Monday, October 31, 2011

The Evil Spoils of Halloween

My nemesis...

Chocolate and peanut butter is my kryptonite.  It makes me powerless and defeats me. I'm thankful this day only comes once a year!

I have put all the extra candy in a bucket on my front porch and I'm hoping the Halloween Gods will send a bunch of teenagers to clean up.

I'll be setting my alarm for 5:30am. and hitting the treadmill and/or elliptical until my kids get up. I must pay for my sins!

I've also decided that this is the last year I'll be giving away candy on Halloween. My kids got a lot of cute things tonight that were not edible. Here's a sample...

Play dough, stickers and even anti-bacterial hand stuff!  That's way cool. Oh, and one neighbor gave away Beanie Babies. Really! Every kid got a full size Beanie Baby. How amazing (and expensive) is that?
Believe me, they got enough candy to last more than a year, but I was so happy to see there was something else out there too. I'll be following suit next year.

And the BEST treat they got this year, from my very sweet neighbor who put together goody bags just for them...

The coolest tooth brush ever. How appropriate after all the sugar they consumed today.

I hope you all had a wonderful Halloween.
Tomorrow is a new day!

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Could you Work Harder...Do More?

I'd have to say that 99% of the time, the answer to that question would be a resounding yes. 

I remember a couple years ago reading an article about Jillian Michaels where she said she hires a personal trainer.  What?!  She IS a personal trainer. The poster child for fitness. What the heck does she need wth a trainer?  Her answer?  "I know he will work me harder than I'd ever work myself.  I need to be pushed".

I know exactly what she means. That's the same reason why I do classes at the gym, instead of going up to the fitness floor and doing my own thing.  I wouldn't push myself, and I know it. I'd probably walk for 30 minutes on the treadmill and call it a day. I need to be pushed.

On Friday I hit the gym twice, for two classes.  The early am. was my typical strength training/weight lifting class. After I got the kiddos off to school, I went back for an hour of kick boxing.  I can honestly say that at the end of the second class, I was totally spent.  I could actually feel that my body had used up everything it had in it. I was running on fumes. Have you ever felt like that? It was weird, and satisfying all at the same time. I knew I worked my ass off (hopefully literally!). Good work out, no trainer needed.

Then on Saturday I went to a spin class.  The thing with spinning is that the ride is what you make of it.  You have control over the tension on the bike, as well as how hard you push. The instructor gives recommendations like "your gear should be between 10 and 15.." but ultimately it's your ride.
I thought I had a great work out.  I was sweating and I felt my heart rate getting up there. I felt good.  THEN, on the way out I saw another girl who was literally dripping from head to toe in sweat. I swear, she looked like she had been caught in a rain storm, or took a shower with her clothes on!  What the heck?  I thought I worked really hard, I felt good...until I saw her!
Now, it could be that she's just a generally sweaty person, but I'm pretty sure it's proof that I can almost always work harder than I do.

I do work out a lot.  More so than the average person, I think.  However, my body is used to the exercise I do. I have to constantly kick it up a notch and change things around if I want to continue to see results. Frustrating? Yes, to say the least. But it is what it is, and it certainly keeps me in check.

So I guess what I'm trying to say in all this babbling mess is that the next time you're exercising, ask yourself if you could do faster, lift more, push harder.  I bet you can!  Give it a shot.

Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Temptation Everywhere

Have you ever noticed that temptations are EVERY WHERE, EVERY DAY?  I realized just this week that I am having at least a small treat just about every freaking day.

Here are some examples of what's coming up in my life...

Once a week I pick up a friends daughter and take her to a play group for an hour.  The grandmother is there when I drop the kiddo off.  Every week Grandma asks me in and every week I politely decline.  You see, she's a sweet old Indian lady and I figure that's pretty much going to be the same as the sweet old Italian lady.  She's going to want me to eat.
Well, last week I really had no excuse not to go in so I accepted the invitation.
Here's how it went:

Her: "You want to eat something?"
Me: "Oh, no thank you, I've already had lunch"
Her: "Oh good, we'll have cake then!"

What the heck?  I was blindsided by this sweet old lady!  She put a hunk of cake in front of me and there are cultural expectations that I'll eat it.  Damn you sweet grandmother!

I usually have my younger kid with me when I go grocery shopping.  She knows the lady at the cookie counter very well. She goes over there, flashes her award winning smile, and gets a free cookie.
Here's what happened today:

Lady: "Hi Sweetie, go ahead and pick which one you want"
Kid: "Mom, would you like a bite of my cookie"
Me: "Sure, I'll take a little bite. thank you for sharing"
Lady: "Oh honey, go pick one out for Mommy too"

Like I need a freaking cookie, lady! Seriously, who in their right mind would turn down a M&M cookie?  Not me, I am powerless over the M&M. Frick!

I get the kids into bed, make my evening tea and sit down to read some blogs.  The doorbell rings.  On my porch is a bag FULL of Halloween candy and a note that says "You've been boo-ed".  It's a thing the folks in my neighborhood do to be fun and neighborly.
Now, I already had that cookie today so I was not about to indulge in candy too, but I did peek in the bag.  Thank God and everything holy, there was not a single piece of chocolate in the bag! It was all stuff I don't like anyway.  Bullet dodged. I'll be re-"booing" that bag of candy tomorrow night. We don't need it in the house.

No wonder it's so hard to lose weight and keep it off. The temptations NEVER end.  How do you say no all the time?
Just think, Christmas is right around the corner.  I wonder how many cookie exchanges I'll be invited to this year, all of which I'll be declining.

How do you avoid the daily temptations?  Do you always say no?  I'd love to hear your opinions and feedback.

Saturday, October 22, 2011

Why I Can Never Go Back

I've said before that my new motto is "I'm never going back".  It's mostly because I don't want to be a weight loss surgery failure.  I've seen that happen way too many times, and it's sad.  It's also because I want to do my best to be here for my kids for as long as possible. I wasn't going to be able to do that at 230 pounds and counting.

While I'm in spin class, feeling like I'm going to die and want to quit, I repeat the words over and over in my head "I'm never going back, I'm never going back...". It's my mantra, to remind myself of the reasons why I have to stick it out.

And then there's this...

This is the new summer dress I picked up last week and put away for next summer.  You see, if next summer comes and I can't fit into this dress, I'm going to be pissed like nobody's business!  O.K., let me clarify.  If this dress doesn't fit next year because I've lost more weight and it's actually too big, then I'm totally fine with that.  It was marked WAY down to $5 so it's no big loss.  I'm sure somebody in the 'sisterhood' would love to have it and I'll be happy to pass it along.  But if I gain weight and can't wear it, THEN I'm going to be pissed.

The dress will be my guide (besides the scale).  It JUST barely fits, so if I gain a pound it will be obvious. And now that I've posted it for the whole world to see, I can't go back!

Wednesday, October 19, 2011


Sometimes, no matter if it's on sale AND you have a great coupon, some things should just be left on the shelf, never to be looked at again.

Like these...

You know how most crack addicts say they were addicted after just their first try of the drug?  Yeah, if you want to share in that experience with the crack addicts of the world, go ahead and buy this product.

Daughter #2 and I were shopping today, around lunch time.  BIG mistake.  We opened the bag in the car on the way home and COULD NOT STOP EATING!
The bag should say "C'mon I dare you, just try to eat one little serving and walk away...I bet you can't!".  It's like that old potato chip commercial "I betcha' can't eat just one".  In fact I popped some more in my mouth after I took the picture of the damn bag!

I just had to portion them out in little snack bags for Daughter #1 to take to school with her this week so that I would stop snacking.

I don't recommend making this item your entire lunch and afternoon snack.  However, after my little 'experimentation' with the new drug today, I had absolutely no room (or calories) left in my pouch for anything else.  I'm sure Phil (the band) is cursing me right now.

Consider this your public service announcement.  DO NOT BUY THIS PRODUCT if you value your waist line, and your blood sugar levels, and your sanity.

Enough said.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Catching up on Comparison Shots

I just realized that I haven't done any side by side comparison pictures since my one year bandiversary.  I'm not sure why but after that year mark, it just didn't seem very important to me any more.

However, I now have a bunch of new followers and they just might want to see where I started, without having to go way back in my post archives.

For that reason, and because I have nothing else to write about, here are the comparison shots!

8/18/10 (day one)

9/17/11 (13 months)

10/16/11 (14 months)
And...those are the new jeans I bought with some of my birthday money.  I had found 'Earl' jeans over the summer while visiting our family in NY and didn't buy them.  I'm glad I didn't because they were a whole lot cheaper here.  I love Earl!

The whole concept of tucking in my shirt has been foreign to me.  I can't believe I can actually do it and get away with it, and NOT look like a big slob.  No muffin top?  Get outta' here!  And the best part?  The hubby told me he likes the way my coolie (butt) looks in them.  Score!
Yeah, I'm short, and a bit thick, but I got a man and that's the way he likes me, so I'm OK with that. I'm not going for perfect.

About the weigh ins.  I haven't posted one since my big '65' pound announcement.  It's been a month and I haven't lost any more.  In fact I keep bouncing back and forth between 165 and 167 since my un-fill.  Sure, I could go back in for a fill but I don't think that's the answer. I have restriction.  Honestly, I like being able to eat real food now (which was impossible before the un-fill).  I just need to be more careful about my food choices and remember to write them down every day.  I know what works, and more importantly, what doesn't.

I'd like to lose 10 more pounds but honestly, if I can stay at 165 for the rest of my life, I wouldn't hate that either.
So there you have it.  I'm all caught up and hopefully staying on the right path.  My motto is still "I'm never going back".  All I have to do is look at these pictures to know why.

Have a great day everyone!

Friday, October 14, 2011

Secret Santa Info.

I decided to join in on the Secret Santa fun started by the lovely Shannon...

I never get involved in this kind of stuff but for some reason I got excited about this one!

She wants lots of participation, and that's what makes it fun, right?  So go on over and sign up.  Who doesn't love getting presents!

Thursday, October 13, 2011

Note To Self

Just a friendly reminder to myself...

This is NOT a game where you try to see how much crap you can eat in a day without gaining weight.  Furthermore, when you've eaten crap and don't see a gain on the scale in the morning, that is NOT a green light to go ahead and eat more crap!

Just in case you forgot.

Sunday, October 9, 2011

Wisconsin Weekend

We're back, again.  All this traveling is wearing on me, for real.  I've spent more time in hotel rooms in the past 3 weeks than I've spent in an entire year, and I'm ready to just be home.

The weekend in Wisconsin with the hubby was good.  The girls and I were anxious to see where he works, and the hotel he hangs out in during the week.  Everybody at the office just LOVED the girls.  It was sweet.

We spent a day at the awesome Milwaukee Zoo.  It was the perfect day for it and the kids had a great time.  We even bought an annual pass so we'll definitely be back.
Here's what the hubby thought would be cool to do with my precious little babies...

Yeah, that's a ski lift.  God only knows how high that thing is but it's WAY too high for my liking.  You notice I'm not with them.  Nope. I told the kiddos "Mommy doesn't have enough dollars for all of us to go, so you just go with Daddy, OK?".  Yup, I'm a big liar and that's OK with me because I really didn't want to have the zoo staff call the paramedics for the woman who had a heart attack on the sky ride.  Holy Mother, it scares me just to look at this picture, and of course I'm thinking about how my babies could have fallen out!

The best part was when my 4 year old yelled "This is SO COOL Mom, but you wouldn't like it!".  I guess I wasn't fooling her any, huh?
When they got off I said "You know, when we come back here, I think we should go on the choo choo train".  Much more my speed, thank you very much.

One night hubby tells me he needs bottled water.  Well, say no more, I never need an excuse for an impromptu shopping trip to Wally World!  I ran right out (because I'm a nice wife after all) to get my man some water.  While I'm shopping I notice two guys walking through the aisles, looking clueless.  One is carrying beer, the other is carrying chips.  Of course they have no cart, because it's in the man rule book, you do not shop with a cart. It's not masculine.  I hear the one say to the other, and I quote "Do you wanna' get an apple or somethin'?  You know, for tomorrow?".  I REALLY wanted to say "Yeah, after a night of drinking beer and eating chips, you should start tomorrow off with an apple.  You know, to split between the two of you".  If you ever need a good laugh, go to W@lmart at night.  It'll be worth the trip.
By the way, I was almost to the check out before I noticed I had plenty of things in my cart, but no water.  That would have been funny!

No weekly weigh in this week because I wasn't home to do it.  Sorry to disappoint but I'm not going to weigh until Saturday (my regular day) because Mama needs to work off that Chinese food I got over the weekend.  And, there might have been some alcohol in that shopping cart too, I'm just sayin', hypothetically.

Have a great week everyone!

Thursday, October 6, 2011

A Quick Update For the Weekend

I neglected to mention in yesterdays post that the hubby is not coming home this weekend, because we're going there to see him.  The girls and I are heading out in the morning.  It's only a 90 mile drive.  Hubby knows how directionally challenged I am so he wrote out the directions turn by turn for me (and I have a GPS) so I should be just fine.

We'll get to see the new office, and meet the bosses.  I have a nice outfit picked out and even gave myself a pedi today.  Of course I have 2 brand new zits to show off as well. Lovely.

The company is treating us to this 'house hunting' trip so hotel and meals is on them.  That means we're going out to dinner and Mama's craving Chinese food!  I'll probably be able to eat 3 bites and be done, but I don't care, I have a taste for it.  Can you tell we don't go out much?

In other news, the bathroom exhaust fan worked today.  I'm sure it's a temporary thing but at least it keeps me off the ladder for a few more days.

The downstairs toilet has decided to flush today, although it still gurgles like it's choking on a chicken bone, it flushes.  That's all that matter as far as I'm concerned.

The temperature here in the Chicago area is going to be nearly 80 all weekend.  So sorry to all you "BOOBS" ladies who had to endure the cold last week.  Nobody could have predicted this!

My girls each do a sport as well as swim lessons  That and the nightly homework has me running ragged.  We decided that we're doing the next session of swim lessons on Saturdays, when hubby is in town.  That should relieve a bit of the stress on me of constantly running them to one event or another.  Phew!

I want to eat cookies.  And peanut butter.  Ya' think T.O.M. is on the way or what?!

That's all for tonight.  I hope everyone has a fantastic long weekend.
See ya' next week!

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

Exhausted, and Missing My Husband

Hot dog, I'm tired.  This single parenting stuff during the week is for the birds and I give all you single moms out there HUGE credit for doing what you do every day.  I'm here to tell you, it's no picnic. (Dawnya, I know you're going through this too, can I get an Amen!?)

I was so proud of myself last night that I got the kids in bed and doors closed in record time.  I was all business, no doddling.  Well, about an hour later I realized they never brushed their teeth.  Doh!  These are the things we never forget when we're working as a team.  When I told the 6 year old about it this morning she got a very concerned look on her face and said "OH NO!  Do I have any cavities?".  Gotta' love kids.

Today my downstairs toilet (which has given us problems since the day we moved in) is plugged and seems beyond being able to be fixed with a plunger.  Dammit, where is that husband when you need him most!?

Also just today the exhaust fan in the master bath decided to seize up and refuse to run. Looks like I have to get out the ladder and take that sucker apart and act like I just might know what I'm doing up there.  Aaaaghh!

My 4 year old has decided that this week she will be even bossier, and more 'Type A' personality than usual.  Now she's not just bossing her sister around, but has decided it's OK to yell at me and tell me what to do.  Oh no, that's not gonna' fly in my house kiddo!  If Daddy was here, he'd nip that right in the bud for sure.

The 6 year old is having anxiety.  More than usual.  Every night is turning into a tear fest where she begs me to sleep in her room with her.  She's a nervous wreck about everything, especially school.  Missing a week of school work for our trip to Disney has just about put her over the edge (we're talking Kindergarten here people!)  It breaks my heart.

Sorry to be a downer, but I'm just sharing what's going through my head tonight, now that the house is actually quiet for 5 minutes and I can think straight.

Well, it's 8:30pm. and I'm so tired my head just might fall off my neck if I don't go to bed now. I have to rest up for tomorrow.  We have grocery shopping and swim lessons.  Lord help me!

Sunday, October 2, 2011

We're Back!

Phew, a week in Disney with the family was great fun and a much needed vacation.  We all had a fantastic time.  The in-laws were in their glory getting to spend so much time with the kids.

I took Caron's comment to heart and didn't let the world of excess take over my body and my brain, and it worked.  When I got on the scale yesterday it said I was up about 1 pound.  I'll take that and run with it.  We were on the 'dining plan' which afforded us some lovely, elegant meals, but I ate until I was full and pushed the rest away. I had to fight years and years of training about how bad it is to let food go to waste.  My mother would be cringing, but I had to let it go and remind myself daily that it's not about the food, it's about my health.
I also had dessert.  Not tons, and not overboard, but I didn't want to feel deprived.  I had a little here and there and since we were walking about 14,000 steps per day as well as swimming (and sweating profusely in the 90 degree + humidity!), I figured I was entitled.

Here are a couple of my favorite things heard while on vacation that keep me smiling whenever I think of them...

While in the pool:
"You can always tell the Europeans by their bathing suits.  Check out the guy in the Speedo".
Mother in Law:
"Mm Hmmm. I see him.  I'm waiting for him to turn around so I can see his junk".

OMG, that's my 60+ year old MIL.  She's a freaking riot!

While watching a parade in Magic Kingdom:
6 year old daughter:
"Mom, did you see that!?  Prince Eric waved at me and blew me a kiss!  I think he might be in love with me.  He probably thinks I'm a princess.  You know, because I'm shorter than him.  And, I'm wearing a dress."

After a day of shows at Animal Kingdom:
6 year old again:
"This has been the best day of my whole life!"

After a long, exhausting day:
"I took a Ben@dryl so I'll get a good night sleep tonight"
"We might have to call an intervention.  You know that's how Michael Jackson got started, right?"

We got back Friday afternoon and then first thing Saturday morning I hopped on a train to Chicago to meet up with some of my favorite "BOOBS" who were there for the weekend meet-up.  I wish I could have joined them for the whole weekend but that obviously was not in the cards for this year.
It was so nice to meet these ladies in person after following their blogs for a year now.
First was Brandi, who graciously let me hang in her hotel room while I waited for Beth Ann to get back from exercising (yup, even on vacation!).  She totally rocks.  While there, in walks Dawnya! I was a bit star struck.  I love reading her blog and had no idea I would be meeting her.  It was a nice surprise and she is as fun and lovable as she is on her blog, truly!  On our way out we ran into Catherine.  Another situation of feeling like I had just met a movie star or something.  She's great and I love reading about her life in NYC.  I live vicariously through her since I pretty much live in the middle of corn fields here.

Beth and I went out to lunch together along with 2 other ladies who I have not been following, but now I will!  One was Debi, who ironically enough has a brother who went to the same college as I did.  Such a small world.  And the lovely Crystal whose blog I can't seem to find anywhere (help me out Beth!).
They were all awesome and beautiful.  Beth took a picture after lunch and it might end up on her blog once she's back at home and blogging again.  I didn't have my camera with me since I had about a thousand Disney pics on my memory card that I was still trying to upload and edit.

So, after a whirlwind week and weekend, I think we just might be back to normal here.  Hubby's out golfing, I'm blogging and putting away laundry, the kiddos are watching cartoons.  All is right with the world.

I hope you're all having a fabulous weekend!