Friday, June 28, 2013

It's Friday!

Two weeks in a row I missed my Ten Things Thursday post. Bad Blogger!
I've just been too busy and too exhausted to take the time to post.

So, here's what's been going on...

This week I've been cleaning, weeding, and shopping, in hopes of getting everything done before surgery on Monday.
I keep telling myself the weeds will come back, the dust will come back, the clothes will get dirty again, and I should just let go, but I can't. I need to get it all done so it doesn't drive me nuts while I'm recovering.

I had planned to go on one of my uphill power walks this morning and slept right through it. Hubby says it's because I over did it yesterday. He's probably right.

Surgical nurse called today to let me know they bumped my surgery to 11:30 from 10. Not that bad considering my BFF has had her gastric bypass surgery rescheduled twice! She should be in there having it done right now, provided they didn't reschedule her again.

My daughter has the lead in a little school play next week. It's the day after my surgery so I'm pretty sure I won't be attending. Hubby will take a video for me. I'm bummed!

I haven't had a GB attack in a few days. Feeling good, just tired.

I've learned over these past few weeks to accept the fact that 160 IS my goal weight. I've seen what 155 looks like on me, and I don't like it. I get lines in my face and neck that I don't like, and I look old. I've been at 160 for a very long time. It's time to accept it and move on. I don't care if the BMI charts say 150 is my healthy weight. It's not the number for me.
As long as I continue to exercise often, and maintain my current weight, I can be happy with that.

My secret fear is that I will die on the table and leave my girls to grow up without a mama. Awful, I know, but right now that's what is on my mind. I should get some anxiety medication, but I really hate pills.

That's it for now folks. Not sure when I'll post next so if I don't get to it before Monday, I'll be sure to let you know how the surgery went.

Have a great weekend and be well!

Saturday, June 22, 2013

Counting Down the Days

The gallbladder is coming out on July 1st. I have a 10am. start time for surgery. I made the mistake of checking out some you tube videos of the actual surgery today. That was fun. Now I'm a bit freaked out. Why do I do that to myself?!

The Father's Day dinner was a success. I ordered a tofu/broth soup and it was really yummy. I never liked tofu before but this was soft and smooth, and the broth was super tasty.

I had a few really good days with no attacks, and even joked once again about canceling the surgery. Of course right after I said that I got hit with a pretty nasty day. Bad attack right after breakfast, that caused major exhaustion the rest of the day. I took two naps, and then couldn't sleep that night. Ugh!

Here's a funny for ya'. 
Since my GB is only functioning at 13%, instead of 100%, that means it takes my system 8X longer to process what I take in. Hubby, the math genius, figured that out for me.
Anyway, Thursday night's we usually have a beer and watch Netflix together. It's like our own little cozy date night after the kiddos go to bed.
This week I had my beer, we watched our shows, and I went to bed. I woke up the next morning looking like I had been in a fight, or was drunk, or both.
It was awful. My face was puffy, I was bloated, and I was still a little buzzy. My body hadn't yet filtered and processed the beer!
I spent all day on Friday just drinking tons of water and tea to try to detox. You know what happened? Friday night I got up to pee EIGHT times. Eight freaking trips to the potty! No sleep for me.

I called my surgeons office to see if he would be able to do a port swap and give me the low profile one he had talked to me about before. I really need to take a pic because my port sticks out so far  you can grab hold of it!
Well, the scheduler told me it takes about 6 weeks to get approval from the insurance company, and we don't have that kind of time. See how 'smart' the insurance companies are? Instead of having me go under the knife ONCE, and pay for one facility fee, and one anesthesiology fee, they'd rather take their sweet time so that I'd have to do everything twice.
Sorry, no go for me. I won't sign up for another surgery just for cosmetic reasons.
Then the scheduler offered to put the GB surgery off 6 weeks so that I can get both done at the same time. Um, no thanks, I'd rather not be in pain for another SIX WEEKS!

That's about it for me today.
Catch ya' later folks!

Monday, June 17, 2013

The Thoughts in my Head

Too much going on, not enough energy, to compost an actual post. So, here's life in a random nutshell...

We had a nice Father's Day weekend. I got some really nice pics of hubby and our girls. I think I'll frame one for his desk at work. They're a handsome bunch!

Hubby's company picnic was this weekend. They had BBQ pulled chicken and I ate some! The best part about it, aside from the fact that it was delicious and warm and salty, is that I didn't throw up after eating it. It was pure heaven. However, I was up 3 pounds on the scale the next morning, so I'm guessing it was loaded with salt on top of salt. I don't care. It was yummy.

Yesterday we spent a couple hours weeding the yard. If you know my hubby, it's hard to believe he did this willingly. He does a lot, but getting dirty and doing outside stuff is not one of them.
He's been offering to help in the yard lately, which is awesome since we live on a huge piece of land!
Also, I get tired really easily so having him out there with me has been great.

Today is the first day of summer school for the girls. Here they have fun summer programs that we can sign up for. It's not like summer school when I was in school, where you had to go because you failed something!
My little one is taking paper mache. She likes making messes and I like when she makes them some place other than our home!

In the hours that the girls are at summer school, I'm cleaning the master bath. This bathroom is HUGE. It's larger than some people's bedrooms. I don't know whose idea it was to make it so large, but because of its size, I rarely clean it from top to bottom. Today is the day it gets done. I feel the need to disinfect before my upcoming surgery.

We are seriously considering bringing my MIL in for week 2 after my surgery. Hubby will be home with me the first week, and I should be fine for him to go back to work on the second week. However, we were talking 'worst case scenarios' last night, and what the heck we would do if I had a complication. We have no support system here. Sure, nice enough neighbors, but nobody who we could ask to watch our kids, or run a load of laundry. So, looks like the grandma may be enlisted to help out.

I cleaned out both kids closets. I packed away the winter stuff, packed a bag for the good will, and organized what was left. It was a big job and I needed a nap afterwards, but it makes it so much easier getting them dressed in the morning when there's less stuff to choose from.
Glad that's over.

I'm on liquids all day today because we're going out for our Father's Day dinner tonight. The place where hubby always chooses to go has Monday night specials, and he can't pass up a good deal.
I figure if I take it easy all day, I might have a chance of being able to eat something tonight. Fingers crossed.

I received the medical report from my HIDA scan in the mail the other day. It states my gallbladder is only working at 13%. The secretary I spoke to said 15%. So, it looks like it's even worse than we thought!
At this point I think it has nearly completely shut down, for several reasons.
I have severe dizzy spells, to the point of almost blacking out. I feel like I'm being poisoned (which technically, I guess I am). I have to take laxatives and stool softeners daily, and still am not 'regular'. Not even close. My belly gets really big and bloated as the day goes on. I'm exhausted all the time. I could sleep 12 hours at night and still need a nap by noon. In fact, I just cleaned the bathroom and I need a nap now!
Long story short...I can't wait to get back to normal!

Well folks, that's life in a nutshell for me today.
I wish you all well.
Have a good one!

Thursday, June 13, 2013


You all know I love Thursday, for all its randomness!
Here goes...

1. Today was the last day of school for my kids. Now they're mine, all MINE! I have so many summer plans for them, they'll be sick of me by August.

2. Docs office called today. Gallbladder is not functioning properly. It's actually only working about 15% of the time. Not so great. Doc says it's gotta' come out.
This is actually what I've been wanting ever since my symptoms have gotten so bad. However, now I'm scared to death!
Ugh, another surgery. More general anesthesia. More recovery. No gym for a few weeks.
I'm terrified.
Surgery is scheduled for July 1. Wish me luck!

3. Now that I know I only have 2 weeks to get stuff done before surgery, I'm nesting again. I was outside for a few hours pulling my mutant weeds this afternoon. I could be out there for 2 days and still have more yard work to do. There's never enough time.

4. I'm excited for the possibility of being able to eat solid food again. It's been far too long!

5. I'm scheduled to run a 5K on July 20. Pretty sure I'll be walking, not running that one.

6. I got a speeding ticket today. Obviously the big jerk who gave it to me doesn't realize my brain is mush because I'm being slowly poisoned from the backed up bile in my system.
We're in a rural area so the speed limit goes from 55 down to 25 as you approach the town. Guess where I was when he stopped me? Yeah. Not cool.

7. I'm exhausted ALL THE TIME. Guess what that's a symptom of?
Yup, gallbladder disease. Who knew!

8. I was injected with radioactive material for this last scan. I was told not to get too close or cuddle with my kids for 24 hours since I would actually be radioactive.
I explained this to my kids. They were terrified and wouldn't come anywhere near me!
At 5:50 this morning, my oldest came down and hopped into my bed to catch up on all her lost cuddle time. Gotta' love her.

9. We're disputing the bill for the last scan where the Radiologist insisted I didn't even have a gallbladder. There's no way I'm paying $1,500 for incompetence. Thank you very much.

10. I don't often drink, but I think tonight just might call for a beer.

That's it for now folks. I hope you have a great night.
Be well!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

I'm Back, and a Super Quick Update

I just got back from a glorious 9 day vacation with my family. I was totally unplugged and didn't even think about the internet or posting on my blog while I was away.
So, since I have about a zillion things to do (like unpack and laundry!), I'll try to update you with the quickness...

Two days before we left for vacation, I went to see my surgeon for a 2CC unfill.
This leaves me with only .65 in my band.
I've lost another 4 pounds since that day.
I'm down to 156 now.
My clothes are falling off me.

I had 2 gallbladder-like attacks on the car ride to Myrtle Beach, then had 5 wonderful days of no pain.

I was ready to call and cancel the appointment for the HIDA scan, then BAM, hit with several attacks and unable to eat much of anything again.

I'm focusing on hydration and protein shakes at this point.

Of the 9 days I was on vacation I only exercised twice, unless you consider walking around an amusement park with my kids for 4 hours exercise, then it's three times.

I really enjoy falling asleep to the sound of the ocean outside my window. I could get used to that.

I went in for my HIDA scan today and guess what they found? A gallbladder! I feel like calling that other idiot Radiologist and telling him he needs to go back to school. The jerk tried to convince me I had it removed and just don't remember it!
I'll update as soon as I get the report/results.

That's all for now....dishes to do, clothes to wash!

I hope you were all good while I was gone.