Tuesday, December 17, 2013

Your Mom is Fat

Let me tell you about my day yesterday...

First, you should know I woke up feeling fat. I started my T.O.M. and was all bloated and gross feeling.
I had a crappy, out of control eating day.

Also, I've been feeling the effects of lack of sunlight, worse than ever before. So, I've been feeling the blues, big time. Most days it takes a lot of work just to get out of bed.

Then, on top of that, I put the extra lining in my winter coat which always makes me feel a bit like the Michelin Man, all puffy and unable to move my arms. With the sub-zero wind chills, I needed it, but didn't like it.

So, I run out to get my kids off the bus as the snow is falling and it's already getting dark, but I'm just so happy to see my little angels. We get in the house and my littlest says...

"Derek said you're fat"

Wait. What? Who the heck is Derek?
A kid on our bus.
He said I'm fat?
Yup, he said 'your mom's fat!'.
What did you say?
Nothing, we just ignored him because we know you're not fat.

In my head: Don't freak out. He's 8 years old. Don't let a stupid kid ruin your day. There's a lesson here. Use it.

In my heart: That little fucker! He doesn't know how hard I've worked to get to a normal size, and I STILL get called FAT?! I could choke the little shit!

So, I took a deep breath and said: 

"I'm a normal size woman. I'm not fat or skinny, I'm just normal. But more importantly 'FAT' is not a nice word to use to describe anyone. Even if I didn't lose a lot of weight, it wouldn't be nice to call me fat. Next time Derek says something like that, you tell him it's not nice, and that I'm calling his mother to talk to her about it".

OK, I don't have the little jerks phone number. I don't even know who he is. I can't really call his mother and talk to her about this situation. I'm sure he doesn't know that.

I want to know how these little kids already know the word 'fat', and how to use it, and how to be hurtful. Who teaches their kids these things?
I personally try every day to teach my kids to be nice and respectful. I set an example by not saying mean things about our friends and neighbors. Children learn from what they see at home.

So, the good news is that even though I was feeling crappy, I didn't let that one innocuous comment set me off and ruin the rest of my day. There was a time in my life when that was possible.
I guess I believe in myself more now, and know my truth. I can't spend my life getting caught up in what other people think or say about me.

Know your own truth.
Teach your children well.
Be well!

Friday, December 6, 2013

Fifty Things Friday

OK, maybe not 50, but seriously, I need to be better at writing regular posts. I have tons of stuff in my head and never enough time to get it out in a coherent post. So, here's what I have for you today...

1. I'm waiting for the treadmill repair guy to arrive. I'd much rather be coloring my hair, or napping, neither of which I can do until he leaves. This really sucks.

2. I was cleaning the bathroom this morning, bent over to scrub the toilet, and my brand new smart phone fell in. Love-Ly! Hubby came home, grabbed the phone, and brought it into work with him. I guess they have some sort of lab there that may be able to work magic. Let's hope so because I really can't afford to pay for a new one right now!

3. The arthritis in my knees and thumb are getting worse by the day. This pisses me off because I believe I am way too young for such ailments. I started drinking that "Joint Juice" stuff that's supposed to help with arthritis pain. Not sure how long it's supposed to take to kick in, but it isn't doing much as far as I can tell.
I may have mentioned that I work with my hands, and cannot do my job without the use of BOTH of my hands, so this sort of bites the big one.
I can't even imagine how much worse it would be if I hadn't lost 70+ pounds. What a dreadful thought.

4. I had an upper-GI and Esophogram about a month ago. Both came out perfectly normal. Glad to know my band is exactly where it's supposed to be, and nothing is amiss. However, I had 2 very horrible weeks of being unable to eat much of anything except broth and protein shakes. It seems to be better now. I ate normal yesterday and feel fine today. I'm still going to my doc next week though because it seems this problem keeps popping up periodically and I can't figure out why.
He says he can prescribe me an antispasmatic medication for when it happens, which should help.
If it doesn't, I'm fairly certain my kids will grow up thinking I'm bulemic. Not cool.

5. Moving to Wisconsin has definitely been a lesson in culture for us. Apparently there's such a thing as St. Nick day, on December 5, where kids get goodies in their stockings, or more traditionally in their shoes. I wouldn't have known about this had my youngest daughter not come home from Kindergarten talking about it. Thankfully this year I happened to be in a store and saw signs up about it, or I totally would have forgotten!
So, the kids got some cute little goodies in their stockings this morning, and they're so happy that they get to participate now that we live in Wisconsin!

6. Remember a few months ago when hubby and I ran that race together? Well, not exactly together since he did the half marathon and I did the 10K, but we met up at the end. Well, I kept saying the only part of me that hurt after the race was the tops of my second toes. It must be where my shoes hit my toe, and they were really tender for about a week or so. Then, last week while trimming my toenails, I notice that the one on my right foot is almost completely lifted up, away from the nail bed, and ready to fall off!
Is this a sports related injury, because I'd love to be able to say I have a sports injury!
If I wasn't such a baby I would just pull it off, but I can't do it. Just like I can't pull my kids loose teeth, even when they're just hanging on by a thread. I'll wait for it to fall off on its own, and be proud that I earned that lost toenail!
I know I'm weird, but you love me anyway.

7. I did not go to the gym today but I did clean the entire first floor of my house, including mopping all the hard woods. Does that count for something?

8. I'm certain my life was a lot better off before I realized there are such things as peanut butter M&M's and caramel Hershey Kisses. I could have lived forever without that information!

9. I can already feel the Seasonal Affective Disorder kicking in. I've been taking my Vitamin D faithfully every day for at least a month. I just can't stand it that it's dark out by the time my kids get off the bus in the afternoon! I'd love to crawl under the covers and hibernate until Spring, but I can't.
I turn on all the Christmas lights which I think helps a tiny bit, but I need sunshine and LOTS of it!
We are going to Florida in February, and that can't come soon enough.
I think I need a happy light. I just don't want to spend the $50 for something that might not really work.
Remind me why I said no to moving to Texas?

10. Thanks to a generous gift from the in-laws, we are able to fly home for Christmas this year! I'm so excited to not have to sit in a car for 12 hours, and not be so dependent on the weather.
That's the best gift I could have ever asked for.

Well, I think that's it for now. The repair man will be here shortly, so I better run.

I hope you're all well and keeping warm!

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

I Suck at This!

I haven't posted on the blog in a while. I never seem to find the time anymore.

I guess there's a few reasons for that...

First, I don't seem to get many comments anymore. I'm not sure anyone is even still reading. What happened to my followers? Sad.

Also, I started my blog to keep my friends and family back 'home' up to date on my progress. NONE of them read the blog now. Maybe I got boring after a while and they lost interest.

This is supposed to be a Lap Band weight loss blog, but I've been at the same weight for 2 years now. Maintenance isn't as exciting as actively losing, I know that.

So, I'm still here, and still plan on blogging when I can. I'm just not feeling real inspired lately.

Here's an update, Bullet Style:


  • My husband has been in China for 10 days. This single parenting stuff is no joke. It takes a lot more time to do things without his helping hand. Just 2 more days of this and then he comes home.


  • I just discovered I have some sort of gluten sensitivity. I suspected it before but then dismissed it as all part of my gallbladder issues. Well, the truth is I don't really have much gluten in my life on a regular basis. I don't eat bread, pasta, pretzels, crackers, etc. because the Band won't allow that. When I eat cereal, it's usually Chex, which is gluten free.  The other day I had a bowl of "Life" cereal instead of my usual Chex, and holy smokes was I in distress! My belly got big and hard, and I felt like I was full of gas. I called my sister who is gluten intolerant and asked her what happens if she eats something with gluten, and she described EXACTLY what I was going through. I guess I'll stick with Chex when I crave cereal, and be more observant of ingredients in other things I might eat.

         The list of foods I can't eat continues to grow. I should just live on organic vegetable broth!

  • I was not ready to welcome winter this week, but like it or not, it has arrived. Not happy.


  • I have a day off tomorrow, and I plan on getting ALL caught up on the laundry. Is that even possible? I want to hire someone just to do laundry for us, and put it all away, all the time. It's the worst job ever!
  • I'm so tired of the 'occasional treat' mentality for kids. I'm talking about how people think it's OK to give kids treats, because it's just once in a while, or a little sugar won't hurt. I'm here to tell you that THREE times this week my daughter had cupcakes and brownies for snack at school. I believe in celebrating birthdays, but there's some sort of sugary treat being doled out several times a week. In fact my 2nd graders teacher gives the birthday kid a full sized Hershey chocolate bar as a gift. This, after they've already had cupcakes for snack! It's just out of control. I guess I'm frustrated because I do my best to make healthy snacks, and teach the kids about healthy choices, and then it all gets thrown out the window at school. OK, rant is over.
I think that's it for tonight. I'm drinking my sleepytime tea and watching The Voice. I'll be in bed soon.
Have a great night!



Thursday, October 24, 2013

Ten Things Thursday!

Hello, and welcome to totally random Thursday!

1. Any of my readers to Body Pump? There was a new launch released this week, and I did it on Tuesday. Holy freaking calves! Usually these changes to the program are pretty minor, and I don't feel much of a difference. However, lunges are now TWO minutes on each leg, and my calves are still feeling it.
I shall return for more torture soon.

2. My kids enjoy home remodeling shows. I know it's grown-up TV, but it's usually harmless, and I figure maybe one day they'll renovate my home for me, so what the heck.
Well, along with grown-up TV comes grown-up commercials.
I heard my 6 year old telling the 8 year old...
"I think Mom wears those adult diapers. I found one in her purse once!".
Lord help me. I am not ready to have that conversation!

3. I got a bad haircut this week. Normally my husband hates when I go to get a haircut because he prefers long hair. But this time, when he said it's too short in the back, I have to agree with him.
The hairdresser was talking a lot, and not really paying attention apparently.
It's only hair. It'll grow out. *sigh*.

4. I've been seeing a chiropractor regularly for a couple months now. I have to say, it's helping.
Because of the physical nature of my job, I quite often have shoulder and neck pain. I'd learned to live with it for far too long. He's been really working on my neck and I feel so much better.
Yesterday when I got home from a long work day, instead of coming home with a headache and sheer exhaustion, I felt like a normal person and started cleaning up the house. It took me a few minutes of tidying up to realize I'd normally be on the couch rubbing my head, dreading the sound of the school bus coming down the street.
Hooray for the gift of healing hands!

5. Took the girls to the museum today. We were there for FOUR AND A HALF HOURS. I could not get them out of there. We are actually members of a different museum in the city, but had decided to give this one a try for a change. They loved it so much more than the other one. Hubby had called while we were there and I told him about it. He later called back and asked me to buy a membership before I left (they apply what you paid today towards the membership fee), so I did. Now we have 2 museum memberships and a zoo pass.
I hope these kids realize I never had any of these experiences when I was a kid. Ever!

6. I think it there's something fundamentally wrong with getting acne at my age. I am broken out like a teenager. It's crazy! I felt so stupid last week at the store buying soap for acne prone skin, medicated exfoliating scrub, and zit cream. Will that stop when I go through menopause? That sure would be a nice perk.

7. We're taking the kids to the village Halloween celebration tomorrow night. Tons of ativities, hay rides, nature walks, crafts, etc. And, it's all outside. Did you know winter has arrived in Wisconsin? It's effing cold out there people! I don't know why I get myself into this stuff, but you better believe I'll be wearing 2 coats, gloves, boots, and at least one scarf. I am not cut out for this midwestern life!

8. My kids have been asking for parfaits for breakfast these days. They're not cold cereal kind of kids, so any variety in our morning is welcome.
Here's one of their concoctions..


Layers of Greek yogurt, peaches, local honey, bananas, and some granola on top. They came up with this themselves. I'm pretty proud.

9. Today really feels like Saturday since the kids were home with me all day. Must remember not to go to church tomorrow!

10. I'm beat. These kiddos wore me out today. It was good to get out of the house and have fun all day, but I am not 6 years old. I am darn tired! I just might go to bed shortly after tucking them in for the night.
Tomorrow, I clean the house.

Have a great night my dears. Be well.

Wednesday, October 23, 2013

WTF Wednesday! My Very First One

I don't think I've ever done a WTF Wednesday post, but I sure am in the mood for it today. So here goes.

Why TF do I get myself into these things? There was a posting at work about an employee cook-off.
Make your favorite dish, bring it in to share with your hungry co-workers...maybe there will be a prize, etc.
Why wouldn't I just make some good cookies or brownies, something easy?
No. That wouldn't make sense to me. I have to make a huge, heavy crock pot full of yummy taco soup. It's Fall. My co-workers might like some comfort food. Right?

Well, keep in mind I work in the city, so the parking garage is about a block away from where I actually work. There is sometimes visitor parking available right in front of the building, but of course today it was full.
So, here's me lugging a huge ass crock pot, FULL of taco soup, from the parking garage, down the road, up the stairs, to my building for my lovely work peeps. Stupid me. Sore arms. NEVER AGAIN!
Next time, they get crackers.

WTF is wrong with those darn Blue Bunny people who make healthier, guilt-free dessert products? I bought some no sugar added fudge bars to have on hand for those times that I just have to have some chocolate. The other night I remembered they were in the freezer so I told the hubs I was going to get one and enjoy it after the kids went to bed. Here's our real conversation...

Me: This does NOT taste at all like chocolate
Him: What does it taste like?
Me: It tastes like it needs to be dipped in peanut butter and drizzled with Hershey's syrup
Him: Ok then.
Me: Seriously, YOU could even taste it and it wouldn't bother you (he HATES chocolate).
Him: I think I'll pass

Why TF is it that I can eat tons of crap that's not at all good for me, like M&M's or cereal (hypothetically), but the minute I try to eat something even remotely healthy (like the above mentioned taco soup), I get that stupid phantom gallbladder attack and can't eat another thing the entire rest of the day?
I've been burping beans all afternoon. I can't eat.
Looks like I may have to have one of those darn fudge bars!

WTF have I done wrong? My 6 year old wants to be a Daisy Scout? Lord help me.
I've never encouraged participation in such things, bu of course ALL the other girls are in it, so she must be in it too.
She tells me of her wish after the first 2 meetings have already taken place. Now I have to spend a boat load of money on registration and uniform crap that she's only going to use 8 times, for the monthly meetings from now until June.
Next year she'll be too old for Daisies and will need different uniform crap for Brownies. Great.

Well folks, I think that's it for today. I've ranted enough.
I shall prepare for the kiddos arrival from school now. They have a 4 day weekend, so they're MINE, all mine!

Have a great night.







Sunday, October 20, 2013

Man, I totally suck at this blogging thing.
I just can't seem to post during the week. I don't even work full time!

This week I've been doing the whole clean out the closets, pack away the summer stuff, pull out the winter stuff, and iron the stuff that's been in totes all summer.
The girls closets look fabulous. I almost took a picture but then thought that would be a little weird, right? It's just easier for them now. No more 40 degree mornings with them begging me to wear capris and a t-shirt. Out of sight, out of mind. Now, I need to do the same thing with my closet because I don't have enough room for all seasons of clothing being in there at the same time. Too crowded and cluttered.

In other news, my daughter had her 8 year old check up the other day. She did great. The doc asked her if she drinks pop and her answer was "Of course not! I'm not even old enough to drink pop!". Yay kiddo. We all laughed, but I was proud.
Unfortunately, even with all our work getting rid of processed foods, not eating out, and limiting treats, her cholesterol is even higher than it was last year. The doc is concerned. We're having her re-tested in a month, hoping that it was just a bad read.
Unfortunately, we have high cholesterol on both sides of our family. I've been on medication for it for more than 10 years. It's a family curse, and it's now affecting my daughter. I'm so sad about that. She may look just like her Daddy, but she takes after me.

Yesterday I went to my weekly kick boxing class. The instructor didn't like that there was nobody right in front of her, so guess who she yanked over? Yeh. ME. I was directly in front of her for the entire class. You know that means I couldn't half-ass it. I had to kill it the whole time! I thought I would die.
I am so sore today. That'll teach me to be in the front row!

Today I'm takin the girls to the last arts and crafts fair of the season. We go up to this place called "Holy Hill", which is just that, it's a holy place on a hill. Monks live up there somewhere. There's a huge cathedral where you can go to mass if you like. It's a gorgeous drive this time of year with all the colors. We love it. Well, twice each fall they have vendors who come in from all over the state and set up shop. My girls save their allowance all year long so they can go and buy stuff. There's a little old grandma who makes doll clothes, so my girls make that their first stop.
I'm hoping it warms up a little bit, or at least the sun comes out, because towards the end of the day we like to get a cookie, sit on a hay bale, and listen to the live music. It's a great afternoon for me and my sweet girls.
I love creating traditions!

Well, I hear tiny footsteps, which means kiddos are waking up in my house.
So, I leave you with this...

The Loves of my Life



Sunday, October 13, 2013

Weight Gain is no Fun!

Holy smokes, I've been busy!

I really wanted to do a Ten Things Thursday post, and never found the time. Then I had planned to do a Five Things Friday, but same deal, too busy. Ha, so here I am on Sunday morning, when I should be having breakfast, or starting up the elliptical, doing a catch-up post.

I'm off the sugar. AGAIN. I had gotten pretty out of control with the sugar addiction as of late. And, since I've been able to eat normal food again, along with the sugar, the scale jumped up rather quickly. I saw my freak out number on Saturday, and I didn't like the way my pants were feeling.
The first course of action was to stop the sugar madness.

It's been 2 days with no sugar. You know what else has happened? I've stopped snacking on carbs throughout the day. I think the sugar was causing carb cravings too.
I've dropped to just below my freak out number, but not nearly far enough, so I'm sticking to this.

My daughter's birthday was yesterday. I made a nice cake. I did NOT eat any of said cake. I gave the left overs to the neighbors. No temptation in the house.

I should also mention that I didn't make it to the gym last week. Not even once. You know that's not like me, at all!
I had a freelance job on Tuesday that required me to be up and getting ready at 5am. No gym.
On Thursday I had my Upper-GI first thing in the am., so no gym.
On Friday I was so tired, dizzy, and a bit nauseous with a stomache ache from that awful Barium swallow junk, so no gym.

I did the elliptical Friday and yesterday, and will do it again today, but I need to get back to the gym.
I've written the classes on my calendar and highlighted them for this week. I will go all 3 days. No excuses.

As far as I know, the Upper-GI showed nothing of concern. I went to a new place and I actually met the Radiologist, and he had a personality! Who knew? He said everything looks good in there, and he would be sending a full report to both my general doctor and my surgeon. I guess I'm good for another year.

I hear kiddos waking up, so I will leave you with this, a picture of my favorite tree during my favorite time of year. I love the fall colors!



Friday, October 4, 2013

Remember New Food Fridays?

Remember back in January when I started "New Food Friday"? It was my goal to try 52 new recipes this year. One for each week of the year. I started out strong, and then got sick and couldn't tolerate most foods, let alone anything new.
Well, I'm getting back into the new foods and I have lots to share with you.

Since my kids have to bring 2 snacks to school each day, and we're trying our best to get away from packaged, processed foods, I've been trying lots of new recipes. My previously super picky eaters have been really enjoying it!

New Food #10

http://mywholefoodlife.com/2013/06/07/healthy-pop-tarts/

These healthy pop tarts were a huge hit with the kids. They asked for them for breakfast, lunch and snack, and want to know when I'm making them again.
I can't tell you if they're band friendly because I didn't try them. They are a little 'bready' so I decided to play it safe.
Try it at your own risk.

New Food #11

http://www.100daysofrealfood.com/2011/03/23/recipe-easy-cheesy-crackers/

Now these cheese crackers I've made a few times and we all love them. They're super easy to make and if you use a sharp cheddar, your whole kitchen will smell like a box of Cheez-Its!
They are band friendly if you only eat a couple. I had to stop at 2 even though I made them small, because they're very dense.
Yes, I used real butter, which of course is high in fat, but in my mind it's better than filling my kids with lots of chemicals.

New Food #12

http://smashedpeasandcarrots.blogspot.com/2011/08/no-bake-energy-bites-recipe.html

I can't tell you how AWESOME these little peanut butter bites are. They're super easy to make, and full of protein. You can make them peanut free by using coconut oil, but we have no food allergies in my family and we love peanut butter.
I do not use coconut in these since I rarely have it in the house and for me, coconut is not nice to my band.
I tend to make half with the chocolate chips, and half without. That way if the kids want them for breakfast, I give them the chocolate free version.
So yummy!

Double the recipe...they won't last long!
I think that's enough new recipes for one day. I have more, but I'll save some for next Friday.

Have a great weekend everyone!

Thursday, October 3, 2013

TTT, Why Can't I Get My Act Together on Any Other Day?

I NEVER have time to post all the million things running around in my head. Ugh. It's Thursday, so I guess I'll just give it to you by the numbers...Ten Things Thursday!

1. Anyone who knows me knows I LOVE a good bargain. I can sniff a clearance sale a mile away. I ran into Penney's today to do an exchange for my kids and found a rack of boys and girls swim suits for...wait for it...


.97!

Yes, I bought 14 of them. My total was $14.97. I was calling people asking them what size their kids wear! 
I might go back tomorrow. I don't think I got enough.

2. I've been trying to do 'random acts of kindness' this month. I have a friend who does that every year during her birthday month and she blogs about it.
I haven't been posting about each act, but have just been trying to do more positive things.
So today, I did my weekly grocery shopping and I always go to the same cashier. She is awesome, and super patient. I always have a tone of price matching and coupons, which takes a lot longer. 
I decided to buy a package of fall-ish cookies from the bakery and give them to her as a thank you. I had them rung up separately and stapled the receipt to the bag, then tried to give them to her. She was so nervous! She said they'd fire her if anyone found out she accepted a gift from a customer.
Really? I can't thank a person for doing an awesome job!? I felt terrible.
So I went to the front end manager, explained what was going on, and he assured me he would make sure she got the cookies and she would not be in trouble. He told me he would put them in the break room with her name on them.
Sheesh, try to do something good and almost get someone fired!

3. I ran my first 10K last Saturday. I've been meaning to write an entire blog post about it, and of course, never find the time.
I finished in 1:27. Hubby tells me that is a great time, especially since the course was super hilly. He did the half marathon so he is well aware of the hills! He said everyone was complaining about the course.
I kept saying this would be my last race, and that I'd be retiring once I got this out of the way.
I have to admit, running that race felt great and as I crossed the finish line, I thought I might want to do it again. I must have lost my mind somewhere out there!
Here's a pic taken at 6:00am, just before leaving for the race...

Had to crop out the hubby. Not sure if he wants his face on here.
I swear, my 2 shirts make me look pregnant. I assure you, I am not.

4. I'm having an Upper-GI and Esophogram next week. I've been banded for 3 years and before I go for my 3 year follow-up, I want to make sure everything is OK in there. I still have some mild heartburn almost every day which is a bit concerning to me. Better to know for sure.

5. It's still about 80 degrees here this week. Seems odd for October, but I'm not hating it. The kids are itching ot wear some of their school clothes that are long sleeve, but they'll just have to suffer through! We actually went out for ice cream the other night and watched the sunset at the beach. That's my kind of fall weather.

6. Poor Kiddo #1, the one with the anxiety problem, forgot I was not picking her up from school today. I get a call at 4pm. from another parent telling me she is at the school and my daughter is crying, wondering where I am. Thankfully the buses hadn't left yet and they were able to get her on it, otherwise I would have had to run to the school to get her, and try to be back home before kiddo #2 got off the bus! So happy that mom happened to have my phone number in her phone.

7. My sister is coming for 5 days next month. I can't even begin to tell you how excited I am. She's the most awesome person I've ever known, and I get to call her my sister. Girl time rocks!

8. Went to the doc last week for a sinus infection. They gave me humongous horse pills of Amoxicillin. I was doing OK cutting them into 1/4 and taking them slowly. Then, one night I took one without eating first and I was up sick all night with stomach cramps and some vomiting. I haven't taken one since and I'm just hoping like heck that the infection is gone. If not, I'll certainly be asking for something different. Enough of yuck-o tummy killing pills.

9. It's almost 8pm. I've been working on this post for several hours!

10. I need to go sit down and watch some mindless television. I'm holding out hope that the new Sean Hayes show is funny, since I was disappointed in the Michael J. Fox premiere last week.

Have a good night folks!

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Ten Things Thurday!

I haven't done a TTT post in a while. Sometimes life is just too busy to sit and think of 10 things. So, here goes...

1. In two days the hubs and I are doing our races. I'm supposed to run a 10K and he's doing a half marathon. I've never run more than 4 miles at a time, but we signed up for this race ages ago. I figured I had plenty of time to train. Well, then I got sick, and had gallbladder surgery, and then had a tumor removed, then got a sinus infection. So, with all that said, I totally suck and didn't train properly for this thing. I'm lucky if I can run 2 miles, let alone 6. But, I signed up for this and I believe in fulfilling my commitments.
I'm gonna' finish this thing if it darn near kills me.
Wish me luck!

2. The in-laws are in town and loving every  minute of spoiling the girls. We even went to school today to surprise them and have lunch with them. So cute.

3. As promised, here is a picture from my birthday weekend. We went to the zoo because it was elephant appreciation day, and the elephant is my absolute favorite animal. It's like it was all just for me!


4. I don't think I mentioned it before but after my tumor removal, which was super easy and done in a doctor's office, I was sick for weeks. I had to stick to full liquids or run the risk of puking for hours. I was getting so sad because it was like the whole gallbladder thing all over again.
Then, I was talking to one of my nurse friends who said it sounds like I'm one of the few people who have a severe physical reaction to all forms of anesthesia. That's what the hubby had said too, that it seems like my body takes a super long time to adjust after any sort of procedure. I guess he was right.
I'm happy to report that I'm back to being able to eat real food again. I even had some turkey chili last night and it all stayed down! Oh, how I have missed food.

5. Now that I can eat again, I'm finding I have forgotten how to live the bandster lifestyle. I haven't counted calories, or logged food in a journal in ages. I didn't have to. If I ate ice cream, that was fine because it was probably the only thing I'd be eating the whole day, so the calories didn't much matter.
I have to admit that yesterday while I was packing my lunch, I kept staring at what was in my bag and wondering if it was eough or not enough. I was lost!
I must get back in the routine again because my band is nearly empty, so it's all on me now.

6. We're taking the kids organic apple picking on Saturday. I'm excited to make apple sauce. Fall is my favorite season.

7. I went around and caulked all our new windows today. The installer suggested that we do that to make sure we keep all the cold air out this winter, since there can be small gaps that let in the cold. I felt like such a super woman with my caulk gun!

8. It's not even October yet and my kids are talking about Christmas on a daily basis. They can't wait. They've told me how lucky they feel that they get 3 Christmases when most kids only get 1. We have our Christmas here at home, then we drive to NY and have Christmas with the grand folks, then at my sisters house on Christmas day, so they're right, they do get 3! Lucky ducks.

9. We're celebrating my older daughter's birthday on Sunday even though it's not until next month. Since the grandparents are here, we want to do it with them. Of course when it's her actual birthday she'll get a special breakfast, and a small gift from us, but the big deal is this weekend. I can't believe she's going to be 8! Where did the time go?

10. I suppose I should get my butt up and start prepping a dinner for tonight. Sitting here, being lazy feels so good though!

Have a great night folks.
Enjoy this gorgeous fall weather and be well!

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Just a Quick Update

I'd love to post a picture update about my birthday, but sadly my kids have taken over my computer...the one that holds all my pictures.

So, since I haven't posted in a while, I'll just tell you that the birthday celebrations went well. I got to have ice cream, which is usually all I want on my birthday! It was heavenly.
I also got a pedicure that was long overdue.

Hubby took my stitches out of my arm and wow, does it feel so much better with those suckers gone! I did kick boxing and body pump back to back yesterday, and it didn't hurt at all. The scar isn't too bad either.

I really wanted to donate blood on my actual birthday, especially since there had been a big appeal for donations the week prior. Apparently Wisconsin was at a dangerously low level for blood. I called the local donation center and tried to get in, and they were totally booked for the entire day! I guess they won't be dangerously low for long, huh.
I made an appointment for Friday afternoon. I brought a protein shake and a salty snack with me to have in the car on the way there, since I was doing a double at the gym that morning. I also drank tons of water that day and the day before. I was really trying to be a good little donor.
Well, all my good intentions were for naught because I was turned away.
Apparently my iron levels are too low to donate. I haven't been anemic since college! I was trying to figure out what changed.
Well, all those months leading up to my gallbladder surgery when I was unable to eat much of anything. The months of no solid protein and no vegetables at all. That is likely what caused the iron deficiency.
I haven't needed to take iron pills in decades, but I stopped at the store on my way home and bought some.
This could explain why I get so tired! I tried to give back. I really did.

Today I feel like I'm coming down with a cold. Darn school germs! Gets me every year. I make my kids wash their hands the minute they walk in from the bus, but still I got something. Yuck.

I'm supposed to do my long run tomorrow since the 10K my hubby convinced me to sign up for is a week from today. We'll see if I can breathe well enough to run. This could really suck.

Well, that's it for now folks. I promise a better post with pics soon.
Until then, be well!


Monday, September 16, 2013

Just Call Me...

Bad Ass! OK, I've never been the sort of person who would be described as tough, or bad ass. But wait until I tell you this story. You'll think I'm hard core! Remember a little over a week ago I had that Lipoma removed from my arm. The doctor was all "you can go right back to working out, No restrictions". Ha! I tried to hop down my front steps to go get the mail 2 days post-op and thought I'd die from the jiggling that happened in my arm, which caused pain. I tried to run 3 days post-op and still couldn't handle the impact of the jiggle. I power walked instead. 4 days post-op I went to the gym and did Pody Pump. I took it easy, but worked out and felt great. So, here comes the bad ass part... I decided that on Thursday, 6 days post-op, I would not only do Body pump again, but I would do Combat too. A good old two-fer! I bought an ace bandage to wrap my flappy arm up and avoid the dreaded jiggle. I wrapped that sucker up tight and got ready to kick some serious butt in Combat class. I had to take it easy on the left side but seemed to be keeping up just fine. Then, I started to feel some burning sensation in the incision area. I tried to adjust the wrap a couple times, but kept on going. Still burning, then a poking sensation. I wouldn't stop though. Had to get my sweat on! Once I got home from the gym I unwrapped and got ready to get in the shower. I decided to look at my incision wtih my magnifying mirror. Ready for this? I RIPPED A STITCH! There was the little stitch, just hanging out, not in the skin where it's supposed to be, and there was the line of separated skin where the stitch should be. Have you ever seen when someone has an earring ripped out of their ear lobe? That line that separates the two pieces of skin? Yeah, I have that. That burning sensation was actually my stitch pulling out of my skin! Is this considered a sports related injury? I've never had one of those in my life, and it would be cook to be able to say I did. Only two more days of stitches and I won't even have to worry about it anymore. My bad ass husband will remove them for me (because I'm too chicken to do it myself!). Have a good day!

Tuesday, September 10, 2013

I'm Blue (and red and yellow)...

and a little purple.

Here's my lovely arm.


Believe it or not this looks lots better than yesterday and the day before!

My incision is actually just under my super cool character bandages. However, the bruising goes all the way to my elbow. What's up with that!?
One of my friends is a nurse and she said that's all blood that got trapped under the skin. Lovely.

Hubby and I are going to a semi-formal charity event tonight. I'm wearing a sleeveless dress. There's no way to cover this mess up, except to keep my arms at my side.

I went to Body Pump today and did pretty well. I only did half of the push ups but was able to do all the rest of the work with no pain. I'm happy with that.

I'll try to get one of the kids to take our picture tonight since I bought a new dress for the occasion.

Have a good night folks!

Friday, September 6, 2013

"It's Not a Tumah!"

Remember Kindergarten Cop when Arnold kept saying "It's NOT a tumah" in his strong accent, but he was really saying 'tumor'.
Well, I went to the Dermo today to get my tomor removed. The technical name for it is Lipoma, which is a very common fatty tumor.
I hate the word tomor because it brings to mind cancer, but really it's just a big blob of fat that won't let go of the body.
I've likely had it for decades, but didn't know it until I lost a bunch of weight. Most of the time the doctor will say to just leave it alone, but because mine was huge, he suggested I have it taken out.

I had no idea it could be done right in the doctors office or I would have done it earlier.
I went to the Dermatologists office, he numbed me up, waited a couple minutes, and started cutting.

The worst part was hearing the cutting, digging, and snipping! I kept thinking I should have brought ear plugs. Even though I couldn't actually feel what he was doing, I could hear it and that was grossing me out big time. I just kept praying that I wouldn't feel anything while he was working in there!

Of course I asked to see the blob once it was removed and I was stitched up. That sucker was huge! I should have taken a picture of it. Even though it was attached to some other tissue in my arm and it gave him a hard time, he was able to get it out all in one piece.

I have 4 stitches. I haven't peeked yet because I'm bandaged up pretty well.
No pain so far. Just a little tugging feeling, I'm assuming from the stitches.

So, there you have it. If you have a Lipoma and have wondered if you should have it taken care of, I'm here to tell you that it's really no biggie. Find a good Dermatologist and get it done!


Thursday, September 5, 2013

And Sometimes the Universe Wins

For those of you who applauded me the other day when I posted about not letting the universe win in the battle to get to the gym, I'm here to tell you that I don't always win that battle.

There are always going to be days that we just don't make it. Today was one of those days for me.

Last night Aunt Flo came to town. She brought with her a bag of vengeance. It seems every other month (alternating ovaries?) I get hit with a period that could be compared to Satan's wrath.

Sorry if you're not a TMI lover like myself, but I'm here to tell you the real deal.
This morning I was in so much actual PAIN from our little monthly visitor, that it felt like someone left a knife in my lower abdomen. A sharp knife. A sharp knife that every so often would move around and stab me mercilessly. I actually yelped in pain more than once, like I was in labor.

Add to the pain what can only be described as hemmorrhaging (had to look up how to spell that sucker!) It's bad, and only seems to be getting worse with age.
I have an appointment with the lady doc next week for a biopsy just to be sure there's nothing serious going on in there. In the meantime, I deal with this lovely horror show every other month.

So, long story long. I did NOT make it to the gym today. I was supposed to do Body Pump. I did the class on Tuesday after takin the summer off. It's recommended you do it again in about 48 hours to release the lactic acid in the muscles. Nope. Didn't happen.
Instead, I lay in bed releasing cries of pain and desperation.

Tomorrow will be a better day for sure.
Until then, be well!

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

Sometimes the Universe Works Against Us

I'm living proof that there are times in life when the universe is a big bitch who doesn't want anything to go our way.
Saturday I was bound and determined to make it to my kick boxing class at the gym. I've only gone to the class once the entire summer, and I decided it was time to make time for ME.

I know I need to be out of the house by 9:00 in order to get there, find a parking spot, put my stuff away, go potty, etc. Class starts right at 9:30.

Hubby was in the basement running on the treadmill. Kiddo #1 was ready to settle into an hour of mindless TV watching. Kiddo #2 was still asleep.

Here's how it went:

Kiddo #1 had to kiss and hug me about a zillion times before I could get out the door.
I finally get out of her grasp and out the door, only to get my key stuck in the lock. I could NOT get that sucker out for the life of me. Struggle, struggle....finally get the key out and hop into hubby's car.
(I leave mine home for him because it has the car seats)
Start the car and 'FUDGE' (insert any other F word of your choosing), not enough gas in the car to get me there and back, and I do NOT have enough time to stop and fill it up.
I hop into my car. Plenty of gas but dammit, where are my sunglasses?
I decide to risk getting caught up in another kiss fest with the kiddo because I really need my sunglasses. It's a super bright day and I have sensitive eyes. I see no other choice.
I attempt to run back in and grab them, but wait...
 MY KEY GETS STUCK IN THE FRIGGIN DOOR AGAIN!
I get the key out, run in, grab the glasses without incident or emotion, and run back out.
Sigh. I must lock this damn door again because my husband is in the basement and couldn't protect my precious children from an intruder. Yes people, these thoughts do really run through my mind.
I stick the pissing me off key into the making me late lock and guess what happened?
Yeah, do I have to say it? It got stuck again. Already sweating, and not even out of the driveway yet.

WhatEVER you jerk wad of a Universe who wants me to sit home and make excuses about how I couldn't make it to class on time and therefore didn't work out.
NOT GOING TO HAPPEN! Not this time. You WILL NOT WIN!

I got the key out of the lock, hopped in my car, took a deep breath, and drove. I promised myself I would not speed, and being late really wasn't the worst thing in the world.

I got to class with not a moment to spare, and you know what happened? I kicked ass! I took all that morning frustration out in a high intensity cardio, dripping in sweat, kind of way. And it felt great!

I'm not trying to toot my own horn here. I'm actually sharing this story with you to let you know that we've all been there. We've all found one way or another to talk ourselves out of that run/walk/class/trip to the gym. But we don't have to. We can win at this game, and it feels damn good to win!

Have a healthy day.

Thursday, August 29, 2013

Ten Things Thursday!

It's getting late, so I better get this out before it's no longer Thursday!

1. My kids have been selling their stuff on Craigs List. In 3 days they've made $65. I'm starting to wonder why I told them they could keep all the money!
It has been a good lesson for them though. They've been cleaning the items, helping me take pictures and post the ad, and decide on a price. It's nice to get rid of some of this stuff we don't need anymore too.
One of our customers told us she is a kindergarten teacher. The kids went through all their books and came up with a rather large bag of ones they no longer read, and donated them to her classroom. I love that they have compassion at such a young age.

2. We had open house last night at school. They start on Tuesday. They both seem ready to get back into the swing of things, which is good. I think I'm almost at the point where I'm ready to send them back too. Almost.
They're my babies, and I love having them home, but I also need routine. The gym is calling my name.

3. I so aspire to be like this woman. How freaking amazing is it that she and her husband are so dedicated to only eating REAL food, and giving the best food possible to their 2 children.

I'm trying. I think I do better than the typical American mom in this department, but I could improve greatly.

My kids have never tasted pop (except the one time when the teacher made root beer floats, which they didn't like).
They've never eaten a fast food meal (even though my older daughter had her b-day party at McD's once!).
They've never had french fries or a pop tart or toaster strudel, etc.

We do our best to buy things with short ingredient lists, and avoid crazy stuff like red dye and high fructose corn syrup. We buy organic when possible. But still, I could do better, and I will try.

4. In keeping with the above mentioned idea, I decided to make my own freezer waffles tonight. I remembered my mom used to make a huge batch and freeze them in baggies of 2 to keep for when my niece would sleep at her house. She'd just pop them in the toaster and they'd heat up just like the store bought frozen waffles.
Since I have a kid who likes to sleep til the last possible minute in the morning, and sometime is shoving a granola bar in her mouth while running to the bus stop, I thought this would be a good idea for her.


I made a double batch. We had some for dinner, and I froze the rest. She has 10 breakfasts waiting for her in the freezer now.

5. I've had a crappy food day today. I'm on carb overload and need to stop. I've been super hungry (empty band!) and have been able to eat whatever my heart desires. It's odd how some days I have those nasty phantom gallbladder attacks, which prevent me from eating at all, and others I could eat a freakin' horse! Today is a horse eating day. I guess I should check the calendar and see if Aunt Flo is on her way to town.

6. I'm going back to kick boxing on Saturday. I CAN NOT WAIT! I need a good kick ass workout. I need to sweat.

7. I made a mistake with my schedule at work and have the whole week of September 9th off. I've decided I'll use that week to get caught up on everythin that needs to be done around the house, like re-caulking the shower. I'm thinking I'd rather go to work!

8. I'm going to my new chiropractor tomorrow and I'm hoping he can work magic on my back and neck. My other one is OK, but too far away and always smells like cigarette smoke. Fingers crossed for a positive change.

9. This week is the 110th anniversary of Harley Davidson. Here in the Milwaukee area this is a HUGE deal. There are celebrations going on all over town, motorcycles everywhere, and traffic is a mess. Praying for a safe weekend for the riders.

10. Hubby has been out to lunch and dinner every day this week. His China team is here visiting so he and his boss get to wine and dine them. Every day I ask him where they went and what he ordered. I want details. I can live vicariously through him, right.

Well, it's late folks and this mama has to get up and exercise tomorrow.

Have a great night and be well!

Thursday, August 22, 2013

Ten Things Thursday!

Hey Peeps. It's Thursday, my favorite day. Here are my 10 random things...

1. Yesterday it was nearly 90 degrees and sunny. I had to work. Today I'm off and it's barely 70 and raining. Just my luck. We did get to spend a lot of time at the library due to the weather though, and I love that my kids love the library. Not to mention that my little one checked out a book about the stock market. She's a riot.

2. My neighbor, whose daughter is a pastry chef, brought over some absolutely to die for fudge brownies last night. She could quickly become my favorite neighbor, except for what happened next...

3. Said neighbor also brought my kids one of those floor piano things, like in the movie BIG. Yeah, that was fun for the first 5 minutes. I don't care how good her brownies are, that piano is likely to drive me bonkers!

4. Remember last week I said I upgraded to a smart phone? Well, it is now called the Stupid Phone. It gets absolutely no reception in my house, and I have to go out to the driveway to make a call. Hubby's phone is just fine. No problems there.
Let me tell you the customer service at Verizon SUCKS the big one. I literally had to leave the store last night and sit in my car because I was going to blow a gasket. All I want is a phone that actually works, is that asking too much? I'll be writing a letter of complaint once this is all straightened out.

5. I'm pretty sure I've become a pescetarian. I can eat fish and I love fish. All kinds. I've come to grips with the fact that most of the time I just can't digest chicken, and after watching a friends video of a chicken processing plant, I'm really done.
We like fish but had only been having it once a week because of cost. Well, I'm worth the price of a good meal so I'll be buying lots of fish from now on, and enjoying hot, protein packed meals with my family. Yum.

6. The kids in Wisconsin don't start school until after Labor Day and that makes me happy. Of course there are days when the kids drive me crazy, but for the most part I like having them home. We've been doing fun things together and making great memories. Things that my parents never took the time to do. They grow up too fast so I plan to enjoy them while they're little.

7. My husbands China based employees are coming in for a visit. I think it's a first trip to the U.S. for both of them. We're hosting them for dinner one night. I'm planning an All-American meal of grilled chicken, hot dogs, pasta salad, watermelon, apple pie. Hubby says I'm doing too much because they're teeny tiny ladies and don't eat much.
I'm excited to meet them and hope they enjoy their American experience.

8. Hubby will be working late tomorrow night and won't be home for dinner. I told the girls we could go out to eat since Dad won't be home. The decided they'd like to eat at Costco. Seriously. What is wrong with my children!? $1.50 slice of pizza makes them happy.

9. This is the princess crown thingy I got for the girsl at the state fair. I'm sure I could make these myself, they look pretty easy. If either of my kids decided they want to have a princess birthday party again, I'm going to make these for the party guests. So fun!


10. Since I posted pics of myself the other day, and they were all of me on the race day with no make up, I decided I should post another one of how I normally look when I go out in public! Here's one from earlier this month.


That's it for today folks.
Have a great day!

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

Three Years and Time to Come Out

Saturday was my 3 year Bandiversary. I honestly can't believe 3 years have passed, and that I'm here, holding strong and maintaining my weight loss.

I celebrated the momentous day by doing the Dirty Girl Mud Run. There's no way in hell I would have even thought about doing that when I was rocking the scales at 230+. I would have been embarrassed about my size, and I wouldn't have been able to do many of the obstacles.
There were 8 of us who did the run together and I was far from the slowest or heaviest of the group. In fact there were only 3 of us who really wanted to run, and not walk. I felt great, all while being especially careful not to leave out those who are less fit, because I know how that feels.

So, in keeping with tradition, I'm posting before and after pictures. However, this time I'm not blocking out my face. I've decided that I really don't care any more if people know I had weight loss surgery. I'm certainly not going around town broadcasting it, but if people find out and see my face on my blog, well, there are worse things in the world. I'm not ashamed. I'm sure there are people who have already guessed, and that's fine too.
I know that it's not just the band doing all the work, and that truth is good enough for me.

August 2010
So here goes...
August 2013



















I feel less fit than I should be since I've not been in the gym much this summer. However, looking at my before picture makes me feel a little less bad about that. I've come a long way and I will focus on the positive.

Want to see pics from the Mud Run?
I tried to crop out the other ladies, but here are the before and after shots from that day...



Yes, our shirts said "Let's Get Naked"! Not my idea, but it was funny and we got a lot of attention.

The course was NASTY. We had mud where mud should not be. Our shoes, socks and underwear had to be thrown in the garbage. That being said, it was a ton of fun and I'd do it again!

This past 3 years hasn't always been easy. I've had my struggles with the band. But I have to say I wouldn't be where I am today without it. I wouldn't have been able to do this without some help. I am thankful for the kick start I got from my band and my surgeon.

So here I am, coming out and showing my face after 3 years of anonymity. I hope you're not too disappointed!

Have a great night and be well my friends, be well!


Thursday, August 15, 2013

Ten Things Thursday

It's Thursday. It's Random. It's Ten Things Thursday!

1. My almost 8 year old got her early birthday present today. Her birthday is in October but she was in need of a new 'big girl' bike, so we picked it up today. She is SO excited. She was singing "thank you mommy" for at least a half an hour. These are the mommy moments I live for.

2. I have officially entered the 21st century, with the rest of the free world. I now have a smart phone. I've never had one, and never really wanted one. However, when we had to update my husbands phone and add him to my plan, they offered to upgrade me for free. We went for it.
Keep in mind, I have no idea how to work this darn thing. I didn't even know how to answer it this morning when it rang! I'm sure I'll eventually get the hang of it. Or, my 6 year old will teach me.

3. I just painted my nails bright turquoise with glitter. That's the sign of an interpreter who doesn't have to work for a few days. I don't often get to wear glitter nails.

4. It was so gorgeous out today that I washed sheets and hung them out on the line. This is my favorite kind of weather. No sweat and humidity. Just beautiful sunshine.

5. I'm going grocery shopping BY MYSELF tonight. It's been tough this summer to try to get through the store with my 2 kids who want to buy everything they see. Hubby offered to spare me that headache and suggested I go after dinner. I just may get lost and never come home!
You know you're getting old when you get excited about the grocery store.

6. I've decided to have the tumor removed from my arm. Not sure if I've talked about it here before, but I have a Lypoma (fatty tumor) in my left arm. It hangs like a golf ball in a stocking, and it bothers me. I didn't want to have it removed before because it's surgery, and figured it would be expensive.
Well, we have met our deductible so now is the time to do it if I want it done.
Come to find out they remove it in a Dermatologists office! No hospital, no drugs. I go on September 6 after the kids get on the bus and I can drive myself. Why the heck did I wait so long!?

7. I slept a solid 8 hours last night without even getting up to pee. This is a small miracle. I really wanted a cup of tea about an hour  before bed but decided that a good nights sleep was more important. It worked. I woke up so well rested and happy.

8. I tried Atkins' ready to drink shakes because they were on sale. Big mistake. They taste like chalk water. Why would anyone willingly buy and consume that sludge? Never again. I'll stick to what I know I like.

9. Remember I told you my BFF had gastric bypass and was struggling with lots of problems. Well, after 3 trips to the emergency room, and several bouts of dehydration, she finally stood up for herself and insisted she wasn't going home until they figured out what was wrong. Sure enough, she had an ulcer that was causing all her nausea, vomiting, and inability to keep down food. Once they treated the ulcer, she was fine!
Her douchebag of a surgeon should have his head examined. I've heard nothing but negative things about him, but he has the market in the area because he's the only one who does weight loss surgery at that hospital. People have no choice and have to go to him. I'm sure he's a skilled surgeon, but his bedside manner is missing in action.
I'm just glad she's finally getting better and getting the treatment she needs.

10. In my last post I mentioned that I had gained some weight. Well, I'm happy to report that as soon as my T.O.M. left, the scale went back to normal. I can't believe how much weight we can gain during that time, but I'm glad it's gone. Phew!

Two more days until the Dirty Girl and my 3 Year Bandiversary! I'll be sure to post something on Saturday, and hopefully have some pictures from the big event.

Enjoy the rest of the week and be well!

Monday, August 12, 2013

MIA For Many Reasons

I know I haven't been around much. I suck at this blogging thing. I haven't even been reading your blogs much. I have lots of reasons for my absence.

Ya' see, I usually read all your blogs while I'm at work, since I sit at a computer for the most part of my day. Well, I've only worked once in two weeks and that day was SUPER busy, so I only read and commented on a couple blogs. I didn't have any time to write a post of my own.

Also, I've been spending lots of time with my munchkins, feeling like summer has been slipping away too fast. We hardly got any summer, and now its almost gone already! I have that pit-if-the-stomach feeling of impending doom, because I have to send them back to school very soon. It's depressing.

Now that I'm healed and feeling TONS better after gallbladder surgery, I'm struggling with maintaining my weight. For so long I wasn't able to eat any solid protein, and some days I survived on cereal alone. Now that I can eat more,  I need to focus on breaking the bad habits that helped me survive when I was so sick. Cereal is no longer my friend. I must stop the maddness.


In other news, I'm doing the Dirty Girl this weekend.
It's happens to fall on my 3 year bandiversary, so what better way to celebrate, right?!
Well, I'm a total slacker and haven't trained much for any sort of obstacles. At least the ladies I'm running with haven't been training either, so I won't look like a total loser. They also don't know I've had weight loss surgery, and I don't plan on telling them. I do plan on having my picture taken at the race and sending it to my surgeon along with a thank you note for giving me a new life. He should get a kick out of that.

That's it for now. I hope you'll all forgive me for being absent!
Have a great evening, and stay well.

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Cream Puffs and Cookie Cake

Today is our 9 year wedding anniversary. We celebrate things in a big way in our family.
This year the celebrating started 3 days ago. While I was at a birthday party with my oldest, the hubby and younger child went to the store and got a cookie cake, along with a beautiful mum for the yard.
I haven't had a cookie cake in many years, so they couldn't know how much I LOVE cookie cake. I'm pretty sure I could eat the whole thing. I did not.
I had some on Sunday, and some yesterday, the girls each had a piece, and the rest is going in the freezer. This is dangerous ground for me.

Part 2 of our anniversary celebration was the hubby taking the day off from work yesterday, and us taking the kids to the State Fair. We hadn't ever been before, but heard it was awesome.

Since moving to Wisconsin we've been hearing a lot about the famous cream puffs. We promised the girls that they could split one (they're huge) at the fair. They were really looking forward to it.
I mentioned to the hubby that I was not going to have any.
He said "you're not even going to have a little taste?". He knows of my love of sugar, and how I often have a hard time saying no. My answer to him was "Nope, I have that cookie cake waiting for me when we get home. I can handle the delayed gratification".
Besides, I'm sure the cream puffs wouldn't compare to the ones my mom used to make when I was a kid, so I can live without.
Well, the kids got their enormous cream puff. They both said it was too much and they felt sick afterwards. I asked if they would ever eat one again and they both said "NO!".
We came, we saw...

Tonight we're going out to dinner at our favorite Japanese restaurant. This is a place where we know we'll get good quality, healthy food. Nothing fried or processed. We are not ordering dessert. Please, no more sugar. I really need to detox. It's the same old thing...it tastes great at the time, but then I feel like crap for hours after.

I promised myself I will drink tons of water today and stick to protein shakes until dinner. Even though I'm eating healthy tonight, I need to make up for the sugar from Sunday and Monday. I'm also pretty sure we'll be having a glass of wine when we get home, so I'm trying to plan ahead.

I had a very hard time sleeping last night so I missed my morning run. I am going to do the elliptical though, because I have no excuse not to.

I have another post rolling around in my head about the American obesity epidemic, and the stuff I saw at the fair, but that'll have to wait until tomorrow. Right now I need to go sweat!

Have a great day folks. Stay well and be strong!


Tuesday, July 30, 2013

The Post-Op Appointment, and Other Stuff

I have my post-op appointment today. I was lucky enough to be able to have my general physician do the appointment locally, which saved me 4 hours of car time. My surgeon is in Illinois and I really didn't want to have to go back there for such a quick appointment.
Everything checked out A-OK.
The problems I'm having with eating chicken are apparently normal at this point. Normally when a person eats a meat product, or anything that requires more bile for the body to break down, the gallbladder steps in and starts shooting out bile. Well, when you don't have a gallbladder, or one that is diseased, there is no bile and the body doesn't know what to do. That's why about 30 minutes after I ate chicken, it came back up completely undigested. Makes sense to me.
He says I can keep trying, since the liver should eventually take over where the gallbladder left off. However, I'm not so sure I want to keep trying and and throwing up! Becoming a vegetarian is looking more and more like a good option for me.

I've gained 4 pounds in a week. Being able to eat more has its drawbacks.
I go back to the gym in full force next week.

I'm having a hard time with how fast summer is going by. It's been really chilly this week which doesn't help much. I enjoy having the kids home with me (for the most part). I hate the thought of them going back to school in just a month. I feel like there's more I wanted to do, and not enough time!

My oldest daughter has science camp this week. She's been loving every minute of it. I didn't send the younger one, even though she's old enough to go. We felt it was time that the older one got a chance to do something just for her, without her baby sister tagging along. That was a great decision!

My younger one told me today that when she's a teenager she wants a TV in her room. She said "you know, after you tuck me in and kiss me goodnight, I could watch a little TV before I fall asleep".
I asked "Are you sure that when you're a teenager you'll even want me to still tuck you in?". Her response was "Yes!". Ahh, the innocense of a 6 year old. I'll have to remind her of this conversation in a couple years.

Hubby is in Chicago at a Cubs game tonight. Ironically, they're playing the Brewers. We joked about who he should root for, since we lived in Chicago, but live near Milwaukee now.
I told him if he values his life he better cheer for the Cubs! When in Rome...

Since hubs is not home, the kids are having pizza for dinner, then we're going out for a girls only ice cream date for dessert. Fun stuff!

That's it for now folks. I hope you're having a great day.
Stay well!

Friday, July 26, 2013

Let's Catch Up, Shall We?

Eh, once again I missed Ten Things Thursday yesterday.
I had to do grocery shopping with both my kiddos, which takes twice as long because they have to stop and look at EVERYTHING in the store, so that sucked up half my day.

Anyway, I do have some random thoughts going on, so even though it's Friday, I'll share them with you.

1. I have my lemon/cucumber water in the fridge right now. Thanks Judi for sharing that idea of a refreshing, healthy, detox.
I've been getting a lot of acne lately for no known reason, so I thought I better give this idea a try. Besides, we could all use more water, right?!

2. My kids have discovered old episodes of "Jon and Kate Plus Eight" on Net Flix. They love watching those little kids grow up. *sigh*, I had to break the news to them that the parents broke up. Now they're sad.

3. On Wednesday I made black bean brownies for the girls. They're super healthy and full of protein. Of course I had 2 of them myself. I thought I was fine, but spent the rest of the day throwing up and was unable to eat dinner. I believe it was way too much fiber for me. I still felt irritated yesterday so didn't eat much and pushed the liquids all day. I'm back down to 157.
I'm hoping this is nothing and it was just too early. Fingers crossed.

4. It's been a lot cooler here in Wisconsin this week which means I've been walking outside again. It feels great!

5. I've been reading a lot about being vegetarian. I think that's where I'm headed since I still can't tolerate meat. Keep in mind that I haven't eaten red meat in over 20 years, so it's just been chicken and turkey for me. But even those lean meats come back to haunt me.
I have to say I'm not missing it. I love fruits and veggies, beans, tofu, etc. I don't think I'll ever give up eating fish, but the other stuff I could care less about. We'll see how it goes.

6. Both my kids have recently learned how to ride bikes without training wheels. That means there's been a lot of falling down lately. Yesterday I told them I was going to run in the house for a minute to turn the oven on and I'd be right back.
Well, of course that was the exact moment my 6 year old fell off her bike. Onto her FACE. Lots of blood, swollen lips, road rash. Nice. Ugh!

Well, both kids are up and ready to start their day so that's it for me. Only 6 random things today.

I hope you're all getting out and enjoying your summer so far!
Be well.

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Back to Life as We Know It

I have a gazillion things running around in my head that I want to share with you folks, but life has been pretty busy around here. That's a good thing, because I hadn't really realized how much life had slowed down while I was getting sicker and sicker, and just getting used to it being that way.
I can now get through entire days of craziness without needing a nap to function. Woo Hoo!

I got the pathology report from my surgeons office and apparently my gallbladder was green and purple! You know I love to accessorize. Leave it to me to have a fancy gallbladder. I only wish he has let me see it before he sent it off.
I still have occasional phantom gallbladder pain and mini-attacks, but from everything I've read, that's totally normal. I'm slowly adding foods back into my diet and it feels SO GOOD to eat real food, particularly vegetables.
Yesterday I sliced up a red bell pepper and had that with my hummus for lunch and I swear I was in heaven for a moment. I never realized how much I missed veggies! Go figure.

Before I knew I was having surgery for sure, I signed up to run a 5K race. I couldn't back out of it as the fee was non-refundable. My hubby was going to wear my number and run the race for me. However, I figured it's only 3.1 miles, at the very least I should be able to walk it even if I can't run. I had a couple friends who were running the race and I let them know ahead of time that I knew I couldn't run the whole thing because I hadn't trained and was still recovering from surgery, but we would all meet up at the end.
Well, I did it. My guess is I ran about 30% and walked (super fast) the other 70%. My lungs were screaming! I've heard it takes a while for lungs to recover from anesthesia and intubation, and now I know that's definitely true. My lungs actually hurt. A lot. But, I kept going, knowing my family was at the finish line waiting for me. It took me about 42 minutes to complete the course, which is almost my worst time ever, but hey, I just had surgery 18 days before! I think I'll cut myself some slack on that one.

When we got home from the race, hubby and I worked in the yard for SIX HOURS. We had 10 yards of mulch delivered the day before and it had to be spread. We were sweaty, tired and filthy, but we got it done in one afternoon! I never want to see mulch or a shovel again. I can't even stand the smell of it anymore!

Then to top off the weekend, I had to work on Sunday. It was my first day back after having a couple weeks off. Not only that, but I had offered to stay an extra hour to help out. Aaaagh! Why do I do these things to myself?!
It wasn't too bad. The day went by pretty quickly, and I was in a nice air conditioned office, away from yard work. That's good enough for me.

So, I guess the point of this post is to say that I'm getting back to 'normal' now, especially with my energy level. I think I'll send a note to my surgeon thanking him for giving me my life back again!

Have a good day folks!

Monday, July 15, 2013

Getting My Groove Back

I'm definitely on the mend, and feeling normal again.
I know this because of the day I had yesterday.
Here's how it went...

Got up and ate a bowl of cereal. No pain.
Fed kiddo #1 breakfast.
Swept and mopped the kitchen floor.
Vacuumed my bedroom.
Tossed in a load of laundry.
Fed kiddo #2 breakfast.
Went for my 2 mile power walk which includes TWO trips up the neighborhood giant hill.
Watered the veggie garden by hand since our hose is still not working.
Weeded the garden.
Sprayed weed killer on all the flower beds around the house.
Filled chipmunk holes (those suckers want to get into my house!)
Showered.
Fed everyone lunch, including me. No pain.
Took Kiddo #2 to a birthday party. She didn't want me to stay.
Used that 2 hour time slot to walk around a couple stores and do a wee bit of shopping.
Had dinner with my family. No pain.
Watched AGT with the kiddos. Our favorite show!
Made blueberry sorbet in my vita mix. Super yummy.
Got kiddos ready for bed.
Put freshly washed sheets on our bed.
Watched TV with hubby.
Crashed!

Do you see any naps in there? Nope. No need for a nap all day and I felt fine!

Feeling good about having the GB surgery now that I can see how sick I really was.

Have a great day folks!

Thursday, July 11, 2013

Life is Good, TTT Style!

Hey Folks! It's Thursday and I'm happy!
I've been meaning to post all week but sometimes life (and kids) gets in the way.
So here are my Ten Things on this wonderful Thursday...

1. On Tuesday I felt hunger. Real, honest-to-goodness hunger, just before lunch. I realized I hadn't felt that in a very long time. For several months I've been eating to survive, and to keep my hair, but not because I've been hungry.
That tells me things are healing and the gallbladder was the culprit of my problems.

2. Almost all of the glue has fallen off my incisions and everything looks good. I'm pleased.

3. Yesterday and today I went for a 40 minute walk in the morning. The first real exercise I've had since last Sunday and it felt awesome! I can't wait to get back into the gym.

4. My surgeon says I can have my post-op appt. here in Wisconsin with my general doctor. Not having to drive back to Illinois will save me 4 hours travel time and a lot of gas. This makes me happy!

5. I can poop! Yes, I know that may be TMI for most people, but I have to share. I've been suffering from severe constipation for so long that just that simple act was like the heavens opening up and angels singing!
Hallelujah, amen, let the church say AMEN!

6. We went to an outdoor concert last night and I had a glass of wine. I didn't wake up feeling like I'd been hit by a truck Another step in the right direction.

7. Hubby and I went out to dinner the other night. MIL is in town and suggested we take the opportunity for a date. I was very careful about what I ordered but I ate everything and it ALL STAYED DOWN! No heart burn, no puking. That, my friends, is like a mini miracle!

8. I'm maintaining 158.5, even with my new adventures with food.

9. My daughter was playing around with her new tape measure, and learning how to measure things. She decided to measure mommy and we discovered that my waist is back down to it's pre-surgery 34"! All the bloating and swelling is gone. I put on my size 10 denim shorts and they went right on, zipped, and no discomfort. I had to giggle.

10. I'm just about out of all my 'safety foods' like soy yogurt, which means today I need to venture out and try other things. I really need to see if I have any issues/attacks. I'm still scared but feeling more confident due to all the things I listed above. Wish me luck!

That's it for now folks.
Get out there and have a great day!
Be well.

Monday, July 8, 2013

Some Pre and Post-Op Shots, and an Update

Hey All!
I've been meaning to do this post all week but just haven't found the time. Plus, my kids are always on my laptop, where my pics are stored, so my opportunity for posting is limited while they're home!

Anyway, I took some belly pics the day before surgery. I was really feeling down about having more scarring, and figured I'd be hating my body after the gallbladder removal. Not that I ever go around showing off my abs, but still, I just wanted to keep my mostly normal looking body!

Here is what the belly looked like one day before surgery. Keep in mind I haven't been doing my grueling work outs in a while because of all my dizziness and nausea, and just plain exhaustion. Even with that said, I don't think it looks too bad for a person who has lost about 80 pounds!

Not sucking in the gut, my ribs really do stick out that much!


Dontcha' just love my port? Remember I had tried to get it moved and swapped out for a low-profile one while I was under for the gallbladder surgery, but that was a no go. I'll have to live with it!

Now, here's the same belly one day after surgery, with about 6 pounds of bloat and swelling. Yes, I weighed myself and I was 166!
It took a couple days, and LOTS of peeing, but I'm back to normal. In fact, I'm down to 158 now.




I have to admit, it didn't turn out all that bad. I was pleasantly surprised. I thought the incisions would be a lot bigger, and that my belly button would be more affected.

Today is one week since surgery, and things look even better than they do here. I didn't take another pic but promise I will soon.
The glue is starting to come off on its own. All incisions look clean and are healing nicely.

The good news is I haven't had any of that nasty acid/bile reflux that I was having in the back of my throat. I also am not having the pain at the top of my right rib cage, which makes sense because that's where the faulty gallbladder was. Now that it's gone, I shouldn't be having pain there!
I am however terrified to try to eat real food. Today I had a protein shake for breakfast, soy yogurt fur lunch, soy ice cream for snack, and oatmeal for dinner. All stayed down and didn't cause an attack. I'd like to try more solid foods but I've been living with this problem for so long, I've been conditioned to stay away from most solids. Once I'm fully healed I'll start adding more foods. That way if I throw up, at least I won't be blowing a stitch!

I'm slowly getting my energy back and feeling better with each day.

That's it for now folks. Have a great night!

Wednesday, July 3, 2013

"Where's the 41 Year Old Woman?"

I must share with you the best story from the day of my surgery.

I'm in the post-op holding area. It's where they line up all the people coming out of surgery. You stay there for an hour or so as you come out of anesthesia and have vital signs monitored. It's a long room with patients lining the walls on each side.
After about an hour, if all goes well, a Patient Care Tech. comes and wheels you to a smaller, more private room in a different section of the floor.

I hear the voice of a woman asking my nurse "Is this my patient?". She told her yes, she could take me to my room.
She giggled and said "I have to tell you, I've already walked through here twice looking for you, and had to go back to the nurses station to check the chart. I thought I read it wrong. My instructions were to get the 41 year old woman. I couldn't believe they meant you! Seriously, I guessed you were in your late twenties, MAYBE early thirties. I just can't believe it".

Of course I told this angel that I loved her and that she made my day.
I wonder if I can hire her to follow me around and give me compliments all day!

Have a great day folks.

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

Gallbladder Saga, days One and Two Post-Op

Well, I finally had the gallbladder surgery, and lived to tell about it!
You may recall I was concerned I would die on the table and leave my kids without a mom. I'm happy to report that didn't happen.

Sunday night I didn't get much sleep. The anxiety took over and I kept having bad dreams, like the doc telling me he found cancer during the surgery. It was awful.

We got up bright and early to make the trek to Illinois, to the surgeon I trust with my life. Just before we left, we were all sitting in the sun room talking and hubby asked me if I was nervous. I confessed that I was and he was trying to reassure me with kind words. Just then the biggest, brightest, most beautiful Cardinal I've ever seen sat in the tree outside my window.
For those of you who don't know, the Cardinal was my mother's favorite bird. She used to say she would come back as one if she could, and that we should think of her whenever we see one.
I believe it was my mom letting me know she was there with me. I truly do.

We got to the hospital and they checked me into pre-op waiting room #12. I told the girls it was lucky since both their birthdays are on the 12th of the month. Then my little one says "It's also the day Mema died!". Um, let's just stick with the positive here kid.

It took 3 nurses, and 6 attempts, to finally get my IV line running. I look like a pin cushion, and I'm sure I'll be a bruised mess by morning.
As soon as they got that 'relaxation' medicine going, I was flying high and had forgotten all about my anxiety. I don't even remember getting wheeled into the operating room.

Surgery started at 11:45am. and the doc was on the phone with my husband at 12:20pm. telling him we were done and everything went well. That man is fast!

The car ride home was pure torture, and let's just say I'm glad they gave me a baggie to take with me. I needed it. Three times.

I am not in a lot of pain. The worst part has been the nausea. I know it's from the anesthesia, but it's awful.
It took me from 3:00pm. yesterday, until 3:00am. today to finish one 11oz. protein shake. I took tiny sips as I could, just so I could take the pain meds without upsetting my stomach.

I'm allowed 2 pills every 4 hours but I've been taking 1/2 of a pill every 3 hours. Just enough to keep ahead of the pain, and not make me sleep all day.

The two best things so far are I am NOT experiencing any of that horrible gas and shoulder pain everyone talks about. He must have done a good job at getting it all out during the surgery. I know they try to get some out before you wake up, but it doesn't always work. So far, so good with me.
Also, I had heard (and seen on You tube) that the surgeons go through the belly button with the big scope and leave a big hole that has to be packed with gauze. That was the one thing I was terrified about. I didn't want a big ugly hole in my belly button!
Well, I'm happy to report he didn't even cut me there. He made a very tiny incision just about the belly button. You can barely see it!

Still nauseous and tired today, but taking it easy. Hubs is home this week so I'm in good hands.
Eating is the last thing on my mind, but I'm pumping the fluids.
I did take some pre-op belly pics and as soon as I'm up and around, I'll take some new ones and post the comparisons.

So, overall, it hasn't been too bad.
I'll try to post more tomorrow.

Friday, June 28, 2013

It's Friday!

Two weeks in a row I missed my Ten Things Thursday post. Bad Blogger!
I've just been too busy and too exhausted to take the time to post.

So, here's what's been going on...

This week I've been cleaning, weeding, and shopping, in hopes of getting everything done before surgery on Monday.
I keep telling myself the weeds will come back, the dust will come back, the clothes will get dirty again, and I should just let go, but I can't. I need to get it all done so it doesn't drive me nuts while I'm recovering.

I had planned to go on one of my uphill power walks this morning and slept right through it. Hubby says it's because I over did it yesterday. He's probably right.

Surgical nurse called today to let me know they bumped my surgery to 11:30 from 10. Not that bad considering my BFF has had her gastric bypass surgery rescheduled twice! She should be in there having it done right now, provided they didn't reschedule her again.

My daughter has the lead in a little school play next week. It's the day after my surgery so I'm pretty sure I won't be attending. Hubby will take a video for me. I'm bummed!

I haven't had a GB attack in a few days. Feeling good, just tired.

I've learned over these past few weeks to accept the fact that 160 IS my goal weight. I've seen what 155 looks like on me, and I don't like it. I get lines in my face and neck that I don't like, and I look old. I've been at 160 for a very long time. It's time to accept it and move on. I don't care if the BMI charts say 150 is my healthy weight. It's not the number for me.
As long as I continue to exercise often, and maintain my current weight, I can be happy with that.

My secret fear is that I will die on the table and leave my girls to grow up without a mama. Awful, I know, but right now that's what is on my mind. I should get some anxiety medication, but I really hate pills.

That's it for now folks. Not sure when I'll post next so if I don't get to it before Monday, I'll be sure to let you know how the surgery went.

Have a great weekend and be well!

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Counting Down the Days

The gallbladder is coming out on July 1st. I have a 10am. start time for surgery. I made the mistake of checking out some you tube videos of the actual surgery today. That was fun. Now I'm a bit freaked out. Why do I do that to myself?!

The Father's Day dinner was a success. I ordered a tofu/broth soup and it was really yummy. I never liked tofu before but this was soft and smooth, and the broth was super tasty.

I had a few really good days with no attacks, and even joked once again about canceling the surgery. Of course right after I said that I got hit with a pretty nasty day. Bad attack right after breakfast, that caused major exhaustion the rest of the day. I took two naps, and then couldn't sleep that night. Ugh!

Here's a funny for ya'. 
Since my GB is only functioning at 13%, instead of 100%, that means it takes my system 8X longer to process what I take in. Hubby, the math genius, figured that out for me.
Anyway, Thursday night's we usually have a beer and watch Netflix together. It's like our own little cozy date night after the kiddos go to bed.
This week I had my beer, we watched our shows, and I went to bed. I woke up the next morning looking like I had been in a fight, or was drunk, or both.
It was awful. My face was puffy, I was bloated, and I was still a little buzzy. My body hadn't yet filtered and processed the beer!
I spent all day on Friday just drinking tons of water and tea to try to detox. You know what happened? Friday night I got up to pee EIGHT times. Eight freaking trips to the potty! No sleep for me.

I called my surgeons office to see if he would be able to do a port swap and give me the low profile one he had talked to me about before. I really need to take a pic because my port sticks out so far  you can grab hold of it!
Well, the scheduler told me it takes about 6 weeks to get approval from the insurance company, and we don't have that kind of time. See how 'smart' the insurance companies are? Instead of having me go under the knife ONCE, and pay for one facility fee, and one anesthesiology fee, they'd rather take their sweet time so that I'd have to do everything twice.
Sorry, no go for me. I won't sign up for another surgery just for cosmetic reasons.
Then the scheduler offered to put the GB surgery off 6 weeks so that I can get both done at the same time. Um, no thanks, I'd rather not be in pain for another SIX WEEKS!

That's about it for me today.
Catch ya' later folks!