Tuesday, October 30, 2012

Trying to Catch Up, Random Style

I know I've been bad about keeping up with the blog lately.
I'm trying to get myself on a routine with work, the gym, house work, and volunteering at the school. There are never enough hours in the day, right?!

So, today my oldest daughter has some sort of tummy trouble and had to stay home from school. I was supposed to work but am staying home with her. Hubby already adjusted his work schedule to accommodate my early doctor appt. tomorrow, so I figured I better let him get as much work done today as possible.

I have my Upper-GI scheduled at 8:30am. tomorrow. It's at least a 2 hour drive so I'm leaving before dawn. On an empty stomach. This does not make me happy. However, I will be happy when the doc puts all my fears to rest and tells me my band is just fine.
I'm bringing a protein drink and grapes for after the test. I'm sure I'll survive!

I need a fill.
I had a hefty shake at 8am. today and by 10am. I was trolling the pantry for something to snack on. As long as all goes well with the test I'll ask for a conservative fill. It's a tough spot to be in. I'm terrified of getting too much and having problems again like I did before, but I don't like feeling out of control in the food department either. I'm hoping a tiny fill will help take the edge off. This is Bandster hell. I remember it well.

All my family on the East coast is OK after the storm yesterday. Today we're getting wicked wind in our area. Remnants of the outskirts of the hurricane. This is some crazy stuff!

I've noticed that any time I lose a couple pounds, my neck starts to look saggy and wrinkly. What's up with that?! I have a huge ass that could stand to lose a pound or two, but No, I just lose it in my already skinny neck!? So, so not fair.
I told my hubby if I start to have an old lady looking neck, I'm having a lift.

I can't sleep at night lately. I fall asleep fine, but wake up a couple hours later and lay there wide awake for hours. Sometimes I get up and read or go on the internet, but mostly I just lay there frustrated and angry that I can't sleep. I have no idea why.

My 7 year old had her annual physical last week. She's in the 90th percentile for weight (*sigh*) and has high cholesterol. The only reason they checked the cholesterol is because of our very strong family history on both sides. Sure enough, she inherited that lovely gene. This is a kid who has never so much as eaten a french fry in her life. Never had a fast food meal and eats no meat! I can't imagine how high it would be if we were the type of family who ate out regularly or ate red meat and fried foods. Poor kid. Something she'll have to deal with for the rest of her life most likely.

Well, that's it for now. I have to go put away a ton of laundry and mop my floors. If I have to stay home today, I should get some stuff done.

Have a great one!

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Gotta' love Thursday!
Ten random things to share with you...

1. My husband has been gone for 12 days, and he's coming home tonight. I have missed that man!

2. I'm baking no sugar oatmeal cookies for my non-sweet eating man right now. Sure hope he likes them.

3. The kids are off from school today and tomorrow. I don't even know why. Some administrative days or something like that.

4. Kids wanted to carve pumpkins today. Can you guess who ended up doing ALL the digging and carving?

5. I've committed to doing 30 minutes on the elliptical machine here at home every day this week. That means no matter what other exercise I've got going on at the gym, I have to start my day on that machine of torture first. I've done it every day so far and have shocked even ME!

6. My kids are both getting flu shots tomorrow, and the younger one needs some blood work done. I know it's the wrong thing to do but we have bribed them with a promise of ice cream after the appt. if they're brave and do well! *sigh*

7. My 5 1/2 year old is apparently off the charts smart. We have a parent teacher conference coming up and we need to talk about the 'gifted and talented' program for her. I'm proud but also sad. She is ahead of her older sister academically and I know it affects the big sis. How do I deal with that?!

8. Yesterday we had 72 degrees and sunny here in Wisconsin. Tomorrow will be 42 degrees and sunny. Nothing like a 30 degree temp. drop!

9. It's 4pm. and I haven't even showered yet!

10. I've been off work while hubby has been out of the country. I've liked this time off. It's gonna' be really hard to go back, even though I love my job!

That's it for now folks. Gotta' go get ready for my honey to arrive!
Have a great night.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Just Like Weight Watchers, Only Different

I'm doing Speck's fall weight loss challenge. It's my first ever challenge. I thought it would be a good way to encourage me to get back to measuring and logging my food. I've needed a good kick in the pants for a while now.
The challenge has helped me in that department. I made sure to keep track of my calories all week. I exercised even more than normal. I made sure to get in all my fluids every day.

But there's something else the challenge has done to me that I didn't see coming.

Just like back in my Weight Watcher days, I used the weigh in day as my day to 'cheat'. And by cheat, of course I mean eat a load of crap all day as soon as the weigh in is over. Why did I do that? Ahhhh, just like old times.
Today, once the weigh in was over, I ate some of my daughter's candy corn. I don't even like candy corn!
Then I went to the grocery store and while shopping, I bought a package of sugar free cookies and ate 1/3 of the package while walking the store. At least they were the sugar free variety, but really? Why did I do that? Because it was weigh in day. Just like back in my WW days. I can remember leaving my Saturday morning meeting and going to the grocery store. My first stop was the coffee counter where I would get my cup of coffee and a bagel or donut to go with it. Then for the rest of the day I would eat whatever I wanted. My 'reward' for being good all week. Ha, more like undoing all my hard work!

So, even knowing what I know now, I'm sticking with the challenge. I'm not a quitter. I'll just try to do better at not sabotaging myself every Wednesday after the weigh in. I hope that recognizing the problem is a step in the right direction.

And in case you're wondering, I was up .2 pounds this week. Yeah, that totally sucks, but I can deal with it.

And, in case you didn't know, sugar free products are very very VERY harsh on the digestive system. Let's just say my entire house smells like ass right now, and my kids don't want to be near me.

OK, on that note, I'm going to bed before I eat anything else!
G'night all.

Sunday, October 21, 2012

I Think I Figured it Out

First let me start by saying I am completely back to normal. After 6 days of full liquids, I tried some solids yesterday and everything went fine. Too fine in fact. Once I saw that I could eat without pain, all bets were off. I was like a refugee from a famine stricken country. Once I started, I couldn't stop. I grazed all day long.

And OF COURSE I immediately gained back a pound of what I lost.

I swore today would be different. That I would be over the initial excitement of being able to eat and would be more in control. Yeah. That was a nice thought. The day started out OK, but ended with a big carb fest.
And I'm doing a weight loss challenge, so this trend must stop now!

So, on to the point of this post. I think I figured out what was wrong with my band and why I had all that irritation last week.
Here's what happened...

Saturday night I took 2 Advil before bed for back pain. When I woke up Sunday morning I felt all tight and irritated so I didn't eat breakfast but I did have a cup of coffee. Even decaf coffee can irritate the stomach because it's so acidic. It was after that when I realized I couldn't eat anything, and even my protein shake was going down super slow.

So, I'm pretty sure that the combination of the late night Advil and the early morning coffee on an empty stomach caused irritation on top of irritation.

Thankfully this time I was smart enough to not push the issue and went on liquids right away. That along with the acid reducer has brought me back to normal.

I'm very happy I'm no longer having any pain or tightness and things are looking up. However, I'm not happy that I'm hungry ALL THE TIME. I only have 3CC in my band which is about what I got way back at my first fill. I know that's not much and I guess if all goes well and there's no problems with the Upper GI, I might ask for a tiny fill.
However, over the past 2 years I've been too tight more often than not. I have a very sensitive system. Catch 22 situation here.
My appointment isn't for another week so I guess I'll just wait and see how it goes.

So there you have it folks. Advil and coffee do not mix well with a Lap Band!

Have a great night.

Thursday, October 18, 2012

Ten Things Thursday

Thanks Laura Belle for my favorite day of the week!

1. Yesterday afternoon was just gorgeous. The best weather we've had for quite a while. I spent two full hours cleaning out the garage and trying to organize all our stuff. It felt good to get it done. Two hours after I stopped working it turned cold and rainy and hasn't stopped since! So glad I didn't procrastinate that project.

2. I have not watched any TV since my husband went away on business.
Our primary family/TV room is in the basement. We like to call it 'The Lower Level". It's a nice finished off area with carpet, a bathroom and even a bar. So why is it then that while my husband is not here I will NOT go down there to watch TV.
I'm pretty sure it's because no matter how nice it is, it's still a basement. No matter what I tell my kids, there just might be monsters in real life and I'm not going to be the one to find one down there! Needless to say I've been watching a lot of Netflix on the laptop while he's been away.

3. My back is killing me and I'm not sure if it's because of the garage cleaning or lifting weights in body pump. Advil is my friend.

4. Things are slowly but surely calming down with Phil. I realized this morning that my water was going down just fine, and not gurgling. I still took it easy and slowly sipped my protein shake all morning. I had a ton of errands to run so I brought a yogurt with me and ate it while I waited for my oil change. No problem with that.
I can definitely feel everything I eat or drink, so I'm not ready to try anything solid yet. Maybe soon though because I'm feeling better with each passing day.
I just wish I knew what the heck caused this and what's going on!

5. My friend who is a nurse suggested I try taking an over the counter acid reducer (like Prilosec) for a couple days to see if that helps my situation at all. I don't know why I hadn't thought of that (maybe because my heartburn has been so mild) but I'm glad I took her advice. I can't tell you how much better I feel after taking only one dose!

6. I discovered a low fat frozen yogurt bar by 'Kemps' (I think they're a Wisconsin dairy company?) and holy mother of God, are they awesome! 110 calories and so freakin' yummy. I bought them out of desperation because of this liquid diet. I needed something that resembled real food, that wouldn't get stuck.
I'd show you a picture but I ate them all in 4 days! Don't judge. I needed food.

7. I started the fall weight loss challege with Speck this week. My official starting weight is 161.8. That's pretty cool because I had crept up to a very scary 166 before my band issues. I think 166 is my 'freak out' weight. I just couldn't say no to birthday cake and ice cream, and any and all baked goods. Now that I can't eat food, I'm back down to my 'normal' zone. I'm not happy that I can't eat, but I am happy that I've shed the extra unwanted pounds.

8. For anyone reading this who is about to leave me a comment telling me to get to my doctor ASAP and find out what's going on with my band, I have an appointment. Not to worry. Getting an Upper GI and everything. We will find out once and for all what's going on in there and why food is not my friend.

9. I did some research yesterday on the gastric sleeve and it scared me. I had NO IDEA until yesterday that they actually cut out half of your stomach. Holy cow! I'm just thinking worst case scenario here in case I get bad news after the Upper GI. Let's hope I'm fine and won't even have to go down that road.

10. I'm telling myself that I'm going to do two fitness classes back to back tomorrow. Kick boxing is first, then body pump. Let's see how this goes!

That's it for tonight my dears.
Have a great night!

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Update on Phil

Well I have an update on the band situation. Here goes...

The good News:

  • I'm still on liquids. Fluids are going down just fine.
  • The pain I was having yesterday is just about gone. Taking a deep breath no longer hurts.
  • I've lost 4 pounds in 2 days which brings me back to where I was before birthday dinners and fall baking started. Not exactly the way I wanted to lose it, but whatever.
  • Yesterday I had 2 protein shakes, a yogurt and a diet hot chocolate.
  • Tonight I'm going to try some runny mashed potatoes, fingers crossed!

The Bad News:

  • I'm exhausted. I'm taking my vitamins and getting in plenty of protein each day but I'm darn tired. I think it's carb withdrawl.
  • I had a whole list of projects to do around the house this week and I'm not getting them done. I nap instead.
  • The human desire to chew is a very strong one. I haven't chewed ANYTHING in two days and I hate it.
  • I can still feel and hear everything I drink gurgling down through my stoma. Very weird. The good news is it's going down. The bad news is it's still gurgling down very slowly and I don't know why.
  • I'm terrified to try to eat anything that requires chewing. I'm afraid of having to PB/throw up and causing more damage. 
  • Most soft foods are dairy based. Pudding, yogurt, cottage cheese, etc. I'm lactose intolerant. You get the picture. I'm going to buy stock in Lactase pills!
I think that's it for today. I seriously need another nap. Hoping to have more news for you tomorrow. I think I'm past the worst of it.

Have a great night!

Monday, October 15, 2012

Somethin' Ain't Right!

I'm not sure what's going on with Phil (the band) but something's wrong in there. I'm so glad I finally decided to make the appointment for an upper GI and to meet with my surgeon. Now I'm just wishing the appointment was sooner!

I can't quite figure out what happened. I didn't have a stuck episode or PB, but yesterday when I woke up I felt super tight with mild heart burn. I didn't even attempt my protein shake for several hours and when I did, it was very slow going, with some discomfort. I drank half of it and saved the other half for lunch.

I remember last year when this happened and I had to go in for a major un-fill, I was seriously dehydrated. This time I refuse to let that happen. I'm pushing liquids all day long.

The other thing I'm doing differently is I'm not even trying to eat solids. Last year I kept testing to see if I could,which didn't work, then would cause throwing up, and in turn more irritation. I never gave the inflammation a chance to go down and heal. Believe me, I've learned my lesson.

What scares me is the discomfort, which is bordering on pain. I haven't had that before. Tightness, yes. Heartburn, yes. But this is different. I'm trying not to be paranoid (I've convinced myself before that the band had slipped when it had not), but in the back of my mind I'm trying to prepare myself for the worst.

My biggest concern is that my health insurance sucks even more than the one I had back when I was banded. I really don't want to have to self pay for a revision and I know damn well I can't maintain my weight loss without something in place. OK, let's not go there yet, right?

I just wanted to share with you all because I like to put it all out there...the good, the bad, and the ugly. I don't hold back.

So, my appointment isn't until the 31st. If need be, I can move it up. I'm hoping a couple days of liquids will straighten things out and I won't have to.

I'll keep you posted!

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Just Some Randomness

I haven't posted in a while but for good reason. My big girl turned 7 yesterday and it's been one big party all week!
The grand folks flew in on Wednesday. I picked them up from the airport and we went to the school to surprise the kids. They were over the moon.
Grand folks and I also went and had lunch with the birthday girl at school on Friday (another surprise) and brought in special treats for the class. She felt like a princess all day!

Friday night was the birthday party. We normally would have had it on a Saturday afternoon but the birthday girl refused to have a party without her Daddy, who wouldn't be around on Saturday. More on that in a minute.
So I had 8 kindergarten and first graders dressed as princesses running around the house Friday night, but it was a huge hit. We had a fancy tea party with real tea cups and pink cupcakes. So cute.

Then this morning the hubs had to hop a plane to Hong Kong. His company is sending him to some electronics show there for 2 days. Then he gets to head over to mainland China for 9 days after that. They do business with many factories over there so twice a year they go to meet with vendors and employees, etc.

Did you know it takes 14 hours to fly from Chicago to Hong Kong?
In the course of that 14 hours I will have taken my kids to swim lessons, out to lunch, to a movie, come back home, had dinner, watched TV, put the kids to bed, watched some more TV, read a little, and gone to bed myself, and he's STILL ON THAT PLANE! Total craziness.
I don't think I'll be joining him on one of his trips any time soon. Maybe when the girls are older.

In other news...I signed up for Speck's fall weight loss challenge. I've never done a challenge before but I think this just might be what I need to get me motivated. I've totally fallen off the counting calories and tracking my food wagon. I need to get back on if I don't want to lose all control.
So, here's to the weight falling off for the fall challenge!

On that note, I'm heading to bed so I can be up bright and early to take the in-laws back to the airport tomorrow.

Have a good one!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Ten Things Thursday

Thanks to Laura Belle for coming up with this because it's my favorite blogging day of the week!

1. I went for a 3 mile walk today. I was headed for a 2 miler but was chased by 2 dogs (they were wagging tails so I didn't freak too much) and then had a run in with another dog who was none too friendly and was growling and barking from his front yard. I had no desire to do the round trip and have a repeat performance, so I went the long way around the neighborhood (pepper spray in hand).

2. I'm having a lunch date with my hubby today. We've been trying to do this once a week since the kids started back at school but this is only the 3rd time it's actually worked for our schedules. Wanna' know where he's taking me? WalMart. Yup, they have a Subway and my man loves his Subway! I'll be bringing soup because there's nothing there I can eat. We're so romantic, I can't stand it.

3. Hubby has a friend at work who moonlights as a photographer. She came over last night and took about 250 pictures of us and the kids. I had less than 24 hour notice that this was going to happen. I was almost ready to shank the husband for doing this to me but since he is leaving for China and won't be back until all the fall colors are gone, I totally understand his urgency to get it done. We got some good ones.
Since I'm anonymous on here I can't share them with you but here's a cute one of the kids being goofy running through the yard...

4. I want to eat frosting straight from the can. Some things never change.

5. While at work last week my new boss mentioned in conversation that she's lost about 70 pounds. I congratulated her and told her I know first hand how hard that is to do. Then yesterday we had the opportunity to work together for about an hour so I asked "So, how did you lose so much weight?". Her response..."Well, about 4 years ago I got the Lap Band".
Whaaaat?! Get the heck out!
So, for the first time EVER since being banded, I told. I told her I had the band too and that I had pretty much kept it a secret this whole time. It was so weird to tell someone! I emailed her later and told her how nice it was to have a fellow Bandster right here, and how I'm so glad we found each other. Cool.

6. The railroad crossing in our town was recently deemed an approved "Quiet Zone" meaning the train conductor no longer has to lay on the horn at the intersection because we've been safety inspected (we have flashing red lights and everything!). So Why oh WHY was I awakened at 1am. and 2am. to the sound of a train whistle blowing NON STOP for several minutes at a time? I feel so bad for the people who live right by the tracks. I am not a happy camper today.

7. My first born turns 7 next week and I'm in shock. Or denial. She wants a Princess birthday party (again) and even though my husband tried to talk her out of it, I'm secretly happy that she's still into the Princess thing because I know very soon it's going to be all Justin Beiber and back talking, and I'm so not ready for that.

8. I've mentioned before that fall is my favorite time of year. I never take the colors for granted and enjoy every minute of it. Our front yard tree is shedding leaves so fast and any minute now it's all going to be gone. So, after my walk this morning, I took some pictures...

9. Surgeons office called this morning. Looks like they'll be able to get me in for the UpperGI and my follow up appt. on the same day. I've decided that if everything looks good with the band, then I'll get a small fill. I know I'm able to eat way more than I should and I would like to lose 10 more pounds. So, provided there's no slip or other issues (everything feels fine now), then I'll go ahead with a tiny fill. This will be my last appt. with the surgeon since we're 2 hours away now.I'll have to find someone local now.

10. I need to go shower to get ready for my hot date with the hubby. I hope you all have a fantastic weekend. Get out there and enjoy the colors!