Thursday, December 20, 2012


My last Ten Things Thursday of 2012.

1. My kids had a snow day from school today. We got pelted with quite a storm over night, and there's more on the way. We stayed in our jammies all day. They even put their snow pants on over their pajamas to go play in it for a little while, then in front of the fire place they went!
They're lovin' life.

2. I tried to go to the Quick Care clinic this afternoon, during a short lull in the storm. Hubby thinks I should get this prolonged cold checked out in case it's a sinus infection. We're heading to NY this weekend and he doesn't want me to have a problem while away. I guess that makes sense.
Well, they were closed due to the storm!
If I'm not improving by tomorrow I'll try again.

3. I just made a batch of these for the road trip. Holy Hannah they are DEELISH! I've tried many recipes from this web site and some are OK, some are not so great. But this one is like heaven on a plate!
I used Splenda instead of sugar. I also just melted a tiny layer of chocolate to spread on the top, not a thick layer like she shows in her pic.
No matter how healthy they are, they're totally addicting and I could eat the whole friggin' batch myself!
I'm sure the kiddos will like these while enduring a 12 hour car ride.

4. I also made these. However, I didn't want so much chocolate, and one of my kids won't eat peanuts (even though she loves peanut butter!), so I used crushed almonds and I just drizzled them with a little bit of "Magic Shell" to make them more appealing. I've never used that stuff before and really thought it would harden like it shows on the package and commercials, but it didn't. Maybe it hardens when putting it over ice cream, but not these warm balls (snicker).
Here's the pic of mine. 

I sure hope the kids like them because I sure do, and that could be dangerous!

5. Just in case you're concerned that I'm bringing too many goodies on the trip, rest assured we'll be packing turkey and cheese, yogurt, apples, grapes, bananas, snap peas, and other healthy choices. I tend to over do it in the planning because I'm fully aware that it's not very enjoyable for a 5 and 7 year old to sit for 12+ hours in a car. We'll be driving through breakfast, lunch, and snacks. I like variety, and I'm sure they do too.

6. I forgot to mention in my last post that my husband did in fact get strep again from our daughter. For some reason it skipped me this time. Yesterday I went around the house and disinfected all the door knobs and handles as well as counter tops and toilets. I washed all the sheets again too. I don't know how we keep getting it but I'm hoping my OCD behavior will prevent us from getting it again!

7. Speaking of the husband, he's down 7 1/2 pounds since his doctor appt. Give that man a mission, and he's all over it! He's been running more and is up to 9 miles now (way more than I've ever done!) He just signed up for a half marathon. He's really taking the high blood pressure warning seriously.

8. Do you need a good laugh today? I swear you will pee your pants, spit out your coffee, choke on your dinner and be temporarily unable to breathe properly when you read this. PLEASE read it. We all need a good laugh...

9. I haven't talked about the Connecticut tragedy in my blog until now. I can tell you that never before have I been so deeply affected by something I saw in the news. I don't know any of the victims but I think about them every single day. I can't get through an hour without thinking about their families and what they must be going through right now. I have shed many tears over the past 6 days.
Today I read that someone set up a fake fund raising account in one of the little boys names, in order to cash in on this devastating tragedy. Unsuspecting people were actually making donations.
I have to believe there's a special place in Hell for someone like that. Go out and get a friggin' job dirt bag, and stop preying on innocent, grieving parents!

10. I'm hoping school is not canceled again tomorrow because I have a lot of stuff to get done and only one day in which to do it. I need to wrap a couple more presents for the kids. I also need to finish up some last minute packing (which may include another load of laundry). There may be a trip to Quick Care, and I need to get the tires rotated on the car. NOT enough hours in the day, I tell ya'!

I doubt I'll be able to write another post before Christmas so I'd like to wish you all a very Merry Christmas, Happy Hannukah, and Happy New Year!

Be happy, healthy, and make good choices.

See you next year!

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

Just Checking In

My husband is on a conference call with China and the kids are in bed, so what better time to catch up on the old blog!?

We got our first real snow fall of the season today. My older daughter has been asking EVERY DAY for at least a month if it was going to snow. Needless to say she was a very happy camper today to see it snowing. I picked them up from school which gave them a little more time to play in the white stuff than they would have if they took the  bus. I love the pure joy and innocence of children.

We're expecting quite a significant storm here tomorrow night and into Thursday. That doesn't affect me much since all my Christmas shopping is done and I could use the time stuck in the house to get some wrapping and baking done.
However, I'm not going to be a happy mama if the weather disturbs our travel plans on Sunday. We're heading back to NY to spend Christmas with the extended family. We're not planning on going home again for a full year so this trip is important to me.
Prayers for a clear travel day and a safe journey please!

Because we're traveling to NY, we actually have two Christmases. Santa comes here to Wisconsin on Friday night, then he comes to NY on the night of December 24. My kids are pretty lucky, huh?
We don't over do it here on gifts for them. They just get the basics of books, pajamas, slippers, and one toy. When we get to NY, that's a whole different story. My girls are the only grandchildren for the in-laws. 'Nuff said.

We had a mini cookie exchange at work on Monday. Let's just say I ate cookies, and not much else. My calories for the day consisted of cookies, and a protein shake for dinner.
For all you newbie bandsters who are gasping and shaking your head in shame and disbelief, please know I was perfect once too. Those days are over. I can't deprive myself 100% of the time. I need a normal life, and for me, normal includes treats.
I went to the gym today, and shoveled the driveway. I kept my calories in check. I figure this journey is one day at a time. There are days full of cookies and there are days full of exercise and water. I can live with that.

Well, the season finale of the Voice is on now so that's my cue to close. I hope you're all having a great night and staying warm in your part of the world.

G'night all!

Thursday, December 13, 2012

How is it Even Possible...

That it's Thursday all over again?

I really do mean well, and try to post during the week, but some how it turns out to be only on Thursdays that I have the time.

So, it's Ten Things Thursday all over again...

1. My oldest has strep throat again. It's been less than a month since she recovered from the last bout of strep. Remember when she got it, then me, then my husband?
Yeah, I'm forbidding my body to catch it this time!

2. I'm exhausted. I slept like a log last night but still needed a nap today. I put a movie on for the sick kiddo and went to take a quick snooze. I woke up an hour later! Man, I'm really gonna' be pissed if this is strep.

3. I didn't watch the whole benefit concert last night but saw The Stones and The Who. Anybody else feel super old watching those geezers on the stage? The music I grew up with is being sung by senior citizens now, and is considered 'classic'. Nice.

4. I have one more work day and then I'm off until January 2, 2013. How sweet is that!

5. The book club get together that we hosted went super well. We had 100% turn out, which I thought was cool, and everyone had a fantastic time. The hubby even joined us for a drink. He doesn't mind being the only guy in the room. I think this might turn out to be an annual thing.

6. I've read all of the Janet Evanovich number books, up to the most recent one. I'm currently # 367 on the wait list for that one! Why does she have to be so darn popular?

7. I'm getting excited for our trip back to NY for Christmas (minus the 13 hour road trip part). Aside from the typical Christmas stuff, I've got plans with my sister and best friend for lunch one day. There's a ladies night in the works too. I have to get in all my girl time since we won't be going home for summer vacation next year.

8. My husband went to the doctor for a full physical recently. He never goes to the doc, but had been getting some unusually high blood pressure readings and thought he better get checked out. The doc told him it would be a good idea to lose 10 pounds.
Wanna' know how much he lost in the first 3 days after that appointment? FOUR effing pounds people!
Yeah, I have a freaking lap band and can't lose 4 pounds in 3 days.
I hate men.
BUT, I must say I'm proud of him for taking the advice of his doctor seriously and moving in the right direction.

9. My work is doing a cookie exchange on Monday. I normally don't participate in such things but my boss made a big deal out of it. So, I'm making this healthy recipe from Chocolate Covered Katie (some of you follow her healthy dessert blog). Then I found out another of my co-workers is making a weight watchers cookie recipe. I'm so happy!
I love cookies, especially healthy cookies.

10. Many of you don't know this but I keep another blog. It's for my family and it's mostly about my kids. I started it years ago because we live out of state and away from all of our family. It's the best way to keep everyone in the loop about what's going on in our lives.
However, I haven't posted on that other blog in a long time because Blogger is telling me I've reached my limit for pictures and will have to start paying $ to increase my photo allowance.
I'm sharing this with you because you, my fellow bloggers, may want to look into this issue for yourselves. There are programs that you can use to compose your posts before putting them into blogger that will significantly compress your photo size, which should help. I just haven't had the time or patience to look into that yet.
So, if you tend to post lots of photos on Blogger, be warned that your time is limited!

Have a great night everyone!
Stay well.

Thursday, December 6, 2012


Here we go, 10 random things about my week. Thanks to Laura Belle who started this crazy Thursday tradition!

1. Right after I posted my last blog post about the constant puking, I got my period. That would completely explain it. One of these days I'll remember these things about my body from month to month.

2. We're all finished with our antibiotics now. Hoping we'll all stay healthy. Fingers crossed.

3. I just learned about "St. Nick Day". I'd never heard of that. Where I grew up Saint Nick was Santa Claus and he came on December 24. Apparently this other Nick dude comes on December 5th and leaves candy in the kids stockings. Living in Wisconsin sure is a whole different ballgame!

4. I'm hosting a little holiday get together in our new home on Saturday. It's our first time entertaining here and I'm pretty excited. It's just 6 ladies from my book club, but we're going to eat, drink and be merry!

5. I've pretty much finished my Christmas shopping except for my best friend. Isn't it awful that I have absolutely no idea what to get her? Awful!

6. This morning just as I was going to head to the elliptical, my 7 year old said "mom, aren't we going to have our cuddle time?". Well, there goes my cardio work out because I can't turn down cuddle time!

7. I love chocolate. And cookies. I'll never get down to 150 because of my inability to give up these things. I'm thinking I may be able to live with that because living without chocolate is just not possible for me.

8. My hands hurt. I'm a sign language interpreter. This is not good.

9/ I went grocery shopping today. I bought 8 loaves of bread. Now that I'm banded and can no longer eat bread, we're constantly running out. I never seem to notice when we're getting low because I don't the stuff. I think we'll be good for a while now.

10. I'm involved in a really good book right now so I'm going to sit in bed and read for an hour.
Nighty night!

Monday, December 3, 2012

On The Mend

It's Monday. The hubby and I are back to work and both kids are in school. It seems our little family is on the mend. We're all finishing up our antibiotics either today or tomorrow and we'll be happy to be done with that mess. I'm still hoping there will be no yeast infection for me as the door prize at the end of this. I'm taking my probiotics, so maybe that will help.

I'm still having trouble eating and keeping food down. I can't figure out if it's the antibiotics or not. I'm not having any upset stomach at all. It's the weirdest thing. I eat a small portion of food, chew the heck out of it, eat very slowly. Everything seems to go down just fine and then about an hour later, I'm in the bathroom throwing up.

Yesterday I stuck to full liquids all day until dinner. I had made spaghetti and meat balls. I served myself 2 medium meatballs with sauce (no spaghetti). I took the same amount of time to eat those 2 meatballs as my family took to eat their huge plates of pasta, salad, etc.
Didn't matter, it all came up an hour later. In fact this morning in the shower, I bent down to pick up the soap and another hunk of meatball came out! How could it still be sitting there in my pouch after sleeping all night? I don't get it.
So today, once again, I'm on liquids. Protein shake for breakfast, yogurt for lunch, oatmeal for dinner.
I told my husband I should just eat cookies. Cookies stay down all the time with no problem. I should just stick to the cookie diet!

I'm hoping once I'm off the antibiotics that my stomach will go back to normal and I can enjoy a decent meal with my family. That would be nice.

Other than that, I'm still keeping up with the exercise, staying away from most sweets, keeping calories in check, etc.
All is well over here.
And how is your Monday going?

Friday, November 30, 2012

Ten Things Thursday, A Smidge Late

I know it's early Friday morning so technically this can't be a "Ten Things Thursday" post. However, the sun isn't even up yet (and neither are my kids) so I'm taking advantage of this quiet time and I'm going to catch up by pretending it's still Thursday...

1. You remember I mentioned that my oldest daughter and myself both had Strep throat. Well, about 2 days later my husband also got it. This is a man who has only been sick ONCE in the 10 years I've known him. He took 2 days off from work (well, actually he just worked from home because he doesn't know how to take a sick day) and that hasn't happened EVER since I've known him.
I'm telling you, this strain of Strep is some nasty stuff. The sore throat isn't even the worst of it. It's the pure exhaustion that's the killer.

2. I'm still not back to eating normally yet. I'm not sure what it is. My throat isn't sore anymore so I can swallow solids, they just come back up on me a short time later. I stick with liquids or soft foods all day, then attempt to have some sort of normal dinner with my family, then spend the rest of the evening in the bathroom throwing up said dinner. I'm not sure if it's the medication or just the fact that I'm still recovering from this yucky illness, but it's no freaking fun!

3. Because of the inability to eat much food, I have lost about 5 pounds. I like the new number on the scale but I'm trying not to get too attached to it because once I'm fully recovered and able to eat again, I'm sure that number will go back up. It is kinda' nice to have a little buffer just before the holidays though.

4. Since being on the antibiotics, I can't get enough water. It's like I just crossed the Mojave dessert on foot. Is that a side effect? I've been on this medication many times in my life and I don't ever remember this feeling of pure dehydration! Not a bad side effect to have. At least I'm getting all my water in every day.

5. I started taking a probiotic about a week ago. I can tell you that I feel a ton better in the tummy department. I was constantly dealing with bloating and discomfort. That seems to all be gone now. I can sum this up for you in two very important words. No Gas! My husband is a very happy man these days.

6. I just went downstairs and did 20 minutes on the eliptical. Now I'm a big sweaty mess. That's not normal for me. This strep is kicking my ass!

7. My 5 year old lost her first tooth Wednesday night. It's so cute to see the pure excitement of a child when these little things happen.

8. My 7 year old wakes up every day asking if we got any snow. It's going to be 62 degrees here on Monday so the answer to her question will be no for at least the foreseeable future. Poor kid.

9. I'm spending the day at home today cleaning, disinfecting, and organizing. I might even wrap some Christmas presents. I'm actually excited about this. I have issues!

10. Well, I'm starving now. Probably from not getting any dinner! Time to go make the protein shake.

Have a fantastic day people!

Monday, November 26, 2012

Keep Away From the Snacks!

First, a quick update on the strep throat situation. Daughter #1 is feeling great and went back to school today.
I'm feeling better too. Not 100% of course but way better than yesterday when I felt like I tried to swallow a golf ball and it got lodged in my throat.
I'm fond of antibiotics.

Since I couldn't go to work today, lest I infect all of my lovely co-workers, I've had a little time on my hands. I decided to be proactive and come up with a solution to my urge to steal snacks from my children. I've mentioned before that both of my kids have 2 snacks a day at school, which I have to send in. It's hard having all those carbs staring me in the face day in and day out.
So today (after washing my hands of course) I packaged them all up in individual serving size portions. Actually each bag contains 1/2 of a portion because I think 22 pretzels is too much for a small child.
Here's my handiwork...

This solves 2 problems really. First, every day I find myself scrambling around the kitchen trying to figure out what to pack for lunches and snacks. I like to offer a variety so they're not having the same thing for morning and afternoon snacks. I know it seems simple, but it drives me crazy.
The other thing is that it obviously keeps me from eating out of the big bag and not knowing when to stop. If I have a serious urge to eat some carbs, at least they're portioned out for me and hopefully I'd stop at just one bag.

And before I get hate mail from the environmentalists out there who don't like my plastic baggies, please know my kids bring them back home and I do reuse them many times. Don't hate me.

And before I forget, I should tell you that Phil has opened up and is allowing small amounts of real food through today. I am totally hydrated and that's all I asked for!

Have a great day everyone.

Sunday, November 25, 2012

Phil Doesn't Like Strep Throat

The day before Thanksgiving my older daughter started to say she wasn't feeling well. By Thanksgiving dinner she was feeling the major Yuck, and had a fever. On Friday we took her to the doc and sure enough, she had strep throat.
Funny thing is she hardly complained about her throat, but said she had a headache and tummy ache, and wanted to sleep.
The poor honey didn't get to enjoy the holiday or the visit from the grand folks.

Fast forward to last night. I woke up at 2am. with a pretty significant sore throat and headache. The red flag went up, and I knew right away it had gotten me too. I had strep many times as a kid. I know what it feels like.
I took myself to urgent care today and sure enough, without a doubt, it's strep.

Needless to day Phil (the band) is pissed. He doesn't like any changes in the body and reacts poorly to these things.
I can't eat. It's not because of the sore throat (which of course is pretty sore), but it's because Phil has pretty much gone on protest and slammed shut. In fact right now I'm trying to choke down some watered down orange juice and it's very slow going.

I remember 3 years ago, pre-band, I had strep. I can remember very clearly sitting at the kitchen table trying to eat my cereal and saying it felt like I was swallowing shards of glass. Do you know what I did? I kept on eating! I can't even explain how painful it was, and I kept on eating. That my friends, is a woman who suffers from obesity if I ever saw one.
Well, this time, thanks to Phil that won't be happening. Right now I just want to stay hydrated, which will be a tough task.

On a more positive note, Thanksgiving dinner here was very nice. I always host the hubby's family so I know first hand what's going in the food. I make mashed potatoes the healthy way so I don't have to feel guilty for having some. I made individual sugar free chocolate pudding pies for dessert, and they were awesome.
I had a little portion of all my favorites, and stopped at that. No weight gain for me.

I hope you all had a wonderful weekend, and stay healthy!

Monday, November 19, 2012

Not an effing Carb, and other ramblings

I've mentioned it before, I'm a carbaholic.

Unfortunately I have to keep snacks in the house for my kids. They are at school for 8 hours a day so we have to send them with 2 snacks per day, which means there's always graham crackers or pretzels, or some sort of carby snack for them to take. I try to stay away from them, but as soon as I allow myself a taste, I'm off the cliff. I know what an alcoholic feels like. I can't have one nibble (or sip for the alcoholic), becasue once I do, it's all over. One portion of veggie straws turns into a handful of rice cakes, which turns into a few M&M's, then it's cereal for dinner.

I can't take it any more! I fall off the wagon, then I hate myself for being weak, then I feel like a fatty again. It's a vicious cycle! The self loathing has to stop.

So for today, tomorrow and Wednesday I'm off the carbs completely. I know on Thanksgiving I'll have a small portion of stuffing and mashed potatoes (home made with no butter), so I'm saving up.
I know I can do better. I know I can feel better and look better. I need to step up and take control.

In other news, hubby and I had to fill out a health assessment for the insurance company at his job. Personally, I think the health insurance coverage sucks. They pretty much don't pay for anything unless you sever a limb, but that's besides the point.
We each had to fill out a lengthy questionnaire about our health and habits. I lied about 2 things.
First I shaved 5 pounds off my actual weight. I had to laugh becasue the old me would have taken off at least 25-30 pounds!
Also, for the first time ever I wasn't lying about my weight because I was ashamed of the number. I actually took the 5 pounds off becasue I hate those medical charts that still consider me overweight but don't take into consideration all the other factors of my life. Their charts don't care that I exercise harder than anyone I know. They don't know that I lift weights, run, kick ass in kick boxing, and sweat daily. So I feel justified in my 5 pound alteration for this purpose.

The other question that I might have been less than truthful about was this "Do you suffer from chronic pain?". I automatically answered no. Then I thought about it. I have back and hip pain every day. Yup, I deal with it and go on with life, but I have pain every day. It's worse when I work (sitting in a chair all day aggravates it), but it's always there. That question prompted me to call my chiropractor and try to get to the bottom of this. Is it too late to ask for a new hip for Christmas?

Because I scored so high on the assessment for leading a healthy lifestyle, they're sending me a $75 gift cert. for my favorite store. Maybe I don't hate them as much as I thought I did!

One more thing...
Why do we women expect or want things for our own bodies that are unachieveable?
We have a new fitness director at the gym. She's seriously a size 0, if that. She probably has to belt her size 0 jeans so they don't fall off her teeny tiny hips. She likely has 2% body fat. And guess what? Her thighs touch. Yup, we all want thighs that don't rub together, but this miniature fitness freak has thighs that rub together. So, my thought for today? Get over it and learn to love your body! We're never going to have six pack abs, arms that don't jiggle, and thighs that don't touch. Let's move on, shall we?

Have a great day people!

Monday, November 12, 2012

Back Home, and Exhausted!

I went out of town for a work conference. I left way early Friday morning and got back Sunday afternoon.
I got to spend TWO whole nights in a hotel by myself and I must admit, it was pretty heavenly.

So, how did I do?


I did manage to get up and go to the gym on one of the two mornings. The first day I totally overslept and didn't make it.


On day one I was perfect with my food. I brought my lunch from home, which was hummus, cucumbers, grapes, and a yogurt.
For dinner I got a Greek salad with chicken and was only able to eat half.

On day two lunch was provided. It was supposed to be a make your own sandwich thing, but I just had the meat and cheese, and of course skipped the bread. However, I did have the dessert. I have NO willpower when it comes to chocolate. None! It was so darn good I dare say it was worth it.
For dinner I had Panera soup and couldn't even finish the whole bowl. Not bad.

Sunday morning I had a ready-to-drink protein shake for breakfast (making up for the dessert!). Then on the morning break I made some instant oatmeal.
I had a protein bar for the ride home.

Overall not too shabby, except for the yummy dessert. Could have been totally worse!

Now that I'm home, I'm completely exhausted.
Last night I went to bed at 8pm. No joke. I slept until 6:00 this morning. That's a lot of sleep! It's 8:30 right now and I'm fighting to keep my eyes open.
Even though the conference was great, I guess it was tiring to sit in so many seminars for hours and hours. I didn't even go out drinking like so many of the other ladies did! I'm such a wimp.

By some miracle I didn't gain any weight while away AND I got my TOM today. Well, that's probably also part of why I'm so tired.

Hoping for another great night of sleep tonight and back to the gym tomorrow morning.
G'night all!

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Well Hello there Thursday! My favorite day of the week because it allows me to catch up with the blogging community by telling you all 10 random things going on in my life this week.
Here goes...

1. I'm  going to a conference tomorrow morning and will be gone for 2 1/2 days. You know I LOVE my family with all my heart and then some, but I have to admit, I'm pretty excited to be going to a hotel ALL BY MYSELF for 2 nights.
Just me, my pajamas, a queen size bed, and some Netflix. I am very easy to please.

2. I received an email from the conference people saying breakfast will be provided on both days, and lunch will be provided on Saturday. I'm still being cautious and prepared because knowing my luck, breakfast will be bagels and donuts, and I'll be out of luck. I'd rather be safe than sorry so here's my secret stash that I'll be bringing, along with some other essentials...

I figure the ready to drink protein shakes will save me if breakfast is a no-go. The protein bars, mints and water will be in my large purse in case I need something while in all day workshops. The oatmeal likely won't be eaten but it's an emergency back up plan in case I have a stuck episode or get super tight and can't eat. It happens occasionally and I want to be prepared for the worst case.
The diet hot chocolate is my evening treat while all ALONE in my hotel room watching movies (all by myself). The vitamin holder...self explanatory.

3. I mentioned to the hubby that my running shoes really didn't hold up as well as I thought they should, and I already need a new pair. 3 days later these arrived on my door step.

Yes, I love that man!
They fit great and are a much better brand than my previous running shoes, so I think they'll last longer.
Now if I just had the courage to run in the cold, I'd be all set.

4. I grew up in the city, so I'm pretty sure I'll never get used to seeing this out my window...

Yup, that's a real deer. She just walked into the front yard and started munching on berries. Just a normal happening in our neighborhood. I'll still never get used to it or take it for granted. I love the country!

5. We're going out to dinner tonight as a family. We don't often go out but hubby thought it would be a nice treat since I'm leaving in the morning. I'm sure he knew I really didn't want to cook! It's Thai food tonight and there's a buffet for the kiddos, so we'll all be happy.

6. I just packed my suitcase. I'm really not a vain person but I have to admit, I had my 3 outfits all picked out, pairing cute sweaters, jeans and boots. Then I looked at the weather. It's actually going to be in the 60's this weekend! I'm glad for the nice weather but darn it I really wanted to look all cute and cozy in my sweaters.

7. My 5 year old has regressed to bed wetting. She had stopped having accidents once we took milk away at dinner time, but now the problem is back. She really doesn't drink anything from the time she comes home from school until bed time (maybe a sip, but nothing substantial). Hubby and I take turns waking up in the middle of the night to take her to the bathroom. Nothing's working. I'm at a loss for what to do next. Any of you moms out there have experience with this and have some advice?
For the record we have a conference next week with her teacher so I will ask if there's anything upsetting her at school that could be causing this.

8. I'm pretty sure I'm giving up on my yoga class. It's actually a yoga/pilates combo. I had been taking the class once a week, thinking it was a good idea since all my other exercise is high impact. I get through the entire class with no problem, but later in the day and into the night I'm in considerable pain with my back. I gave it a few weeks and monitored my progress, thinking things would get better, but they haven't. Now I just try to find excuses not to go because I know I'll be in pain later.
So I've decided to go back to body pump on those days. Funny how lifting weights for an hour doesn't bother my back at all, but doing yoga darn near kills me!

9. I got a new VitaMix machine. My old one was starting to leak a little. It was still functional but the company allowed me to either send it back for a repair, which takes 6 weeks, or trade up for a new one and pay the difference. We opted for the new one. I use it every day, sometimes more. I didn't like to have to spend the money but I love that darn machine! This time I got the red one. I should have taken a pic for you because it's so pretty.

10. Almost time to get the kiddos off the bus so I'm outta' here.
I hope you are having a fantastic day today!

Thursday, November 1, 2012

My Band Check-Up, TTT Style

It's Thursday so I'll tell you about my Upper-GI and band doctor visit with a Ten Things Thursday post!

1. I had my Upper-GI yesterday morning, EARLY. I had no problem with the fasting, which I thought was going to be my biggest issue. What was really bothering me was not drinking water. I was so thirsty by the time they brought me back I was sure I was even going to enjoy drinking the Barium. Um, no. That stuff is nasty, no matter how thirsty you are!

2. The techs were very nice but had me thinking there was something seriously wrong by the way they were talking to me and asking me about my band. I was sure they knew something they weren't saying.

3. When I got out of there I still had almost 2 hours before my doc. appt. so I headed over to my favorite store. Trader Joe's! We're supposed to be getting one here soon but they haven't opened yet. I stocked up on tons of our favorites and smiled the whole way through the store like I was on happy pills.

4. At that point I was on my second bottle of water because the radiology tech. told me to drink lots. She got a serious look on her face and said "The Barium is very constipating. It will set in there like cement".
Alrighty then, we don't need any help in that department since constipation is already a regular part of my week. I have bricks forming in my colon without Barium, thank you very much.

5. After my giddy shopping spree, I drove by my old house, and then it was on to see Dr. Hottie and his awesome staff. Everyone was so excited to see me and the receptionist pulled out my 'before' pic to give me, now that I've been on maintenance for a year. Funny, I brought one of my own to show her too! We got a few good laughs and kept saying "never again, never again!".

6. Dr. Hotness came in and said "your band is beautiful! Everything is perfect and in its place. I can see that you do have some restriction, but not too much".
We went over how things have been going for the past 6 months. I told him about the irritation I had a couple of times, but that now I could eat a horse and not feel full. He agreed that I have a sensitive system and as long as I know the warning signs, and what to do when it happens again, he would give me a teeny, tiny fill.

7. When he was about to put the fill in, the nurse walked in the room while I had my shirt up. My port sticks out like an alien baby head protruding from my rib cage. She sarcastically said "Now Doctor, I'm not sure, but are you going to be able to find the port?". Ha! You could find my port even while I'm fully clothed it sticks out so far! I got .25 put in. Easy Peasy.
They both raved at how well I've done and how proud they are. Doc said I've come farther than they expected and congratulated me. All good stuff.

8. After the appt. I went to my old hair dresser for an awesome hair cut. No more shaggy dog here!
Then I met some friends from the old neighborhood for lunch. It was so nice to sit and chat. I had tomato soup and it went down just fine. When I left I ordered a large decaf coffee and sipped that on the long car ride home. I was still thinking about the constipation issue with the barium.

9. All the way home I started to develop the headache from hell. It just kept getting worse and worse. I've had bad headaches before but I've never felt anything like this. I swear it was like my head was in a vice and was ready to explode. My hubby looked up Barium Swallow side effects to see if headache was one of them, and nothing. Stomach problems, yes. Headache, no. I couldn't figure out what was wrong but I was pretty sure I was going to be the first person to die from and exploding head. I went to bed at 8pm. because I couldn't stand it anymore. I looked on line today and guess what? The headache is from the exposure to radiation. I read a few articles and posts from radiologists who all said that's why people get headaches after the Barium test. Nice that nobody told me that!

10. Stomach problems? Did someone say stomach problems?
Let me tell you, I have enough gas to fuel a jet! It started late last night and has not stopped since. It's painful, and smells like a rat crawled up into my colon, died, and is now slowly rotting in there.
My kids have started to yell "Take cover" every time I'm near. My hubby just brought me some air freshener and set it next to me. Rancid doesn't even come close to describing what's going on here.
Let's just say my ass is on fire.
Maybe the radiology tech should have just said "Be warned, your ass will be on fire for a day or two after this test". That would have been more accurate.

So, that's it for tonight people. Now I need to go hide somewhere that I can be stinky all by myself.
Have a good night!

Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Trying to Catch Up, Random Style

I know I've been bad about keeping up with the blog lately.
I'm trying to get myself on a routine with work, the gym, house work, and volunteering at the school. There are never enough hours in the day, right?!

So, today my oldest daughter has some sort of tummy trouble and had to stay home from school. I was supposed to work but am staying home with her. Hubby already adjusted his work schedule to accommodate my early doctor appt. tomorrow, so I figured I better let him get as much work done today as possible.

I have my Upper-GI scheduled at 8:30am. tomorrow. It's at least a 2 hour drive so I'm leaving before dawn. On an empty stomach. This does not make me happy. However, I will be happy when the doc puts all my fears to rest and tells me my band is just fine.
I'm bringing a protein drink and grapes for after the test. I'm sure I'll survive!

I need a fill.
I had a hefty shake at 8am. today and by 10am. I was trolling the pantry for something to snack on. As long as all goes well with the test I'll ask for a conservative fill. It's a tough spot to be in. I'm terrified of getting too much and having problems again like I did before, but I don't like feeling out of control in the food department either. I'm hoping a tiny fill will help take the edge off. This is Bandster hell. I remember it well.

All my family on the East coast is OK after the storm yesterday. Today we're getting wicked wind in our area. Remnants of the outskirts of the hurricane. This is some crazy stuff!

I've noticed that any time I lose a couple pounds, my neck starts to look saggy and wrinkly. What's up with that?! I have a huge ass that could stand to lose a pound or two, but No, I just lose it in my already skinny neck!? So, so not fair.
I told my hubby if I start to have an old lady looking neck, I'm having a lift.

I can't sleep at night lately. I fall asleep fine, but wake up a couple hours later and lay there wide awake for hours. Sometimes I get up and read or go on the internet, but mostly I just lay there frustrated and angry that I can't sleep. I have no idea why.

My 7 year old had her annual physical last week. She's in the 90th percentile for weight (*sigh*) and has high cholesterol. The only reason they checked the cholesterol is because of our very strong family history on both sides. Sure enough, she inherited that lovely gene. This is a kid who has never so much as eaten a french fry in her life. Never had a fast food meal and eats no meat! I can't imagine how high it would be if we were the type of family who ate out regularly or ate red meat and fried foods. Poor kid. Something she'll have to deal with for the rest of her life most likely.

Well, that's it for now. I have to go put away a ton of laundry and mop my floors. If I have to stay home today, I should get some stuff done.

Have a great one!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Gotta' love Thursday!
Ten random things to share with you...

1. My husband has been gone for 12 days, and he's coming home tonight. I have missed that man!

2. I'm baking no sugar oatmeal cookies for my non-sweet eating man right now. Sure hope he likes them.

3. The kids are off from school today and tomorrow. I don't even know why. Some administrative days or something like that.

4. Kids wanted to carve pumpkins today. Can you guess who ended up doing ALL the digging and carving?

5. I've committed to doing 30 minutes on the elliptical machine here at home every day this week. That means no matter what other exercise I've got going on at the gym, I have to start my day on that machine of torture first. I've done it every day so far and have shocked even ME!

6. My kids are both getting flu shots tomorrow, and the younger one needs some blood work done. I know it's the wrong thing to do but we have bribed them with a promise of ice cream after the appt. if they're brave and do well! *sigh*

7. My 5 1/2 year old is apparently off the charts smart. We have a parent teacher conference coming up and we need to talk about the 'gifted and talented' program for her. I'm proud but also sad. She is ahead of her older sister academically and I know it affects the big sis. How do I deal with that?!

8. Yesterday we had 72 degrees and sunny here in Wisconsin. Tomorrow will be 42 degrees and sunny. Nothing like a 30 degree temp. drop!

9. It's 4pm. and I haven't even showered yet!

10. I've been off work while hubby has been out of the country. I've liked this time off. It's gonna' be really hard to go back, even though I love my job!

That's it for now folks. Gotta' go get ready for my honey to arrive!
Have a great night.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Just Like Weight Watchers, Only Different

I'm doing Speck's fall weight loss challenge. It's my first ever challenge. I thought it would be a good way to encourage me to get back to measuring and logging my food. I've needed a good kick in the pants for a while now.
The challenge has helped me in that department. I made sure to keep track of my calories all week. I exercised even more than normal. I made sure to get in all my fluids every day.

But there's something else the challenge has done to me that I didn't see coming.

Just like back in my Weight Watcher days, I used the weigh in day as my day to 'cheat'. And by cheat, of course I mean eat a load of crap all day as soon as the weigh in is over. Why did I do that? Ahhhh, just like old times.
Today, once the weigh in was over, I ate some of my daughter's candy corn. I don't even like candy corn!
Then I went to the grocery store and while shopping, I bought a package of sugar free cookies and ate 1/3 of the package while walking the store. At least they were the sugar free variety, but really? Why did I do that? Because it was weigh in day. Just like back in my WW days. I can remember leaving my Saturday morning meeting and going to the grocery store. My first stop was the coffee counter where I would get my cup of coffee and a bagel or donut to go with it. Then for the rest of the day I would eat whatever I wanted. My 'reward' for being good all week. Ha, more like undoing all my hard work!

So, even knowing what I know now, I'm sticking with the challenge. I'm not a quitter. I'll just try to do better at not sabotaging myself every Wednesday after the weigh in. I hope that recognizing the problem is a step in the right direction.

And in case you're wondering, I was up .2 pounds this week. Yeah, that totally sucks, but I can deal with it.

And, in case you didn't know, sugar free products are very very VERY harsh on the digestive system. Let's just say my entire house smells like ass right now, and my kids don't want to be near me.

OK, on that note, I'm going to bed before I eat anything else!
G'night all.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

I Think I Figured it Out

First let me start by saying I am completely back to normal. After 6 days of full liquids, I tried some solids yesterday and everything went fine. Too fine in fact. Once I saw that I could eat without pain, all bets were off. I was like a refugee from a famine stricken country. Once I started, I couldn't stop. I grazed all day long.

And OF COURSE I immediately gained back a pound of what I lost.

I swore today would be different. That I would be over the initial excitement of being able to eat and would be more in control. Yeah. That was a nice thought. The day started out OK, but ended with a big carb fest.
And I'm doing a weight loss challenge, so this trend must stop now!

So, on to the point of this post. I think I figured out what was wrong with my band and why I had all that irritation last week.
Here's what happened...

Saturday night I took 2 Advil before bed for back pain. When I woke up Sunday morning I felt all tight and irritated so I didn't eat breakfast but I did have a cup of coffee. Even decaf coffee can irritate the stomach because it's so acidic. It was after that when I realized I couldn't eat anything, and even my protein shake was going down super slow.

So, I'm pretty sure that the combination of the late night Advil and the early morning coffee on an empty stomach caused irritation on top of irritation.

Thankfully this time I was smart enough to not push the issue and went on liquids right away. That along with the acid reducer has brought me back to normal.

I'm very happy I'm no longer having any pain or tightness and things are looking up. However, I'm not happy that I'm hungry ALL THE TIME. I only have 3CC in my band which is about what I got way back at my first fill. I know that's not much and I guess if all goes well and there's no problems with the Upper GI, I might ask for a tiny fill.
However, over the past 2 years I've been too tight more often than not. I have a very sensitive system. Catch 22 situation here.
My appointment isn't for another week so I guess I'll just wait and see how it goes.

So there you have it folks. Advil and coffee do not mix well with a Lap Band!

Have a great night.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Ten Things Thursday

Thanks Laura Belle for my favorite day of the week!

1. Yesterday afternoon was just gorgeous. The best weather we've had for quite a while. I spent two full hours cleaning out the garage and trying to organize all our stuff. It felt good to get it done. Two hours after I stopped working it turned cold and rainy and hasn't stopped since! So glad I didn't procrastinate that project.

2. I have not watched any TV since my husband went away on business.
Our primary family/TV room is in the basement. We like to call it 'The Lower Level". It's a nice finished off area with carpet, a bathroom and even a bar. So why is it then that while my husband is not here I will NOT go down there to watch TV.
I'm pretty sure it's because no matter how nice it is, it's still a basement. No matter what I tell my kids, there just might be monsters in real life and I'm not going to be the one to find one down there! Needless to say I've been watching a lot of Netflix on the laptop while he's been away.

3. My back is killing me and I'm not sure if it's because of the garage cleaning or lifting weights in body pump. Advil is my friend.

4. Things are slowly but surely calming down with Phil. I realized this morning that my water was going down just fine, and not gurgling. I still took it easy and slowly sipped my protein shake all morning. I had a ton of errands to run so I brought a yogurt with me and ate it while I waited for my oil change. No problem with that.
I can definitely feel everything I eat or drink, so I'm not ready to try anything solid yet. Maybe soon though because I'm feeling better with each passing day.
I just wish I knew what the heck caused this and what's going on!

5. My friend who is a nurse suggested I try taking an over the counter acid reducer (like Prilosec) for a couple days to see if that helps my situation at all. I don't know why I hadn't thought of that (maybe because my heartburn has been so mild) but I'm glad I took her advice. I can't tell you how much better I feel after taking only one dose!

6. I discovered a low fat frozen yogurt bar by 'Kemps' (I think they're a Wisconsin dairy company?) and holy mother of God, are they awesome! 110 calories and so freakin' yummy. I bought them out of desperation because of this liquid diet. I needed something that resembled real food, that wouldn't get stuck.
I'd show you a picture but I ate them all in 4 days! Don't judge. I needed food.

7. I started the fall weight loss challege with Speck this week. My official starting weight is 161.8. That's pretty cool because I had crept up to a very scary 166 before my band issues. I think 166 is my 'freak out' weight. I just couldn't say no to birthday cake and ice cream, and any and all baked goods. Now that I can't eat food, I'm back down to my 'normal' zone. I'm not happy that I can't eat, but I am happy that I've shed the extra unwanted pounds.

8. For anyone reading this who is about to leave me a comment telling me to get to my doctor ASAP and find out what's going on with my band, I have an appointment. Not to worry. Getting an Upper GI and everything. We will find out once and for all what's going on in there and why food is not my friend.

9. I did some research yesterday on the gastric sleeve and it scared me. I had NO IDEA until yesterday that they actually cut out half of your stomach. Holy cow! I'm just thinking worst case scenario here in case I get bad news after the Upper GI. Let's hope I'm fine and won't even have to go down that road.

10. I'm telling myself that I'm going to do two fitness classes back to back tomorrow. Kick boxing is first, then body pump. Let's see how this goes!

That's it for tonight my dears.
Have a great night!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Update on Phil

Well I have an update on the band situation. Here goes...

The good News:

  • I'm still on liquids. Fluids are going down just fine.
  • The pain I was having yesterday is just about gone. Taking a deep breath no longer hurts.
  • I've lost 4 pounds in 2 days which brings me back to where I was before birthday dinners and fall baking started. Not exactly the way I wanted to lose it, but whatever.
  • Yesterday I had 2 protein shakes, a yogurt and a diet hot chocolate.
  • Tonight I'm going to try some runny mashed potatoes, fingers crossed!

The Bad News:

  • I'm exhausted. I'm taking my vitamins and getting in plenty of protein each day but I'm darn tired. I think it's carb withdrawl.
  • I had a whole list of projects to do around the house this week and I'm not getting them done. I nap instead.
  • The human desire to chew is a very strong one. I haven't chewed ANYTHING in two days and I hate it.
  • I can still feel and hear everything I drink gurgling down through my stoma. Very weird. The good news is it's going down. The bad news is it's still gurgling down very slowly and I don't know why.
  • I'm terrified to try to eat anything that requires chewing. I'm afraid of having to PB/throw up and causing more damage. 
  • Most soft foods are dairy based. Pudding, yogurt, cottage cheese, etc. I'm lactose intolerant. You get the picture. I'm going to buy stock in Lactase pills!
I think that's it for today. I seriously need another nap. Hoping to have more news for you tomorrow. I think I'm past the worst of it.

Have a great night!

Monday, October 15, 2012

Somethin' Ain't Right!

I'm not sure what's going on with Phil (the band) but something's wrong in there. I'm so glad I finally decided to make the appointment for an upper GI and to meet with my surgeon. Now I'm just wishing the appointment was sooner!

I can't quite figure out what happened. I didn't have a stuck episode or PB, but yesterday when I woke up I felt super tight with mild heart burn. I didn't even attempt my protein shake for several hours and when I did, it was very slow going, with some discomfort. I drank half of it and saved the other half for lunch.

I remember last year when this happened and I had to go in for a major un-fill, I was seriously dehydrated. This time I refuse to let that happen. I'm pushing liquids all day long.

The other thing I'm doing differently is I'm not even trying to eat solids. Last year I kept testing to see if I could,which didn't work, then would cause throwing up, and in turn more irritation. I never gave the inflammation a chance to go down and heal. Believe me, I've learned my lesson.

What scares me is the discomfort, which is bordering on pain. I haven't had that before. Tightness, yes. Heartburn, yes. But this is different. I'm trying not to be paranoid (I've convinced myself before that the band had slipped when it had not), but in the back of my mind I'm trying to prepare myself for the worst.

My biggest concern is that my health insurance sucks even more than the one I had back when I was banded. I really don't want to have to self pay for a revision and I know damn well I can't maintain my weight loss without something in place. OK, let's not go there yet, right?

I just wanted to share with you all because I like to put it all out there...the good, the bad, and the ugly. I don't hold back.

So, my appointment isn't until the 31st. If need be, I can move it up. I'm hoping a couple days of liquids will straighten things out and I won't have to.

I'll keep you posted!

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Just Some Randomness

I haven't posted in a while but for good reason. My big girl turned 7 yesterday and it's been one big party all week!
The grand folks flew in on Wednesday. I picked them up from the airport and we went to the school to surprise the kids. They were over the moon.
Grand folks and I also went and had lunch with the birthday girl at school on Friday (another surprise) and brought in special treats for the class. She felt like a princess all day!

Friday night was the birthday party. We normally would have had it on a Saturday afternoon but the birthday girl refused to have a party without her Daddy, who wouldn't be around on Saturday. More on that in a minute.
So I had 8 kindergarten and first graders dressed as princesses running around the house Friday night, but it was a huge hit. We had a fancy tea party with real tea cups and pink cupcakes. So cute.

Then this morning the hubs had to hop a plane to Hong Kong. His company is sending him to some electronics show there for 2 days. Then he gets to head over to mainland China for 9 days after that. They do business with many factories over there so twice a year they go to meet with vendors and employees, etc.

Did you know it takes 14 hours to fly from Chicago to Hong Kong?
In the course of that 14 hours I will have taken my kids to swim lessons, out to lunch, to a movie, come back home, had dinner, watched TV, put the kids to bed, watched some more TV, read a little, and gone to bed myself, and he's STILL ON THAT PLANE! Total craziness.
I don't think I'll be joining him on one of his trips any time soon. Maybe when the girls are older.

In other news...I signed up for Speck's fall weight loss challenge. I've never done a challenge before but I think this just might be what I need to get me motivated. I've totally fallen off the counting calories and tracking my food wagon. I need to get back on if I don't want to lose all control.
So, here's to the weight falling off for the fall challenge!

On that note, I'm heading to bed so I can be up bright and early to take the in-laws back to the airport tomorrow.

Have a good one!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Ten Things Thursday

Thanks to Laura Belle for coming up with this because it's my favorite blogging day of the week!

1. I went for a 3 mile walk today. I was headed for a 2 miler but was chased by 2 dogs (they were wagging tails so I didn't freak too much) and then had a run in with another dog who was none too friendly and was growling and barking from his front yard. I had no desire to do the round trip and have a repeat performance, so I went the long way around the neighborhood (pepper spray in hand).

2. I'm having a lunch date with my hubby today. We've been trying to do this once a week since the kids started back at school but this is only the 3rd time it's actually worked for our schedules. Wanna' know where he's taking me? WalMart. Yup, they have a Subway and my man loves his Subway! I'll be bringing soup because there's nothing there I can eat. We're so romantic, I can't stand it.

3. Hubby has a friend at work who moonlights as a photographer. She came over last night and took about 250 pictures of us and the kids. I had less than 24 hour notice that this was going to happen. I was almost ready to shank the husband for doing this to me but since he is leaving for China and won't be back until all the fall colors are gone, I totally understand his urgency to get it done. We got some good ones.
Since I'm anonymous on here I can't share them with you but here's a cute one of the kids being goofy running through the yard...

4. I want to eat frosting straight from the can. Some things never change.

5. While at work last week my new boss mentioned in conversation that she's lost about 70 pounds. I congratulated her and told her I know first hand how hard that is to do. Then yesterday we had the opportunity to work together for about an hour so I asked "So, how did you lose so much weight?". Her response..."Well, about 4 years ago I got the Lap Band".
Whaaaat?! Get the heck out!
So, for the first time EVER since being banded, I told. I told her I had the band too and that I had pretty much kept it a secret this whole time. It was so weird to tell someone! I emailed her later and told her how nice it was to have a fellow Bandster right here, and how I'm so glad we found each other. Cool.

6. The railroad crossing in our town was recently deemed an approved "Quiet Zone" meaning the train conductor no longer has to lay on the horn at the intersection because we've been safety inspected (we have flashing red lights and everything!). So Why oh WHY was I awakened at 1am. and 2am. to the sound of a train whistle blowing NON STOP for several minutes at a time? I feel so bad for the people who live right by the tracks. I am not a happy camper today.

7. My first born turns 7 next week and I'm in shock. Or denial. She wants a Princess birthday party (again) and even though my husband tried to talk her out of it, I'm secretly happy that she's still into the Princess thing because I know very soon it's going to be all Justin Beiber and back talking, and I'm so not ready for that.

8. I've mentioned before that fall is my favorite time of year. I never take the colors for granted and enjoy every minute of it. Our front yard tree is shedding leaves so fast and any minute now it's all going to be gone. So, after my walk this morning, I took some pictures...

9. Surgeons office called this morning. Looks like they'll be able to get me in for the UpperGI and my follow up appt. on the same day. I've decided that if everything looks good with the band, then I'll get a small fill. I know I'm able to eat way more than I should and I would like to lose 10 more pounds. So, provided there's no slip or other issues (everything feels fine now), then I'll go ahead with a tiny fill. This will be my last appt. with the surgeon since we're 2 hours away now.I'll have to find someone local now.

10. I need to go shower to get ready for my hot date with the hubby. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend. Get out there and enjoy the colors!

Friday, September 28, 2012

Fifty Things Friday

OK, not really. I wouldn't bore you with 50 random things about my life this week but I did skip Ten Things Thursday yesterday. I'd say 90% of my blogging friends are in Chicago right, now so the chances of anyone reading or commenting on my posts this weekend are pretty slim.
BUT, it just doesn't feel right not to blog, so here goes... some randomness.

  • I just baked about 100 cookies for the bake sale/lemonade stand tomorrow. Would you ask an alcoholic to watch over your liquor cabinet or tend to your bar? Then why the hell is the food and sugar addict baking cookies for a damn bake sale. Seriously, how do I get myself into this crap!

  • I made REAL chocolate chip cookies and REAL sugar cookies. I'm talking real butter, white flour, white sugar, the whole shebang. That hasn't happened in our house in many, MANY moons.

  • I just found out that I don't need to bring a table for the lemonade stand because I'm being given a golf cart and can just drive around from hole to hole to sell the goods! How freaking cool is that? I've never been on a golf course or cart. I'm not sure the manager knows what he's doing by trusting me with a motorized vehicle on his course.

  • My kids decided to donate half of our profits to the people of the Lakota Sioux tribe in South Dakota. They are the poorest Indian Reservation in the entire country and have an 85% unemployment rate. 65% of their people live below the poverty line. A Lakota can expect to live to about the ripe old age of 50. That's worse than any third world country, right here in America.

  • This is what happens when you gather up a group of people and force them to live on a piece of worthless land out in the middle of nowhere. No commerce, no stores, no money. My heart aches for them.

  • Today I feel fat and cranky. Not sure what's up with that but let's just blame it on hormones. Maybe I need a damn cookie!

  • I did body pump yesterday and kick boxing this morning. My legs are killing me right now. I'm pretty sure I'll need a wheel chair by morning.

  • My aforementioned exercise will in no way make up for the 3 cookies I ate while preparing for tomorrow's bake sale. I'm pretty sure I will not be getting on the scale tomorrow morning.

  • I am not an elegant baker. I am covered in flour and sugar. I could never have my own TV show. I'm just a big mess.

  • It's almost 4:00 and the kids will be home from school soon. I need to clean up this cookie making mess and try to take a 10 min. snooze. My youngest is a bear to deal with in the afternoons so I need to be fully prepared.
Have a great weekend everyone!

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

No Work Out Wednesday

I noticed a lot of you bloggers post about your work out on Wednesdays. Not me. Not today.
Wednesday is normally my day 'off' from the gym but I do Insanity early in the morning with the hubs before he goes to work.
However, last night I was up twice with the kids. Once for a trip to the potty. Yes, I'm thankful she didn't pee in her bed this time, but I really wish I could have a night of uninterrupted sleep!
The second time was for the older kiddo who had a nightmare.

So, no work out for me, technically.

I did dig in the garden and yard for close to 2 hours. I wonder how many calories that burned? I didn't break a sweat, even though my back was killing me at the end.

While digging in the yard I kept having this intense pain in the side of my head. My first thought was "I'm really going to be pissed if I have a stroke after all this getting healthy crap!".

Once I came in I realized the source of my headache. T.O.M. had arrived. I always have a head ache and back ache when it's the time of the month.
I'm on the pill people, and STILL have no idea when it's coming. I take it the same time every day faithfully, and there's still no rhyme or reason to my cycle. I'll be finding a new doctor in my area soon and hopefully getting on something else that will help with some regularity.

Other random stuff going on...

I just made these today and let me tell you, they are super yummy. WLS friendly and for me at least, band friendly. Be careful though because they are very filling and you'll have to stop yourself after just one. I used half white flour and half wheat.

Both my kids woke up complaining of a scratchy throat. I do believe school germs have infiltrated our home. I'm sure they are headed for their first cold of the season. Probably the first of many.

I have finally contacted my surgeons office to try and schedule my 2 year post-op appt. I know I'm over due but I live 2 hours away now and he wants me to have an Upper GI. I have to have the GI first at the hospital and then go to his office, so there are some scheduling issues there. Hopefully we can make this work so I don't have to drive there twice.

I went grocery shopping yesterday and for the first time in a very long time I feel like I have a plan for dinners this week. I suck at menu planning.

I made a pot of chili yesterday and even though I've made this recipe many times before, this time it turned out amazing. Hubs and I both had it again for lunch and now there are no left overs. Next time I'll have to make a double batch for sure!

My 1st grader has home work every night which sends her into a panic attack EVERY NIGHT. It's crazy. I can't imagine what this child will go through in 7th or 8th grade. I cringe at the thought. I don't know where she gets all this anxiety from and I wish there was a way I could take it away from her.

Well, it's almost 4:00 and I haven't even showered yet today! I better go get myself ready for the bus stop.

Have a great day everyone!

Thursday, September 20, 2012

Ten Things Thursday

It's that time of week again where I get to share with you ten random things, just because!

1. Monday was my birthday. I turned 41. I can't say I'm thrilled with being officially in my 40's but considering the fact that I'm healthier than I was in my 30's, I'll take it.

2. Remember when I said a while back the only thing I wanted for my b-day was to go to McD's and get a R.O.L.O. Mc...Flurry? Well, we went over the weekend and let me tell you, there wasn't even a hint of disappointment. It was just as amazing as I imagined it would be. I'm pretty sure it's the perfect dessert (for caramel fans like myself). Now I have to convince my brain to forget all about the amazing deliciousness because I can't keep going back for more!

3. My sister flew in Sunday night to be here for my birthday. She totally rocks!

4. My hubby flew to Atlanta on my birthday. That's OK because we had already celebrated over the weekend with dinner and of course the amazing dessert. AND my sister was here to make up for hubby being gone. He's completely off the hook.

5. My sister left today to go back home. We went out to lunch before heading to the airport. I had a bowl of soup, and grabbed a cinnamon scone to give to my kids later. They love scones.
Well, by the time I dropped her off, ran a few errands and did some grocery shopping, it was 4 1/2 hours since I had that bowl of soup. I was hungry. OF COURSE I figured it would be a good idea to eat the scone, right? My kids would never have to know because they were still at school.
Yes people, I'm still STUPID even 2 years after band surgery. Let's just say I've been seeing pieces of scone for the last hour, and burping up the taste of cinnamon.
I'm pretty sure eating my kids food is never a good idea. EVER!

6. I took my sister on a brewery tour. It's a good thing I was driving because, as I mentioned before, I have a new found love of beer. I'll have to make my hubby bring me back there. Or I could just go buy some beer. Either way, it was tasty!

7. I haven't done Insanity or gone to the gym in the 4 days that my sister has been visiting. However, I did go for a run or walk every day after putting the kids on the bus. Monday and Tuesday I did a 2 mile run. Wednesday I did 1 mile but it was freezing and I couldn't take it any more. It felt good to realize that fitness has become a normal part of my daily life.

8. I'm going to cardio kick boxing tomorrow morning. I've missed it.

9. Our primary school had a dance last weekend. Our old town always had a Daddy-Daughter dance, and I was never allowed to go (me not being a dad and all). Well this dance was for families! We all got dressed up and went to the dance. We were the only family who really dressed up. I wore the new LBD. Hubby wore a tie. We were turning heads and told that there should be a prize for best dressed family.
Here's my kid cuttin' a rug. They couldn't stop dancing all night. It was a riot!

10. Hubby comes home tonight from Atlanta but not until a couple hours after the kids go to bed. I have a plan in place. I'll be getting into my fuzzy pajamas, making a cup of tea, and reading a book in bed. 2 hours of quiet. Mmmm, I can't wait!

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Celebrating Two Years With Pictures

It's been a few weeks since my 2 year Bandiversary. I've been putting off writing this post for a couple of reasons.
First because we've been so darn busy around here with the start of a new school year. But also because I was feeling like I haven't been as successful as I wanted to be (I know, go ahead and slap me!).
I just wanted to have lost a little more weight and I'd LOVE to be down to 155. However, that hasn't happened and I need to stop fighting it.

I'm healthy and happy. I can run and jump and spin every single day, and even better yet, I actually enjoy doing it! That's a huge milestone for me and I need to start appreciating the non-scale victories in my life.

The weight loss part of my journey was exciting and fun but it's coming to a close. I need to embrace this next part of the journey, which happens to be the most important!
Maintenance  is my friend.

So, in keeping with tradition, here are my before, during, and now shots.

Day 1
6 months
1 year
2 years

2 years

The '2 year' shots were taken this morning. If you look real close, you can even see my port (left side rib cage).

I decided just this morning that I'm going to do a mud run on my 3 year bandiversary. I noticed there is one on August 17, 2013 and it's right here in my neck of the woods. What better way to celebrate a big milestone in my life!? I have 11 months to train.
I can do this!

Enjoy the rest of your day folks.
Be well.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Oops, I almost did it again!

Having Monday off and the kids being back in school has just screwed me up all week long! It's Thursday again and I almost forgot again. Dammit!

Well, here goes my version of Ten Things Thursday:

1. I went to 2 stores today ALL BY MYSELF. Yes, that's right. I shopped alone. Kids are back in school and it felt really weird. I kept thinking I needed to hurry, then had to remind myself that there was no need to hurry because I was alone and the kids were in good hands. So weird!

2. I haven't been thrilled with the scale lately and I've been pretty sure it's because of my inability to stay away from the carbs. So yesterday I was all protein, all day. I had home made chili for lunch and a chicken burger for dinner (no sides).
Then I was up 4 pounds this morning. Yup, you read that right. FOUR FREAKING POUNDS.
And then the peeing started.
I peed when I got up. I peed before my work out. I peed after my work out. I peed before my shower, in the shower, and after my shower. I peed at Wally World and Tar-get. I peed when I got home and after I put away my groceries.
You get the picture. There was a lot of pee ALL DAY LONG. I was beginning to think I had some sort of infection!
Needless to say I'm fairly confident that the 4 pounds was water retention. Fingers (and legs) crossed!

3. Tomorrow is our last day of this round of the Insanity work out program. It has taken us longer than the 60 days because of my broken toe, hubby's back, and our vacation. But, we got through it and didn't die! We both see differences in our bodies, mostly muscle tone we didn't have before. After tomorrow we have to do the fitness test again. It'll be interesting to see how much we improve. Let me tell you, the test is HARD. The first time hubby did it, he threw up. 'Nuff said.

4. During my whole weight loss journey my hubby would often say "Just think Honey, one day you'll be picking out your LBD". He was talking about the coveted "Little Black Dress". Every woman wants one and an obese woman wishes she could find one that fits and looks good.
Every time I would get discouraged he would remind me of the goal of finding a LBD and that would make me smile.
Well today, while shopping at Tar-Get (alone) I found a Little Black Dress on the clearance rack. Size Medium. Marked down to $7. Had to be too good to be true. Not having kids with me, I had time to try it on.
I bought it.
I can now say that I am the proud owner of my very own LBD. It's hanging in my closet, so I need to get invited to a fancy dinner or wedding. Doesn't matter. I got the dress!

5. It's still hot here in Wisconsin but it's cooling a little bit and I can smell the crispness in the air. Fall is my absolute favorite time of year. I can't wait for apple picking and pumpkins and hay rides!

6. I was planning to work in the garden all day tomorrow while the kids are at school. Turns out it's going to rain all day so I guess I'll be inside cleaning, organizing, and maybe baking something good for my kids.

7. My birthday is next week and I have to choose a restaurant for the birthday dinner. That makes me think about how I used to love going out for sushi, and how I can't eat it at all any more. I can't tolerate even one grain of rice. I'll have to find a different favorite food now.

8. For many months now I've said all I want for my b-day is to go to McD's and get a R.O.L.O. Mc-Flurry. I LOVE caramel. I've been off the sugar, saving up for that one day to enjoy a special treat. My mouth is watering just thinking about it. I hope it's as good as I remember.

9. My sister is flying in for my birthday, and my husband is flying out. He'll be away on business so I'm glad the big sis could come in and I won't have to celebrate alone.

10. My hip is killing me. I'm taking ibuprofen like they're candy. I need a new hip. I feel old.

That's it for tonight my loves. Have a great night!

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

Back to School

Yesterday was the first day of school here in Wisconsin. It was a little hard on my because my 'baby' started Kindergarten and I realized we will no longer have our special mommy-daughter afternoons together while her big sister is still in school.

I know it's a cliche and you hear it all the time, but they really DO grow up way too fast.

Here they are video conferencing with their Grandmother in NY before going to school. They were so excited to show her the outfits they picked out, and that they were dressed like twins (they're 18 months apart).

Like the over protective mommy I am, I followed the bus to school. I wanted to make sure the little one was able to find her class. Well, I'm glad I did because it was total chaos and the older one was in tears and confused. I helped them find their teachers, teared up a bit behind my big sun glasses, and left them. I assured myself that they would both be just fine, even the one who was crying her heart out. I need to let them go and let them grow. Parenthood is no easy job!

I came home and for nearly SEVEN hours, I cleaned my house! Now, please don't think I normally live in squalor,  because I don't. I just was finally able to get around to the deep cleaning stuff that got put off all summer long (like cleaning and organizing the laundry room).
The house looks great and it kept my mind off of how much I missed my kids!

Then, because I long for the title of "Super Mom", I baked these...

Yes, I'm aware that I only have 2 kids but I made 3 mini-cakes. Of course I ate the extra one. I am human. However, I made it the old WW way where you use a can of diet soda instead of all the oil and eggs. Have you tried it? It makes for a super moist cake. I also used sugar free frosting. They were a big hit with the kiddos.

The mix also made 12 regular size cupcakes which I promptly packaged up and put in the freezer. I don't need the temptation staring me in the face.

So, today they're both at school and I did not follow the bus this time. I'm at home having new windows installed. I'll probably be going through the kids rooms throwing out all the junk they have accumulated that they think they must save forever!

I plan to enjoy this first week back when I'm able to get everything done, because next week I go back to work part time, and of course back to the gym. Then I'll be back to wondering how women who work full time are able to get it all done.

I hope your kids had a great first day of school if they started this week.

Friday, August 31, 2012

What the Heck! How Did I Miss it?!

I missed an entire day. Not just any day, but my favorite day of the week! Thursday came and went on me. I noticed Hubby was dressed in jeans this morning which can only mean one thing. It's Friday. So I missed "Ten Things Thursday"!

We can't have that. I'm going to do the post anyway, a day late. So here goes...

1. The kids had their open house for Kindergarten and First grade the other day. All day they were pretty much begging me not to make them go to school and asked if I could  just home school them.
As soon as they met their teachers and saw their classrooms, that anxiety was all gone and now they can't wait to get started! I love that they love school.

2. I was all ready with a plan for what I was going to do with my days now that both kids will be in school all day, every day. I had a cleaning day, a shopping day, gym days, and a day to have lunch with my Hubby. Well, that all changed yesterday when I was offered a bunch of hours at work!
I'm happy about having the opportunity to work more because I really do love what I do, but dang it I was hoping to finally have a spotless, squeaky clean house every day! Not gonna' happen.

3. Now that I'll be working during the week and not just weekends anymore, I need to take inventory of my closet. We are only allowed to wear jeans to the office on weekends. I think I have ONE pair of dress pants in my closet, and I'm pretty sure they're at least one size too big. Looks like I just might have to go shopping for ME. What a novelty.

4. I may have mentioned before that when we moved into this house there was already a GIANT raised bed container garden in the back. I was excited that it had already been done for me. We didn't have a ton of time to plant the whole thing but I did put in some tomatoes, cucumbers and carrots.
This has been a huge undertaking due to the drought and heat wave. Not to mention that the garden is way out in back so it takes time just to drag my hose (3 hoses attached together) out there.
The crops have been disappointing this year. It seems like I've put in a whole lot of work and had very little reward. We have plenty of cherry tomatoes every day, but that's about it.

THEN, yesterday I found this...

Oh, lovely cucumber, we will eat you for dinner tonight!
I'm not sure why it's curled on the end. The other smaller one that I left in the garden is shaped the same way. Odd.
Not sure this was worth the hours of work and many, many gallons of water that it took to grow, but the look on the face of my 5 year old was priceless.

5. Another 90 degree day today so we're heading to the pool. Call me crazy but I'm kinda' looking forward to some cool, crisp weather.

6. I'm 90% sure I'm not making an appearance at BOOBS this year. I've known for a while that I wouldn't be able to go for the whole thing but was planning on just coming on Friday for the day.
Hubby's job is having their all day golf outing on that Saturday and it's a big deal with his company. He is expected to be there, which makes it impossible for me to spend the weekend in Chicago. I was just going to take the train on on Friday, spend some time with my favorite ladies, and take the train back.
However, we live on the golf course and some folks at work have mentioned the idea of hanging at our house after the tournament. Well, that changes things a bit doesn't it? I know me, and I know that if that's going to happen, I'll be spending all day on Friday cleaning the house and trying to make everything look perfect for the crew. I'm a bit OCD about these things.
I just don't think I'd be able to enjoy myself knowing I had a ton of things to do back at home.

7. Did you know the first year you ladies did a BOOBS get together I lived in Chicago but didn't know about the event until it was already over? I was so sad and vowed that the following year I would be there.
Well, the following year we were in Disney for part of the get together but I did manage to pop in and meet some ladies the day after we got back from Florida. So, once again I'm saying "next year".

8. I met a really nice neighbor down the street and then ran into her again at the school open house. She mentioned more than once that I'm welcome to stop by any time for coffee, or just to hang out. She seemed really sincere. It made me think back to when I was a kid and my mom and her friends used to do that all the time. People would just pop in for coffee with no notice and we thought nothing of it.
Does anyone do that these days? I think I'd love it.

9. In 17 days I will turn 41. I'm not embracing this like I did when I turned 40. I embraced it so much that I ran a 5K on my actual birthday and loved it!

This year, not so much. I think it's the difference between being '40' and being 'in your 40's' that has me cringing.

10. That's all for today lovies. Get out there and enjoy your day!

Monday, August 27, 2012

Think Like a Five Year Old

If I could be more like my 5 year old I'd be all set.

Today at lunch she couldn't finish her jelly sandwich, claiming to be too full.
Not 5 minutes later she asked me for a peach.
I said "I thought you were too full".
Her response...

"I'm just too full for more bread, but I'm not too full for fruit".

Don't you wish your brain worked like that?

Sunday, August 26, 2012

I Drank a Beer, and I Liked It

I don't have a lot to say today so let's go for the bullets...

  • I had a beer yesterday. I forgot I actually like beer. It's been more than 2 years and it  was yummy. I stopped at one. Now I know why I hate all kinds of wine. It's because I was meant to be a beer drinker!

  • I had to work today and in my attempt to detox from all things sugar, I stayed out of the kitchen (better known as the third circle of hell). At work there's ALL sorts of trouble lurking in the kitchen for the taking. We're talking M&M's, skittles, twizzlers, cookies, animal crackers, fruit snacks, anything with the word gummi before it's name, etc. I had my cucumbers and yogurt and protein bar.  I survived the day without one life saving piece of chocolate. Imagine!

  • It's almost September and I once again have a sun burn. I think I like summer in Wisconsin. It just seems to go on and on and on. 

  • We met some cool neighbors too while getting sun burned, and drinking the above mentioned beer. Life is good.

  • My sister is coming to town for my birthday! Just us girls for 4 whole days. I am beyond excited!

  • My husband did a crazy mud run/obstacle course yesterday. He had a great time and enjoyed it but today his allergies are crippling him from all the hay he had to climb over. It's sad when there's not a darn thing you can do to make it all better.

  • I think I want to do another race now. Have I mentioned before that I don't particularly care for running? I must be crazy.
That's it for now folks. I hope you had a wonderful weekend!

Thursday, August 23, 2012

The Best Day of The Week

I had a million things I've been meaning to post about this week but sometimes life just gets in the way. I've been doing laundry, cleaning house, pulling weeds, getting kids ready for school, etc. So, since it's Thursday, I'll get some of those blogging ideas out of my head by doing a Ten Things Thursday post!
Here goes...

1. Our road trip from Wisconsin to NY state was awesome. The kids were great, the weather was great, and I packed awesome (healthy) food to get us through it. Not to mention that the hubby drove the entire 12 hours himself so all I had to do was co-pilot. We all felt alive and well, and full of excited energy when we arrived.

2. Our road trip from NY to Wisconsin was less than stellar. I was on day 2 of my T.O.M. which means my band was tight. I didn't take as much time to prepare and pack healthy snack options for the way back. That being said, I ate like crap! I ate mounds of Pirate's booty and veggie straws. I know it's better than cookies and cake, but eating salty carbs all day when you're stuck in a car, and NOT eating protein lends itself to a very long day. I felt like crap. I couldn't keep my eyes open for the last 2 hours of the trip. When we got home I threw up 3 times and had to lay down for a short nap. I got up to get the kids ready for bed and went back to bed myself. I felt hung over the next morning.
Knowing what works is only half the battle. DOING what works is the other half.

3. My oldest nephew hadn't seen me since last summer. Although I've only lost about 10 pounds since that time, he couldn't stop talking about how 'skinny' I got. In fact I discovered later from a few of his friends that he had texted them and said "Dude, you won't believe my aunt. She's so little!".
He's a fitness enthusiast himself so it makes me smile that he took notice. I guess the craziness of "Insanity" is really working its magic!
Here we are...
He makes me feel old!
4. While in NY I worked out 3 times. Hubby and I ran 2 miles one day. We did an Insanity recovery day once. Then on Friday he DRAGGED me, against my will (not really) on a FOUR MILE RUN. I've done plenty of 5K races, which are 3.1 miles, but never more than that. He's training for a big race and needed to do the whole 4, and some how convinced me that I could do it too. He normally runs faster than me but was taking it easy because of his lower back issues. Running together made it seem easier. He was very encouraging the whole way (He can talk and run at the same time. Imagine!).
I should mention that we got rained on for more than half of the 4 miles. However, we didn't quit! What's a little rain? Now if only he didn't have to go to work every day and could dedicate his life to running with me, I'd be all set!

5. I have a dear friend who is 2 years younger than me, is morbidly obese, has type 2 Diabetes, and just lost the lower half of her leg. She had an infection that wouldn't heal because of the diabetes, so they took her leg. I can't tell you how much I think about her every day. The fact that she actually lost a limb because of her obesity related health issues has rocked me to the core. My heart breaks for her.

6. I have less than 2 weeks left with my kids at home before they're both at school all day. This will be the first time I'll be alone ALL day since the minute the first one was born. I know most moms can't wait for school to start but I have to admit, I miss them when they're gone for so many hours. I think I need a valium.

7. We're going to the beach today since it's going to be 90 degrees and I feel like time is running out to do fun things before school! My little one doesn't even want to go to the beach. I will force fun on her whether she likes it or not.

8. I've been finding lots of great recipes for natural, real food snacks. I've decided that once we get through the crappy packaged snacks in my pantry, I'm not buying any more. If my kids want a snack, they'll eat what I make. That way I know exactly what they're eating and it won't be full of sugar, salt, and preservatives. Just call me Crunchy, Granola Mama!

9. I think hubby and I have a problem. We're already seriously discussing our vacation that won't happen until 2016! We like to plan ahead. A little OCD, ya' think?

10. I still haven't taken a 2 year 'bandiversary' pic. I'm such a slacker.

Have a great Thursday everyone!