Saturday, April 28, 2012

We Have Arrived

After a long, emotional day of saying goodbye, we're finally all moved in to our new home. It's been a long haul of preparing for this moment. Now I'm completely surrounded by boxes and chaos! You know that feeling when there's SO much to do, you have no idea where to start? Yeah, that's me. Probably why I'm sitting here blogging instead of unpacking.

It's a bit overwhelming to say the least.

I've been reading your blogs here and there throughout the move. You all continue to be my inspiration and motivation.

Today should be weigh-in day but who the heck knows where my scale is?! Once I find it I just might post a weight update (I'm scared!).
Until then, have a great weekend and be well.
I shall return!

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

The Count Down Begins

The movers are coming on Sunday. I just might be freaking out a little bit right now. I'm about to make myself a mug of SF hot chocolate, and I'm seriously considering adding a shot of a little somethin'. I rarely drink, and never during the week! Mama just might be a tad bit stressed.

  • I went to the attorneys office to pre-sign all the closing papers yesterday. It was like I was writing a new chapter in my life.
  • I went to the post office today and filled out my change of address form. That felt really strange.
  • The kids had their last swim lesson at my gym tonight. When I told the instructor that we wouldn't be back, I started to cry. I'm such a freaking baby!

On a band related note, I was ravenous for chocolate all day yesterday. It was insane. I found myself in my favorite store staring at the 90% off Easter candy, wanting to just eat my way through the entire aisle. This usually only happens a day or two before TOM arrives on the scene. I checked my calendar and that's still a week away, so maybe it's the stress causing unreasonable cravings? I don't know.

Well, since I knew I was on a run away bus heading straight for Crazy Town, I did something to nip it in the bud. I went into the ladies clothes department, grabbed a pair of size 10 jeans off the rack and tried them on.
I had absolutely no intentions of buying anything, I just had to do it for ME. Well, I'm happy to say they slid right on! No sucking in or adjusting of anything. Just zzziiiiip! That felt great. Better than any damn chocolate cream egg can make me feel.
The experience didn't completely take my cravings away, but it was a nice little stroke to the ego and reminder of how far I've come. It made me realize I'm better than crappy food choices.
I had a salad for dinner.

I have an appt. with my primary doc tomorrow to discuss what, if anything, should be done about the fatty tumors in my arm. I was diagnosed with the first one about 8 years ago. It hasn't changed in shape or size but it has started to bother me. It feels like I'm being poked with a pin at times. I'm concerned about that as well as some other smaller ones that have developed over time. I know it's probably nothing but I want to hear him tell me that (since I never went to medical school!).

My internet and phone service is being disconnected tomorrow so I'll be off line for a while. I will be in a hotel from Sunday to Thursday though and I'm assuming I'll have Wi Fi there. I'll try to check in whenever possible.

I just looked at the time and date on my computer and realized TODAY is my 20 month bandiversary. Shoot! I normally do a whole post about it and have pictures, etc. Not this time, I guess.
I peeked back at my one year post to see what my weight was then (8 months ago) and at that time I was down 58.8 pounds. I had posted that my surgeon was happy with the results and basically gave me permission to enter maintenance. He was fine with me staying right there. I was not fine with that.
Today I am down 72 pounds. That's 13 pounds beyond where the doc was satisfied! I'm good with that.

Another day I'll do a post about where I go from here, and if I'm done losing. I don't have the energy or brain power to do that right now. I'm pretty sure there's something more that needs to be packed around here!

So next time we meet I will officially be a Wisconsin Cheese Head. Until then, be well my friends.

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

Some Random Thoughts

I took 4 days off from the gym and I didn't die. I also didn't gain any weight, so that's good. Probably because I never have time to sit down these days, and packing must be burning some calories, right?

I went back today and did a KILLER spin class and it felt so good. My days at the gym are numbered (literally, I wrote them down on the calendar!) I have only a few classes left and then I'm on my own until I join a new gym up in Wisconsin. I think I've decided on the Y since they have a wide variety of group fitness classes. I suck when I try to do my own thing, and I know I don't push myself. I need the structure of a class.

In 14 days my husband and I will be living under the same roof again. What kind of craziness is that?! We've been in different states since August so it's definitely time to be a family again. It was a long haul but we did it and we survived!

Right now I'm craving something crunchy and salty, like potato chips. The only chips in the house are the ones in my daughters lunch bag for tomorrow. I will not steal from my kids lunch...I will not steal from my kids lunch...

Tomorrow my baby turns 5 and we're spending the day doing fun things together. Like a typical woman, she wants lunch at the mall, dessert, new shoes, flowers, and a trip to the hair salon. If she's like this at 5, pray for the man who will some day become her husband! I hope he has a good job.

I'm having a garage sale this weekend. It's supposed to rain. Figures.

I've been in bed by 9:00 every night this week. I'm so darn busy all day that by the time I actually sit down in the evening I'm totally exhausted. I don't get out of bed in the morning until one of my kids wakes up. This is my life.

On that note, it's 8:50pm. and my eyes are droopy. Better head upstairs, it's almost my bed time!

Have a good night everyone.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Catching up and a Weigh In

Here we are at Monday night, and once again this is the first time I've had a minute to sit down and post. Things are Cuh-Razy around here these days!

I did actually do a weigh in on Saturday morning, like a good little Bandster, but had no time to post it. For about a minute I was down to 157.6 but some of that was dehydration because on Friday night I had a little stuck episode and wasn't able to eat or drink anything for hours. real weight from yesterday and today is 158.
That's a total loss of

72 pounds

So, on Saturday we had a house full of preschoolers over for my daughters 5th birthday party. I believe I must be at least a little bit crazy for agreeing to have the party at home while we're in the middle of packing and preparing to move! It was a cute party though and all the kiddos had a great time. Nobody seemed to notice or care about the boxes around the house. My daughter felt like a Princess and that's what counts.

Sunday was Easter and for the first time EVER, we didn't have anyone over. It was just the 4 of us for a quiet dinner at home. I was going to invite some friends, like we usually do, but my husband talked me out of it. He was right, with the party and the packing, we just needed the day. I made a pancake breakfast for hubby and the kids (I can't do pancakes). Then we spent the next several hours packing. Even though the house was a mess I insisted on still having a nice sit-down family dinner for the holiday. We got cleaned up, set the table, and enjoyed our own little feast of fish, mashed potatoes, salad, etc. It was really nice (and so quiet!).

Overall my eating has been better. I did have one piece of Easter candy (dipped in peanut butter of course) and that was enough to satisfy me. I didn't buy a lot of candy anyway since we try to limit the kids sugar intake, so there's not a lot of temptation around the house.

That's about it for me. I've got about a million other thoughts that I'd like to blog about but they'll have to wait for another day. I have to get these munchkins to bed!

I hope you had a wonderful Easter (or Passover). Have a great night.

Tuesday, April 3, 2012


I spent the better part of Sunday and Monday eating crap. I wasn't focused on getting in good forms of protein. I was eating like a preschooler.
A handful of rice cakes, a baggie of cheerios, a bite of this, a little of that...if it was a carb, it had my name on it. And of course I didn't measure or record any of it.
I realized I was out of control and feeling like crap (ie. the old me).

This crazy train has to stop, so just for today I decided to detox from carbs. It felt good to take control back, but I also saw how hard it is to NOT eat carbs! WOW, they're everywhere.

Now, I'm not going all Atkins or anything. That's no way to live as far as I'm concerned, but I needed to take a moment to really focus on quality food choices and more 'whole' foods instead of pre-packaged crap (my nemesis).

I have to say I feel good. I started the day with a protein shake made with a whole orange, 1/2 banana and some baby carrots. Plenty of natural carbs there but not the type I'm addicted to, so no worries.
Later I had a yogurt and some cashews. I even measured out the portion. Gasp!
For mid-afternoon snack I had a Pure Protein bar.
Dinner was a turkey hot dog and some fresh tomatoes and a Laughing Cow wedge. The hot dog probably wasn't the best decision because here I am almost 3 hours later and I'm still struggling to get it down, but it wasn't a carb so I'm good!

I went back to using 'my fitness pal' and that was a wake up call. Today, if I didn't count my bonus calories for exercise, I was actually out of calories before dinner. Wow.
Thankfully I had exercised for 40 minutes this morning so I didn't have to go over calories, and then feel guilty (because skipping dinner is NOT in my vocabulary).
I can't imagine how many extra calories I was taking in when I wasn't keeping track and was 'grazing' all day. That's probably one of the many reasons that tracking your food is a good idea, ya' think?

So just for today I have been successful in avoiding complex carbs. I'm a one day at a time kind of girl so I make no promises about the rest of my life. Just today.

And the message I will leave you with today..."If you eat it, write it down!".
It works.

Monday, April 2, 2012

The Verdict is In

In case any of you were wondering, my scale started working again and thankfully it was down 1, not up 4. Phew!
I was holding steady at 159 this morning for a total loss to date of 71 pounds.
Now let's just hope I can stop eating crap long enough to maintain my one pound loss this week!

Have a great afternoon.

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Down 1 or Up 4?

I'm a scale whore, I admit it wholeheartedly. Being in Wisconsin for the week with no scale was enough to drive me batty. However, I did try to eat well and be careful and it was sort of nice to not have to worry all the time about the number flashing at me every morning. I did feel a bit 'out of control' though just because I do use that number to keep me on track. You know, if it's up a little I say "Oh crap, back on track!", and so on.

So, this morning the first thing I did was strip and hop on the scale. The problem? Only some of the numbers were illuminated. It seems I may need a new battery. I hopped off and back on about 3 times and got the same result. It was sort of looking like 159 but the 5 wasn't all the way lit up so I can't be sure. God forbid it actually says 169, I just might die!

Because I'm a little OCD, I dragged out my old scale and got on. That biotch said 164! You better believe I'm liking the 159 a lot better. I'm going to see if I have the right size batteries around here to change it, and then I'll be weighing myself at the gym, on yet another scale that will give me a different number!

I'll be sure to let you all know the verdict as soon as I know. Now I'm heading off to kick some butt in kick boxing, and praying the whole time that I didn't gain 4 pounds in one week!

Have a great one.