Friday, April 26, 2013

My First Outdoor Run of the Year

I recently signed up for two races. One is a Dirty Girl obstacle course in August. The other is a 10K in September.
Keep in mind I've never done either of these kind of races before. I've run plenty of 5K races, and was actually getting pretty good at it, but I've never run more than 4 miles at a time, and have never done obstacles.

Hubby kept asking me when I was going to start training. I assured him "I'm fine, I've done lots of races before, it's many months away...don't worry about it!"

Well, today was the first decent weather day here in Wisconsin that I could actually go out and run. Hubby needed to drop his car off at the shop for an oil change. While we were trying to figure out the ride situation, some alien person took over my  brain and I was heard saying "I'll just drop it off in the morning, and run back home. It's only 2 miles". 


Me offering to run? Not sure when that happened. But the words were out and I couldn't get them back. It was too late.

So, after kiddos got on the bus this morning, I got my running gear on and headed out...

Horrible picture, I know. I couldn't figure out how to turn off the flash, but then realized it does a good job of blocking out my face, so there you go.

When I dropped off the car, the mechanic stood there looking at me like he was wondering where my ride was, or if I was going to sit and wait for the car. He looked very confused.
I just thanked him and  took off running. After about one minute I thought "Holy crap, this is a hill. I hate hills!".
I had to walk up the hill. Hubby kept telling me it was uphill most of the way and I insisted it wasn't, since I drive that way almost every day I was sure I'd know if it was a hill!

Well, let me tell you, what may seem like a slight incline while driving a car, is a HUGE effing hill when you're trying to run! Ugh. My lungs hate me.

Even though I've kept exercising all winter long with my classes at the gym and the elliptical at home, that is NOT running. Running is totally different. My lungs have been hibernating all winter and I tried to wake them up today. They are angry with me. I have disturbed the sleeping beast.

The good news is I did not die.
I will try again.

Thursday, April 25, 2013


It's Thursday! Since I can't seem to find the time to actually write a blog post on any other day of the week, I'm left with random thoughts on Ten Things Thursday.
Here goes...

1. I had forgotten what real hunger feels like. It's been a long time. Now that I'm recovering from my lactose intolerance debacle, and had a big un-fill, I now know what hunger feels like. At first it was exciting to be able to eat. Now, not so much.
I can eat way more than I could before. I'm back up to 160, from my lowest at 156.
I knew the gain would happen once I was better, but I'm not loving it!
Now I need to be more careful and accountable for what I eat, and how much. Portion size was always my problem, and it is once again a big issue in my life.
I'm trying to gain control, but I'll tell ya', it's not easy!

2. Hubby and I are obsessed with the show "The Following". There's only one episode left of the season, and OMG, how is it going to end!?
No matter how sick and twisted it is, the writers are genius!

3. I've discovered goat cheese. Thank God for the little things in life.

4. I'm still chocolate free. I'ts been a week. Still not loving that. But I do love not having pain.

5. I'm going for my first outdoor run of the season tomorrow. It's been really cold and rainy here, and I'm a fair weather runner. But tomorrow I have to drop the car off for an oil change at the shop which is about 2 miles away from the house. No sense sitting around waiting for the car. I'll just run home.
I'm kind of excited.

6. I sat down and filled in our calendar with all the activities we've already registered for this summer. Holy cow, it's all filled up! I vowed not to be so busy this year, but with swim lessons and summer school, we're jam packed once again.
I'm hoping for a week or two of just hanging out in the yard with the kids. Fingers crossed.

7. On Tuesday I did my regular body Pump class, then did Combat (kick boxing) right after. I felt fine, and energized but let me tell you, yesterday was painful! I was so sore, I was walking around like an old lady. I went back to Pump today and I do feel much better now that I've re-worked the muscles.
I think about how before we moved I was doing Combat 2-3 times a week. I was so conditioned. I hope to get back to that very soon.

8. We're leaving for Myrtle Beach in 6 weeks but I've already started to pack! I have a corner in my room where I'm piling stuff that we'll be bringing. Think I'm a little excited?

9. I'm pretty sure my feet are getting bigger. Most people who have a big weight loss actually go down in shoe size. However, I've been a size 8 1/2 for my entire adult life, and now I'm a 9. It's like my big toes won't fit comfortably in my old shoes. My last 3 pair of running/exercise shoes have all been a 9, so that means it's not just a fluke or a brand issue.
What's up with that?

10. I always take the stairs in the parking garage at work. The other day when I went to enter the stairway, there were 2 cleaning ladies in there. They yelled "Don't touch anything!".
Apparently over the weekend, some vandals, or stupid drunk teenagers, came in there and smeared human feces all over the hand rails and stairs.
WTF is wrong with people?! How low can you get? Freaking disgusting.
I felt so bad for those poor cleaning ladies, having to spend their entire morning cleaning up poop, from some stupid ass, disrespectful punks.
Raise your children right people!

That's it for today. Enjoy the rest of your Thursday.
Be well.

Thursday, April 18, 2013

What Time is It?

It's Thursday people! Ten Things Thurday...Let's get to it.

1. I met my new doctor yesterday. This would be the 'lady parts' doc. I loved her! This is my first time having a female, which was so nice. She was kind and patient, and totally not judgmental about my band. I almost didn't even mind having all my private areas inspected!

2. When you're obese, you hate going to the doctor. You're always afraid of getting that talk about watching your weight, and doing things like eating right and exercising. Or worse, the big look of surprise when they see how much you've gained since the last visit.

The night before my new doc appointment I had a dream. In the dream the doc came into the room, looking down at my chart, and said "I see here that you're ten pounds over weight. You should be careful about that". I said "Ha, you're kidding right?". Her response was "Why would I be kidding?". Then my response was "Because I used to weigh TWO HUNDRED AND FIFTY POUNDS, that's WHY! Read my damn chart!".
Um, defensive much?
Glad that was just a dream.
In real life, nothing was said about being overweight, and in fact, the doc happens to be quite large herself. I'm sure she could care less about me being 8-10 pounds overweight.
No more bad dreams.

3. My 6 year old is super-crazy smart. She was sent home with a long list of spelling words that are supposed to be for the next 6 weeks of school. She knew all of the words on the list, without even practicing them.
Then the teacher sent me home a new list that were supposed to be 'advanced' words, since she knew all of the other ones. She was to practice them and be tested on Friday.
She knew all of them on the first try. Um, what do we do now? Give her 5th grade words?
This kid is scary, and she better be something awesome when she grows up!

4. I discovered why I've been having problems with eating, tightness, vomiting, acid...etc.
My lactose intolerance is OUT OF CONTROL.
I've known for a couple years that there are certain things I can't have, like straight milk, but in general I can have some dairy and not suffer.
Those days are gone. I can't have a drop of dairy or I am throwing up half an hour later. It's crazy!
So, that's why I had all those problems, and couldn't eat, and had to have an un-fill.
Wanna' know how I figured it out? I had a cheese omelette and the whole problem came raging back for a repeat performance!
It's been awful. I'm on full liquids again for 3-4 days, and if things don't calm down, I'll need yet another un-fill.
At least now that I know dairy has been the culprit, I can stay away from it. I'm not in pain like I was last time, and I'm just taking it easy, trying not to piss off the band again.
Wish me luck!

5. My un-fill didn't cause me to gain weight. I'm back down to 156.

6. Chocolate is dairy. Just so you know.

7. I started taking a pro-biotic again since the experts say it can help with lactose intolerance. Something about balancing the enzymes in the gut. I could use some of that. Let's hope it helps even a little bit.

8. I'm pretty sure my metabolism is so effed up that if I ate even remotely like a normal person, I'd gain weight.
We went out to dinner for my daughter's birthday. The kids ate full plates of ravioli, bread sticks and chocolate mousse cake with milk.
I ate half a bowl of soup.
This is my norm. I eat that way and don't lose weight. If I eat more, I gain weight. Lovely.

9. Wine is liquid. Just so you know.

10. While in the mirror doing my daughter's hair yesterday, I made a startling discovery. I smiled and noticed WRINKLES! Yes, sad but true, I have wrinkles.
I even called my husband upstairs to look, and verify said wrinkles.
You know what he said?
"You used to have fat that filled in those lines. Now you don't".
While that's most likely true, I'm not a happy camper. All my life people have told me I look younger than my true age. I am not ready to start looking my age!

That's it for now peeps. Have a good night, and be well!

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

Weigh in Wednesday, and a WTF for Good Measure!

I've never participated in 'weigh in Wednesday' but I will this week because I have a funny story for y'all!

Have you ever stepped on your scale and know you're standing a little off center or lopsided, and you get a totally crazy number? I have!
Last night I decided to hop on the scale before bed. I usually don't weigh at night but since I've been able to eat more solid food lately, I was just curious. I hopped on but wasn't quite centered and that friggin' whore of a scale said...wait for it...


OK, in case you're wondering, that would be an ELEVEN POUND GAIN in one day! I'm almost positive that's impossible, so I laughed and went to bed.
I kind of obsessed a little bit about it while trying to fall asleep, thinking that I could actually be retaining 10 pounds of fluid, in which case maybe I should go to the hospital!
However I wasn't concerned enough to actually get out of my warm bed and try weighing again.

Alas, I didn't die in my sleep from fluid retention, and hopped on the scale this morning to a much happier number.
My official Wednesday weigh in is: 


Alrighty then. I think that's a bit better. Don't you?

And now for the WTF part of this Wednesday.
Where the F is Spring?! I'm pissed. I feel robbed. Last week when we had a couple of nice days I was all ready to wash and put away all the winter gear. Thankfully I didn't because we're right back down to winter temperatures with the added bonus or RAIN and WIND. This really sucks. Last year when we were moving here, it was already in the 80's by now.
OK, I know last year was horrible for the farmers so I don't really want 80 degree temps in March and April, but I'd really be happy with 50 and a little sunshine. Where is the sun?!

That's my rant for the day.
I hope you're all well.
Have a great day peeps!

Sunday, April 7, 2013

New Food #10, and No-cook Days

Now that I'm on the mend and actually able to consume food, I've started up the new food/new recipe idea in our house.
You may recall our family started the new year with the goal of trying 52 new recipes, one for each week of the year.
We're a little behind but I'll be sure to try to make up for lost time at some point over the summer.

Here's what I made tonight...

This is my  bowl, very few rice noodles for me

Last time we went out to dinner I ordered seafood soup. It was yummy. I decided to try to make my own version at home. I wanted to make it kid friendly, which meant not so many veggies, and less fish.

Here's what I threw together:

2 1/2 C low sodium chicken broth
1/2 C water
1 package imitation crab meat
1 package extra firm, cubed tofu
2 packages rice noodles (I got mine at Trader Joe's)

Bring broth and water to a boil.
Add crab meat and drained tofu.
Cook for 5 minutes.
Add rice noodles.
Boil for 2 more minutes.

That's it!
It was so easy to make and my entire family loved it.
My oldest daughter doesn't like tofu but she ate around it.
They all went back for more.

For me it was Band friendly.
I'll definitely make it again and I'll experiment with veggies, and maybe a finely chopped onion.

In other news, about once a week my kids ask for a "no-cook" day and my little one will ask "Mom, can you make me a cold plate?".
Needless to say, I enjoy a no-cook day but want to make sure they get a nutritious meal.
Here's what they ate Saturday night...

Laughing Cow cheese, turkey, cucumbers, grapes, strawberries and pretzels

Laughing Cow cheese, grapes, string cheese, pretzels and strawberries
Plenty of protein and lots of fruits and veggies. So, next time you don't feel like cooking, or you've run out of ideas, try a cold plate!

Have a great night everyone.

Friday, April 5, 2013

I'm Back and Taking Control!

Hey Peeps. I'm back. I missed 2 weeks of "Ten Things Thursday", so I have tons of crap to catch up on.

Last week I was in a bad place, emotionally and physically. I was once again unable to eat without throwing up. Add to that severe heartburn and reflux that wasn't getting better with over the counter meds. I was back down to 157. Don't get me wrong. I love seeing that number, but not the way I got there.

It got to the point where yogurt and oatmeal wouldn't even stay down. No stuck episodes, just eating and then throwing it all back up an hour later. It was getting scary.
I called all the Bariatric surgeons in our area and could't find anyone willing to just do a quick un-fill. So, I bit the bullet and drove the 2 hours, with my kids, back to Illinois for an un-fill.

I talked to the doc about what suspected food poisoning last month which caused hours of vomiting, and then the tightness and heartburn. He said that the irritation caused by that one day of throwing up would not go away on its own, even though I had made a great effort by sticking to liquids.
I'd need an un-fill to get things to calm down.

I can't tell you how much better I felt almost immediately! I still had some minor heartburn the rest of that day and part of the next, but it's all gone now.
I had also been having a pain just under the top of my rib cage on the right. I wasn't sure what it was but the doc said it was referred pain from the stomach. That went away immediately.

I had 3.25CC in my band, and he removed .60 which brings me down to 2.65. I know that sounds ridiculously low but I just can't handle much more than that. When I was at 4CC I couldn't eat any solid protein at all. I was good at 3.25 for a while but as soon as I got sick, there was no more eating for me.

The doc said he thought I'd be back soon for a refill, and honestly, I don't think I'll ever have another fill. Ever. I need to be able to enjoy a meal with my family. I need to know I won't be headed to the bathroom as soon as dinner is over.

So what does that mean for my future with the band? It means I have to be in control. I've had enough of letting the band control me. I'm back to having my notebook on the kitchen counter and writing down everything I eat. I'm measuring and weighing, and sticking to portion sizes (just like when I was a newbie).
It feels good to be in control. Not to mention how good it feels to be able to EAT! I think I forgot how much I enjoy chewing.
That was a long haul, and I never want to go back to that feeling.

Now that I can eat I'm back to having more energy. I did my 30 min. eliptical yesterday morning AND walked around the zoo all day with my kids AND went for a 2 mile walk around the neighborhood last night. No nap. I'm getting back to the old me! Yesterday's weigh in was 158. I can handle the gain. I'm healthy.

We've had a visitor all week, and more coming in a few days. I told the hubby that tonight after the kids go to bed I just want to get in my jammies, pour a glass of wine, cuddle up in bed with him, and watch some Net---Flix. Freakin' heaven if you ask me.

So, that's what I've been up to, and why I haven't been posting or commenting.
Have a fantastic weekend everyone!