come from?".  Um, he was referring to my breasts!  I've always been small on top so I was like "What the hell are you talking about?".  The only time in my life that I've ever filled in a B cup was when I was very pregnant, or at my heaviest.  Both of those times, the boobs were fighting a losing battle with the belly, so nobody would have noticed.  This time though, the belly has gone WAY down, and the boobs have remained!  After hubby pointed this out to me (the perv!), I couldn't stop looking at my video screen and asking myself the same question "Whoa, where did those come from!?".

In other news...for those of you who follow Shelley at "Eggface", you might like this.  I've been trying some of her ideas and recipes when I have the ingredients on hand.  I made these cute little pistachio muffins.  How appropriate for St. Patrick's Day.  They were super easy to make and even the kids loved them.  Well, that was until the 4 year old told the 5 year old that there were almonds in there, then she decided she no longer liked them!  That's after she ate two of course.  Here's what mine looked like...

I've made them twice and both times I only get 10 muffins.  Shelly says the recipe makes 12.  I even added some apple sauce the second time to try and get a little more, but still only got 10.  Go figure.  Maybe her muffin tins are smaller than mine.  Anyway, they were really light and airy, and tasty.  What a great 'on the go' high protein snack.

I guess that's all for now.  I'm going to bed very early tonight in hopes of making it to the gym at 5:15 for my weight training class.  I'm so glad this week is over and I have a day off tomorrow!

Saturday, March 12, 2011

Heading in the Wrong Direction

Well, for the first time ever since surgery, the scale moved the wrong way.  I don't know what's going on but all week I've been up anywhere between one and two pounds (yes, I weighed every day).  This really sucks the big one!  And, here's the funny thing.  This week I actually tracked my protein and water intake EVERY DAY.  I usually only get to that once or twice weekly.  Also, I made it to 3 Body Pump (weight training) classes this week, a spin class, and worked out at home on the treadmill twice.  So, that's 6 good exercise days out of 7.  I was pretty darn proud of myself!  Have I mentioned that this sucks the big one?  What the hell.  Hubby thinks I might be getting TOM soon, and that would explain it.  Hey, that might make me feel better (what!?).

I guess I better bite the bullet and put my weekly weigh in here, even though I don't want to.  So if I take the 2 pounds I was up this morning, that brings me to a total loss of...


I'm keeping fingers crossed for a better week next week, but I'm not so confident that will happen.  You see, my hubby lost his job yesterday.  Let's not even get into how pissed I am at what they did to him.  I will say though that stress is NOT a good thing for the body, especially when you're trying to lose weight.  Also, in my typical knee jerk response to jump into action, I signed up for a bunch of hours at my job next week.  I needed to do something to feel helpful in this awful situation.  I feel lucky that I have the ability to grab hours when I need or want to.  However, I don't have the best eating track record when I'm at work.  My breaks are only 10  minutes which totally breaks the #1 band rule of eating slowly!  Let me just be negative for once in my life (normally Suzie Sunshine here) and say this all TOTALLY SUCKS!  Phew, OK, now that's out...I'll move on.
I'm going shopping today and will be buying lots of healthy things that I can bring to work.  I'm hoping for the best.  I will NOT gain another ounce this week. That is my promise to myself.
Hope you guys all have a great weekend.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Lots of Random Stuff

I had a hard time sleeping last night, and when that happens, my mind races.  So, I had about a million random thoughts run through my head.  I figured I might as well put them down here and share my madness with you all!

Today is the start of Lent.  Are you giving up something?  I'm not Catholic but have often decided on my own to sacrifice something for Lent.  It's usually refined sugar so I think I'll go with that one again this year.  I've been struggling to get the scale to move again this week so maybe eliminating the small amount of sugar I currently allow myself, will get things moving.  Seriously, what else is left to give up at this point?!

Why is it that married men are checking me out now?  I get that people might start noticing me more now that I've lost quite a it of weight, but why is it always married men?  That totally skeeves me out and makes my blood boil.  It has happened twice now...some random guy at the gym making eyes and smiling at me, with a glaring gold band on their finger!  Yuck.  Morally defective pigs, that's what I say.  Then there was the creepy old guy at the UPS store who said hi to me on his way out, then waited in his car for me to finish up and come out.  I'm not sure if he was married or not because I was in a hurry to lock all my car doors, for fear that he might be a crazed mad man.  Ick.

We've booked a family trip to Disney world in the fall.  I can't stop thinking about what I'm going to eat while there.  It's 6 months away and already I'm food obsessed!  It's more about how I'm going to survive the week while trying to stay healthy, and what stuff I can bring along to make things easier.  We don't eat fast food at all, so this could be a nightmare.  I have the feeling I'll be pretty sick of protein shakes and protein bars when that week is over.

I'm back to spin class on the weekends, and I love it.  I was taking the class at least once a week but things got all messed up with my work schedule and the kids weekend activities.  I decided it's time to take control and allow myself some 'me' time, even if it's not convenient.  I went on Sunday and got a great workout.  I promised myself I wouldn't sell myself short, meaning I would do EVERY thing the instructor said to do.  Rolling hills...Fine.  Steep climb...No problem. it!  Give me 65% of your maximum watts...What?  Seriously, I failed math.  You lost me at 65%.  I'll just spin like mad and hope for the best!
Anyway, I plan on going every Sunday as long as I'm not working.  It's a date for ME!

I hope you're all well, and sleeping better than I am these days.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

My 6 Month Stats, Weigh In and an Update

I had a my 6 month post-op follow up with the surgeon today.  It was a little late because he's so popular these days that it's hard to get an appointment with him!
He came in with a huge smile on his face and asked how I was doing.  He looked at me with those dreamy eyes and asked "Do you realize you've lost 12 pounds since you were here just 7 weeks ago?".  No, I hadn't realized that, but it was nice of him to point it out. 

Then he looked over my labs.  He just kept saying "This is amazing, your cholesterol is well within the normal limits, this is great...look at these numbers!".  I told him I'm still having dizzy spells to which he replied "I want you off that cholesterol medication, you don't need it anymore."  I reminded him that I have a significant family history for high cholesterol so he agreed that we would cut my dose in half for 6 months, then most likely go off it completely.  I've been on statins for more than 10 years.  I never imagined I would ever go off them!  WOW.

Just FYI, here are my cholesterol scores.
Total: 167 (lowest score ever)
HDL: 50
LDL: 102
Triglycerides: 72 (lowest score ever)

We discussed the whole issue of me not being able to tolerate much solid protein.  He's not concerned.  We didn't do an un-fill.  He says as long as I'm getting in all my protein and liquids with no problem, and not having reflux or pain, he's of the opinion that we should leave it alone.  I have such a small amount of fill to begin with, and as I continue to lose weight, I will lose restriction (that's what I thought too).  I feel good about that decision.  If I wasn't able to eat any protein at all, that would be a different story.

I didn't with the nurse.  I don't get that about this docs office, I don't see the nurse every time.  Weird.  So this afternoon I went to the drug store in town and took my own blood pressure.  I do this every month or so at the suggestion of my doctor, and I keep the log in my purse. 
Want to know why I've been dizzy?  Holy 97/66 Batman!  I better not bend over to tie my shoes or I might pass out!  I tend to be on the low end of normal, but even that is low for me.  I typically run about 109/70.  I better go lick the salt shaker.

In other news, I completed the 5 day pouch test.  I must admit that cutting out the carbs not only gave a push to the weight loss, it made me feel better.  I was still getting some carbs from things like the 1/2 banana I put in my protein shake the first 2 days.  However I cut out the nonsense carbs.  I can't stick to a zero carb diet but it was a good wake up call that I am a carbaholic and I can take control.

So, with the help of the pouch test I am down a total of ...

Thank you Lap Band.  Thank you very much!
Have a great week everyone, be well.