Tuesday, May 20, 2014

So Sick AND Starting Over

We've been super busy these past 2 weeks and even though I've thought about blogging almost every day, I just never seem to get around to it.

I had intended to take a moment this week to write about my re-start...the new plan I have in mind to keep me from gaining any more weight and with any luck, to actually lose some. Then I got sick. I'm super duper sick, like I can't even remember the last time I felt like this.
Right now I'm sipping on a protein shake made of pineapple, orange, and carrots in hopes that it will keep me hydrated and help me feel better.

Hack, cough, sniff!

A quick recap for you:

On Mother's Day weekend we drove up to Madison to visit the State Capitol and take a tour of the building. It was a gorgeous weekend and we even got to enjoy some sunshine (which had been missing so far this spring).
After that we went out to lunch and met up with some friends. The friends who live in the Madison area suggested a sushi buffet. They had me at sushi!
I ate all healthy choices and stayed away from the Chinese and American sections of the buffet. BUT, I still ate too much. Even though it was sushi, all good for me, there is such a thing as too much of a good thing. I felt awful and actually got sick when we got home. Proof that my stomach is still not back to normal shape yet. I had heard from other Bandsters that it takes about a year, and I didn't think that was the case with me since I'm pretty much always hungry, but it's true. The minute I bent over, food from the top of my stomach came out. Just like the old days. Lovely!
Lesson learned. No matter how long I've been at this and how much I know, buffets are never a good idea for me. Never.

This past weekend we drove up to Green Bay for the marathon. My hubby was running the marathon on Sunday but we went up on Friday and spent the whole weekend. It was a good time, and he did great with the run. He broke his personal record and that's what he set out to do. We're proud of him.

It was also this past weekend that made me set my mind to starting over with the weight loss journey.
There was a pool at our hotel. I put on the bathing suit I wore just 2 months ago in Florida and it barely fit. The bottom was so uncomfortable and looked horrible.

That's it! Enough is enough. Something needs to be done.

I cannot gain all that weight back. I will NOT let that happen. Working out every day is not preventing me from gaining weight. It's certainly helping me stay healthy and develop muscle tone, but it's not beating the battle with the scale.

I remember a woman at my pre-op class who really didn't look all that heavy to me. She said she was diagnosed with Fatty Liver Disease and that her doctor told her "You either do this, or you die". That's why she was having WLS. I keep thinking about that statement from the doctor and have decided that's my new motto. I say it over and over again in my head all day long.
Do it, or die.

You know I have a laundry list of health concerns in my family. We do not list longevity as one of our family traits. Heart disease usually claims my relatives before old age. So, for me this is a do or die situation.

My new plan, which I plan on following to the best of my ability, for as long as possible, is as follows:

Breakfast: Steel cut oats or Fiber One cereal. Both made with 1C almond milk and a banana (250)
Snack: Pure Protein bar (180)
Lunch: Protein shake made with 1 vegetable and 2 fruits (not to exceed 300 calories)
           Pack of almonds (100)
Snack: 5 prunes (100)
           Baby carrots (35)
Dinner: Salad with protein and fat. Choices include tuna, chicken, turkey, hummus, olives, avocado, olive oil, etc. (not to exceed 300)
Misc: decaf coffee and herbal tea throughout the day as needed.

I chose these foods because they're things I like, they satisfy  my need to chew, include a variety of fruits and vegetables as well as a good combination of carbs and protein.
My carbs are eaten first thing in the morning to give me energy for the gym. The rest of the day is protein and fresh produce.
This keeps me around 1,200 calories per day depending on my protein choice with dinner.

I stuck to this yesterday and today and so far, not hungry. I can't say for sure if I have more energy or feel good following this plan because like I said, I'm so sick right now.
I just know that I have to do this for my health. Do it or die.
Also, it sucks the big one that I have a closet full of summer clothes that do not fit! I refuse to buy all new clothes. I will get back into many of them. I might not ever get back into my size 10 skinny jeans, but I'd settle for a comfortable fitting size 12's at this point. As long as I'm healthy and exercising, that's good enough for me.

So, that's my re-cap and re-start for you. Sorry I've been MIA for 2 weeks. I promise to try to do better!

Enjoy this glorious weather that we're having in most of the country today.
Be well!


Beth Ann said...

I'm sorry that you are feeling so crappy. Big hugs! I'm working the food thing too. We can do this. It is worth the fight.

Jody V said...

I hope you're feeling better!